Saturday, December 31, 2005

So much for 2006 huh?
God...!the line over here is so fucked up!I don't know whether I should be grateful enough or just keep pissing off with TM?I should just probably get the streamyx quickly,which i don't know when.It's new year's eve.and I bet atleast 70% from all of us are getting high or excioted about the coming new year.'yeay'~.Im kinda excited too...but it's just that,whenever I think about the whole fun I had during 2005...it's kinda make me feel a little sobby.hehe.crap.Plus,I'll be having my super big exam on next year.ergh...how fun can it more be?But Im thankful enough that Im still alive and ...well..'maybe' just will get thru 2006 with endless 'cool'possiblities and surprises.er....for a second thought...no way~You guys know how much I really care about my grades right?OBVIOUSLY...because Im a so-so-so-so not a smart ass.Even my lil bro's knowledge is probably wider than mine.Oh well,what the heck.This bond love thingy between me and ghazi,is pretty much getting better.I love him.Does it hurt to just be in love when although you knew all along you are just another newly turned out 16 baby?Hehe.We broke up once.Just for two days,and the love bloomed back after that.It's just great having him near by my side.Deep down inside my heart and mind =).So much happened in 2005 rather than in 2004.In 2004,the only thing I knew I tried my best to nail my PMR and was tangled up all over Tez.But we're just friends now.Plus,I think he's dealing with his life much better than last time.Talking about friends,erm...ok..maybe we aren't exactly as 'friends'.Because...honestly,he's probably turning into a whole better jerk.yeah...too bad huh?He kept saying he wanted to change to be a better man,but then,all im seeing is just a jerk trying to prove nothing.Maybe ajin was right,'never changed' is a definite word for him.Well,atleast his life is better.With...or without me.

But then,2005 had gave me a new whole bright idea about life.Try to combine the bad and good side,and just enjoy the ride.ermm..yea.You probably think this is just another piece of crap.Tee-hee.Because I used to think like that too.In 2005,I finally legally had my parents' permissions to go out with friends.But not with boyfriend.Still doing it illegally.=\But then,I had loads of fun with either of them.It was a blast year I guess.I met new people.Face to face.=) I met Alan,and well...got into a little ...erm..probably 'scandal' or what so ever it was .lol.Dind't fall for him,but kinda almost fall for him.He's just not my type.and he's probably be thinking that Im a bitch right now.oh well,atleast I gave him a chance,and I gave myself a chance too.So overall,Im not really a big meany right?It's juz that in the end,I didn't get to hook up with him.Because...he's just not my type.Anyway,like I told you,Im happye nough with Ghazi right now.very very very happy indeed.What a beautiful year for me...and I'd really hope it'll be much more beautiful starting from tomorrow.Urgh...I still can remember that I got into the er...this whole marching thingy in march or somewhere around there this eyar?Memorable?Yeah...But I hated it.I hate it now too.=D no more...ever ever ever marching for me.bluek.and I'll never gonna hang out with those tomboys ever again.ergh..for a second thought,maybe I shouldn't have mentioned about that at the first place .T_T Well,but the best thing had ever happened to me was the vacation to Japan!!!My dream had came true.I love you papa.=)Ok,so 2005 is a beautiful year for me.I'd just hope it'll be much more beautiful starting from tomorrow.Happy New Year people!Guess Im going to watch the fireworks tonight from my veranda with a lot of beautiful memories ...<3