Friday, December 23, 2005

   Know someone--online ranting
Ever thought you knew someone so well that you thought they could be the one you could tell all your troubles to? Well I thought I had found someone. But I couldn't be further from my goal. There's nothing wrong with them, it's just that they're the one talking insessively about things. That's fine and good. People aught to do that. I just had my hopes to high is all. I've been looking for someone who can, in a way, read my mind and notice when I'm suffering. True, I hide behind the mask of my insecurites due to past drama, but none the less. I want someone to comfort me without pity. Someone who would say "I love you" first instead of a polite respond. But I realize that no human can do such things. No one can. I put all my faith into this one person and true they are me "friend" but I was just hoping for some, i don't know, common ground. Okay here's some random facts about myself. I give out hints in the slightest way. For example, metaphors. like earlier today I was with a bunch of friends and *maybe I"m just anti-social* they were having so much fun without me. I don't even think they noticed I wasn't doing anything much less notice how left out i felt. Maybe I shouldn't be posting this. Oh well. So there they were watching a movie and throwing popcorn at each other and there I was in the corner to myself. maybe I'm just a loner. Maybe I don't belong with a pack. I appologize for all my ranting. If you made it this far in the post you deserve a pat on the back. It just hurts, you know? There they were watching the LotR marathon and I sulking in the corner. Man! I'm way too sensitive. WHY DOESN"T ANYONE SHOOT ME! *figuratively speaking, I'm not suicidal, not that I"m aware of* I'll get over it in time but in the mean time, anyone else have a story to share? By the way Merry Christmas to everyone and a shout out to Cash-chan for helping this computer illiterate being find the "on" switch for the comments. Until next ranting, back to destitutio.
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