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Friday, February 10, 2006


   School girl
Damn.My head is spinning.I wonder why.It's not that Im hungry...probably I just need to eat something a lil later,to gain my energy back.I didn't have enough rest for today.Like..i laid on my bed around 10 or 15 mins...then had to rush to tuition..and got home around 5...and straight away went online...looked around d cctv..checked everything.although there r still few probs..urgh.I hate being the alarm girl.Any thing happen to diz alarm system..my dad will surely attack me.>_< School's fine..but not with the homeworks.pfff....too much homeworks..when are they gonna stop giving us such???urgh..I hope they do realise that I need sum of my own time to haf a real study.Sheesh..talking about study...when i knew nina got herself into swimming..active in sports and stuff..she's a top student..she actually freaked me out a lil..wut if i didn't get into any university??wut if my dream is only a half way??dammit.Plus...Im having a prob within myself.Who the hell am i?I dun even know who am i...It's good if u can tell who u r..I have split personality...and i dunno which one to choose..i can't tell d suitable path for me.wut is wrong with me?I got myself into sum twisted agenda..and until I lost myself.im a stranger to myself.urgh.It's really frustrating when u just can't choose ur ownself.I guess..i just need time to discover that by myself.

Damn..compared to last year...dis year is so full of tense.It's only february...but im already stress up for d stuff around me and spm.im scared of spm.no.im scared of myself.i need to get straight a's.but with diz kind of attitude..even d mirror can tell that i'd fail!plus,my bro said dentistry is harder than medic.probably bcoz dentistry's places are limited.oh yeah.tonite is blast off's grand final.damn..y do i even haf to include diz in my blog?/haha.vote for funny rabbits yeaaa.erm..i myself never voted them!haha.but i do support them.i did try to vote..but i wonder y they said it was rejected..=\ buat penat je.anyway,i just got myself a new haircut last few days.i cried.because it was d ugliest haircut i ever had.then i went to anotehr saloon to repair it.i feel so much better rite now!^-^ i miss 2005.i miss 2005.i miss 2005.huwaaaa.i want to turn back time.but gotta move on rite??a part of me can't wait to get myself from here too.hurm.malaysia.i hope overseas will teach me more about myself...next year..next year..HOPEFULLY.

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