Thursday, February 16, 2006

   Other site
Since some of you are so interested in my "other site", I'll give you a contest. For those up to the challenge, I'll give a few clues and once you sign the guestbook or leave a comment on my other site, I'll tell you what it is. Here are the hints:
1. Profiles can be decieving
2. Since a couple of my "real" friends have followed me to here, if you check out the friends I have, one of the their friends is me. Confusing? I am a friend of my friend.
3. Red
That's all I'll give you. Good luck and Happy hunting!
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Monday, February 13, 2006

Hi
I haven't updated in a while so I thought I should so you all know I'm alive. I'm sorry for not getting to other people's sites lately and I probably won't much in the near future. I need to focus more on "reality" for a while. I'll come visit soon.
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Thursday, January 26, 2006

   Bored
I really have no reason to post. I"m merely bored and it just happens to be midnight--the ideal posting time. So here I am, yet again. Life is life. There you have it. I'll try and think of a decent rant sooner or later. Good night everyone.
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Tuesday, January 24, 2006

   Yesterday
I’m sorry about the scrolling post yesterday. I was trying to fix some things and it just must have happened. I hadn’t realized it until I checked my site later that day. So I’ll try not to have that happen again. I do appreciate all of your comments. Let’s just say a few days ago weren’t my kinds of days. The “thing” I was referring to, I won’t tell just yet. You guys all made sense and the comments made me feel better. I was just, once again, in a ranting mood and couldn’t help myself. I need to be able to express myself a bit more and thanks to all of your positive feedback, I feel more accepted here. I’ll definitely “hold on to it tight and bite the arm of whoever's trying to take it.” I’ll hold on to it with my life. You can count on that. Well that’s all I can think of saying.
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Monday, January 23, 2006

I'm back.
I'm sorry I haven't been on to check out everyone's sites, but I will be now. Internet was down for a while and the insident over here is far from being settled. So I appologize.
Once again, I'm looking for advice on a particular, personal, subject. I would really appreciate a comment or two.

Has anyone had/owned/loved/needed something that was the only thing giving them purpose in this forsaken planet? Has that "thing" ever been threatened to dissappear? What do you do?

I'm all ears. If this doesn't make sense, I'll completely understand.
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Sunday, January 15, 2006

   Busy
Beyond this point, I have a pretty busy week. I'm such a procrastinator. So, if you need me I'll be back at the end of the week.

If you want something to do, join the Debate Club I started!

Check it out!

http://www.freewebs.com/death-and-despair/index.htm
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Saturday, January 14, 2006

   FRUSTRATED
Alright, I just need to vent and rant for a while. If you don't want to hear me complain about complaining then don't read on:
I"VE JUST ABOUT HAD IT! I may be the quite one of my friends at school and I may be a really good listener but that doesn't qualify me to listen to everyone's trivial complaints...day after day! Now I'm not saying you guys on here. You guys are awsome and at least have something worth complaining about. I'm talking about my friend who constantly complains about little cuts they get from their locker or someone bumping into them. I CAN"T TAKE IT! WHO CARES!? SUCK IT UP! I'd love to just scream in their face but I can't because I don't want to make their life any worse than it already is. So instead i'm taking my frustration out on you guys. Aren't you lucky? But I know that if I don't vent this some way somehow I'll explode and that's not healthy for anyone. So instead blowing up, I've just slowly detached myself emotionally from this person. I know it's a bad idea. It's not nice. I"M SUCH A HYPOCRITE! So no one here has to believe any advice I give anymore because I'm extremely hypocritical! I know I haven't been through as much hell as the rest of you have or this friend for that matter, but aren't I entitled to some attention? some affection? Am I allowed to swear on here? Would anyone object to my outbursts? In any case I'll try and keep it to a minimal. BUT MAN! This person goes on and on about the their life and when I try and get something in, I'm interupted! That's humanity for you. Personality quirk about me: I very rarely say anything personal to a "friend" (with the exception of this site) so when I try to tell any secrets, I'm hesitant. I guess some of us guys are. But either way, when I actually attempt and am even slightly interuppted, I stop completely. If they aren't considerate enough to listen to me when I finally have the courage to express myself then I won't even try. I GIVE UP! Here is the only friends I really have. If anyone has any feelings about this subject feel free to pm, comment or cbox it. I'll leave with a final question. In your opinions, what is the definition of a "friend"? I mean a real, honest-to-God friend. I would really appreciate any comments. Thanks for getting this far in my ranting. I'll try and keep my "outbursts" to a minimum.
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Tuesday, January 3, 2006

   New Year
I haven't updated in a while but I felt this was necessary. I'm sorry if anyone finds it offensive, but in a way, I don't care. I am a Christian if you don't know it so this comes from a book but I feel anyone can, looking beyond the scripture, get something out of it:

"I keep working towards that day when I will finally be all that Christ...wants me to be." Phillippians 3:12
Fulfilling your potential
What you set you heart on, will determine how you spend your time and energy. It takes as much effort to live an unfulfilled lief, as a rich rewarding one. The human brain has 2 billion megabytes of capacity, which means you have lots of room for growth. One of the most rewarding things you can do this year is--work to develop your mind. Proverbs 29:18 we read: "Where there is no vision the people perish" Dissatisfaction doesn't come from an absence of things but a lack of direction. Too many of us are marinating in our own misery because we've settled for less than God intended.
The quelity of your life is determined by your vision--and the effort your willing to put into fulfilling it. So make a written list of the areas in which you'd like to grow, then tackle the 3 or 4 most important. And don't get discouraged if the one you're working on doesn't want to cooperate. Remember, nothing great is ever created suddenly.
Paul said, "I keep working towards the day when I will finally be all that Christ...wants me to be" Notice, it's a process; you have to work at it! Some days it'll feel like 2 steps forward and 3 steps back, but don't give up. It's better to die for something than live for nothing. And unless you try something beyond what you've already mastered, you won't grow. So, what're you waiting for? LIfe? It's waiting for you; get going!

Me again: this is not going to solve everyone's problems but I thought it was very insightful. I was thinking last night about why all my fan fics have the main character *the representation of myself* sacrificed/suicide/martyr. And then I realized that it was because I wanted to people around me to realize I exist, I have purpose, and I want them to feel sorry for not getting to know me better when I was I live. That's very spiteful of me but it's true. But that spite isn't worth much since in a few days everyone will move on, no matter how close they were to me. If I really want to make an impression, death won't cut it. I need to make it in life by fulfilling any goals I may have. So that's my challenge to the rest of you. Death won't accomplish anything, for all we know it's more painful than this world. Instead make use of what you've got and prove to the rest you mean something without having to give your life. OKay, that's my ranting. Let me know if that made any sense whatsoever. I'm going to sleep.
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Monday, December 26, 2005

   Random
I have a random question. Is there some website that one can download pictures to that won't auto matically shrink the image? I have Photobucket but if the image is too large it shrinks it. Any help? I would really appreciate it!
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   Christmas
So how was everyone's Christmas? I hope it went as planned or atleast tolerable. Anyone want to share stories? There's not much to report from me, though. I haven't finished any of my homework, so I'll go do that now. Have a Happy New Year if I don't check 'till then!
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