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Birthday
• 1989-10-30
Gender
• Female
Location
• Kuala Lumpur,Malaysia
Member Since
• 2004-12-25
Occupation
• A student...and an assasin *a ninja?lol*
Real Name
• Mim

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Achievements
• I haven't achieved what i REALLY wanted to achieve yet.
Anime Fan Since
• 2nd grade
Favorite Anime
• Well,I already watched a lot of anime..but my favourite are fma(fullmetal alchemist)!!!!!!*the best anime ever!!!*, kare-kano,peacemaker kurogane,azumanga-daioh,vision of the escaflowne,love hina and serial experiments lain.
Goals
• Make my dreams come true!
Hobbies
• Online,playing piano,reading books,listening to cool music,making new friends,reading manga,watching ANIME and crapping ~
Talents
• well..i can't really tell....maybe i can draw...*a bit*...sigh..my drawings are still like shits...




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Saturday, April 15, 2006

Reality bites
I don't really know why am I still awake although it's already 2 am.Probably because there are just so many things hit in my head.Maybe you think Im thinking too much,but hey?Should I blame my head for thinking?It's just hard to close my eyes without staring at the ceiling and recap everything back that had happened to me.I know,I know.There were so many blogs that I posted mentioned the same thing.Maybe this could be a track off for me to spot things up.Let's see.I met one of my relative just now.She has changed.She is now...more...religious?The moment she confessed everything,I didn't really tangle up in all of her stories.I didn't feel any emotion or guilt within myself.I was just a girl,listened to every words she spoke of.But none of it made me feel...I don't know.The kind of feeling where you think yourself of being the worst person on earth?The kind of sense that makes you think you're going to die tomorrow and the somewhere the clock is still ticking?I don't know.I just...don't feel it.Like how I used to.Does that mean Im getting worse?Does that mean the old Syamim is slipping into becoming a monster?At the same time,I also feel that Im more comfortable with who I am right now.Ok.I admit.I do have a little identity crises for now,but I don't know.As long as I cherish everything around me,I feel good about myself.Things are heating up.I guess that's it.

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