Thursday, April 6, 2006

   Perfect yet so manipulated
What is wrong with life?It seems so perfect but yet there are still other complicated things curtained behind.I just don't know how to make up my mind.Everyone is keep pursueing me to pospont my a-level intake or further my studies at sumwhere else.I've already planned everything.n I just don't care.I wanna get out from here,as soona s I can.To make a move,To learn things,to obtain more experiences and to become the best.I am not playing or fooling around with my future plan.Of course I can only plan,but they keep putting me a question mark everytime I have put a fullstop in d end.I've decided to take medic.I realised this after I did a little operation on det mouse.I named it as 'ratty'.But thanks to det dude,he became the spotlight and stole everyone's attention.Urgh.Plus,everyone has been talking about the school's bloody prom these days.I am planning to go since most of my friends are going after all.Except for azyan or maybe alia.Actually,it doesn't really matter to me,whether I'd go or not.Talking about dress and date.How cheesy can that be?But oh well,I guess an experience and a-one-night memory won't hurt me.I hope so~Oh yeah.I've decided to join marching back.Haha.Just to get a bloody certificate.Sigh.I guess my swore didn't really work .LOL.

Other than that,I am pretty comfy with my life right now.Well,despite the 'future-i've decided it already'of course.Urgh.Making decision is hard.I know,probably one day,Im going to regret with what I've done and all.BUt Im just going to move forward and live life to the fullest.What does fullest mean to me?It is to live my life or meet my end with no regrets...at making regrets.LOL.horrible grammar.shucks.Oh.I feel so lucky being single everytime i heard bad news from the couples around me.Haha.Im such a big meany.Thank God im single and I don't need to struggle for both things.BOYFRIEND AND MYSELF.I respect those who can handle both.But i pity them who fail on both.Like what I heard,'FRIENDS ARE FOREVER,BOYS ARE SO WHENEVER'....Well,I actually prefer 'FRIENDS ARE FOREVER AND BOYS ARE SO WHATEVER'.yeah.that sounds better ;) After my former relationship,I've totally lost interest on guys.Especially immature brats.They'll get bored eventually with us and be very very membuang masa and perasaan.Sakit hati dan macam-macam lagi.Ah well.Of course,I admit that I haven't fully recovered yet.I mean,it's not that I still have feelings for him,It's juz that...only anger and pain left inside of me whenever I think about taht dude.Atleast Im happier with my life now ^-^