Friday, April 21, 2006

   New life?Sounds great....maybe.
Here's the thing.When you find yourself packed with other things which make yourself feel so busy,you'd realise that this a reality and your life.Now,I find myself typing this while the tv is still on.Great ,'news' and no one watching it since my dad gone off to his bedroom.I may don't sound as busy as I mentioned it before,but hey.Trust me on this.It's tormenting enough to lock yourself in your room and face all the books.Thinking about your dreams and future.Thinking what will happen to you if you cant achieve your goal even after trying so hard.Thinking all the cute and hot guys you'd probably meet in a new place.Thinking whether your friends will still be your 'friends'after 10 years.So much to think.Not that I stated it as if I 'HAVE' to think about all those..well,things,it's just something that I cannot avoid of =).Oh yeah,I've quitted my addmaths tuition.I think that tutor is a little troublesome and getting on my nerves at times.He just love pushing his students and get 'atleast' 100% for addmaths.Dude,I got 70% and he said 'It's ok.Try harder'.RIGHT.Then when I got stuck on few questions,he went back to my 70% mark and gave me a big headache.As if he's trying to say '70% is GRADE D.100% is A2'.Then how much do you want sir?150%??1000%??Oh and Im so sorry *NOT* that Im being such a slowpoke.Numbers just aren't my thing.I have a life and you DONT.I can tell he doesn't have a pleasure normal kind of life like other people does.He's full with classes and probably don't have family and friends.PITY.*NOT* Haha.I feel much better after quitting.It's not that Im giving up,I just feel much better to fall and rise for MYSELF.yeah,myself.NOT FOR HIM OR ANYBODY.Plus,Aida already found a better replacement for him *I hope so*.Well,since I already quitted his classes.I found myself a new tution centre.Really,I feel so much better belonging there =)

Well...maybe not that much.Like yesterday,fine.I came early and I got to know this one girl.A 'new 'friend.Which I never really noticed her at school,but hey,surprisingly she recognised me.Maybe I do exist afterall at peoples' eyes =p Then,I sat on the front.Came this one girl,drinking her mcD coke perhaps,sitting beside me.'Great' I said to myself.Whispering inside my head of course.Then came a long another one.She's pretty.But I don't know,she looks snobbish and typical girly nice girl at the same time.She sat beside me.ON my right side.Then the two intruders because I was hoping Hannah would sit beside me later,talking to each other while Im in the middle.Yeah,sure.They talked about exam and get so scared about the preparations and stuff.'Am I like a bridge to you girls?I feel like a FREAK and WEIRDO'.That what came into my mind.I felt so uncomfortable.I felt as if I was not the bridge by that time,I was...well..a wall.I bet they both are from some crappy schools around here.Of course.No other schools are much cooler than my school around here.Haha.I can't believe I just typed that.Well,then came this one girl,with earphones stucked on her ears,listening to music'pff...walkman?You sure are old'She was trying TOO hard to be cool.She looked like a weirdo and freak instead.Just staring at her walked in with that attitude made me feel much better for being myself.

Then came in few guys from my school,I tried myself to smile at them,but I guess I noticed that they didn't notice me,so I quickly took back my grand smile and keep it for better.Followed by another few guys from my school,but this one,I hate them.They are the try-hard people.Where here,we define them as POYO.Came in again my fellow friend at school.Well,IM not really close to her because she's really annoying.She's fun and whacky,but yeah.I just cant stand with annoying people.Although I myself is annoying at times.She came in and gave a weird look on her face.Staring at the whole class,as if she was thinking 'God...what is going on with my life?I can't belive Im here and going to butt in learning with these people.' Darling,this is life.You gotta put a rule in your list where you just have to befriend with people that you cant really click with.Talk to me,just try.You'll get the whole thing.Oh,before that.Came in a group of girls.They called themselves 'lova-lova'.A group.To me,where bimbos belong to and girls that cant take their face off the mirror for 24-7.They're just so...trying hard to be hot.GOD.How many people have I labelled them as try-hard in this post?Guess this world is surrounded by try-hard people after all.But for real,they're really tyring to hard to put on their uuuu-so-sexy-faces in myspace.Or marketing their butt off there.Showing their hips and body all over.CHEAP PUBLISITY.Lol.I sound so sick of them.Maybe I am.They came in and made noises as if 'Ha-ha.We ROCK.'No you don't.You guys are just typical seductive-horny-bunch of people.Which...afterall,doesn't seem so seductive at all,but look really disgusting at instead.Lol.Well,that's what I heard from few guys from my school.Yeah.I guess,this is my coming 17 story.=\ To be continued.