Friday, July 16, 2004

The pain...
I swear to God, the arches in my feet are falling. Could it have something to do with standing for eight hours a day? Maybe.

Work is hard, but every couple of minutes there are moments of satisfaction, when you make a good mocha frap, or gril the sandwhich just right.

Then the customer devours the thing you worked so hard to make prettyful. Ow. Makes me feel real pain for pastry chefs.

And there is but a single dark blotch on my new world outlook: I don't get paid this week.

Apparently, as a new hire, my paperwork hasn't gone through payroll yet; I'll get paid retroactivly starting next Friday.

Well, hell, enough of my paperwork went through to work for you....

But, I shouldn't get upset. Everything'll be okay. Just because I only have six buck and desperatly need to fill my tank with gas, that's no reason to panic....

I NEED CA$H!!!

Okay, I got that outta' my system....

And, in other news...well, there is no other news. All I've done all week is work; can't do more, 'cause I don't have money.

Sad, eh? Well, I did find out that one of the cards released in the Yu-Gi-Oh! movie pack will be this:

EPI-EN008
Return from the Different Dimension
Pay half of your Life Points. Special Summon as many of your monsters as possible that have been removed from play on your side of the field. During the End Phase, remove from play all monsters that were Special Summoned by this effect.

Yeah, that'll own after I use Dark Necrofear. Twice.

And....well, I guess I'm done.

Thought of the moment: Homestarrunner.com has Decemberween in July! New Teen Girl Squad! ^__^

Quote of the moment: "Well, let me tell you something, w****! He doesn't die because he's f****** Spider-Man, you w****!"

Song of the moment:

"Look What happened", Less Than Jake

And I swear it's the last time
and I swear it's my last try
and we'll walk in circles around this whole block
walk on the cracks of the same old sidewalks
then we'll talk about leaving town
yeah we'll talk about leaving
I swear it's the last time
and I swear it's my last try

We rode across that bridge all night
we talked our way through city lights
traced all the lines, were killing time
under those buzzing signs
from downtown to anywhere but here
tonight yeah I swear to these rooftops
and just hoped that car would never stop

And I swear it's the last time
and I swear it's my last try
and we'll walk in circles around this whole block
walk on the cracks of the same old sidewalks
and we'll talk about leaving town
and we'll talk about leaving
I swear it's the last time
and I swear it's my last try

we drove around this place all night
past closed signs and familiar sights
we're moving by, passing time
counting those center lines
with 20,000 lines left to go
that lead to somewhere I don't know
it might be the time that we leave this all behind

and there's been a few times
that we thought it felt right
to take the westbound signs
and just leave town tonight

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Tuesday, July 13, 2004

   Wage Slave
Work hurts, but it's a good kind of hurt. ^__^ I learned how to open up the cafe, wash the dishes, find food items, and deal with customers.

Two things I haven't done: memorized drink recipes and operated the cash register. Tomorrow, I work from three to eleven. Then, I learn how to close. ^__^

And, it turns out I get payed for yesterday! wh00t!

(I also went the whole day without thinking about Julia...until just now...damn...)

Thought of the moment: Some people know way too much about coffee.

Quote of the moment: "She's a college girl gone wild! The videos are true, Cole! The videos are true!"

(I've decided to stop naming my quotes sources; makes it more interesting. If ya' really wanna' know, just ask.)

Song of the moment:

"Doubt Full", by New Found Glory (Their CD, Catalyst, kicks arse.)

This letter explains everything
The content it is the truth
Each word could cut like daggers
If I decide to finally give it to you

I've rewrote and rechecked a thousand times
Licked it shut and said my goodbyes
Could I have so perfectly written something
Why open this conclusion

And it feels like i've already been there
Sounds like im preaching to the choir
If it looks like it wont work out
I'm the one, one full of doubt

I know that time wont change a thing
If we're wrong, moving in slow motiong
It's hard to catch up
When the world is weighing you down

And it feels like i've already been there
Sounds like im preaching to the choir
If it looks like it wont work out
I'm the one

It feels like i've already been there
Sounds like im preaching to the choir
If it looks like it wont work out
I'm the one, one full of doubt

I'm confused
dont know what i should do now
You, you confuse everything close to you
Tell me how does this feel

when it feels like i've already been there
Sounds like im preaching to the choir
If it looks like it wont work out
I'm the one... yea

It feels like i've already been there
Sounds like im preaching to the choir
If it looks like it wont work out
I'm the one, the one full of doubt

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Monday, July 12, 2004

How odd
I got dumped today. Today was great.

Yeah, Julia left me a voice mail saying that she felt she had 'rushed into things' and that she wanted to be just friends. Dumped by voice-mail...owch. If I were someone else watching me, I'd be laughing at me. And...I still laughed at me a little. XP

Well, I went through the four stages of grieving in the car ride to Barnes & Noble. Denial ("I'm better off starting college single."), anger, ("I brought her fricki'n flowers!"), economics, ("More money to spend on comics.") and, finally, acceptance and return to my version of normalicy. ("Heh...the Russian thought she was 'rushin''. Hah! I slay me!")

Anyway, I went to Barnes & Noble and lost myself in job training, watching instructional videos, and meeting my co-workers. Cool beans, no?

I learned more about coffee than i ever wanted to know, to be frank. Did you know the price of espresso in Italy is regulated by the government? True story!

Anyway, I'm totally psyched about my new gig. I'm getting $6.75 an hour, while minimum wage is $5.15! O__O wh00t!

(And I don't have to spend any of it on flowers for a certain Russian.)

(Well, I take that back; I haven't written her off. I really like her, so I'm going to the tired-and-true contingency plan for girls who 'just want to be friends'.)

(What's the plan? I'm going to be her sweet guy friend until she changes her mind. Done it several times before.)

(Okay, maybe it's never actually worked before, but you never know, right?)

(Why am I still speaking in parentheses?)

(Parentisis? Parenthisies? Peranthesises?)

I start tomorrow for actual work at 7:30 AM, until $. Then, Wednesday, I'm in from 3 pm until closing at 11. Then, Thursday, I'm off. Yayness.

Thought of the moment: Slaughter is just like laughter with an 's'!

Quote of the moment: "My back...my back..." -Peter Parker, "Spider-Man 2"

Song of the moment:

"Truth of my Youth", New Found Glory

There was a time and place,
Where I never thought,
I'd leave my own hometown,
But those days finally,
Are dead and gone,
It was never my intention to stay there,
Oh no,

There was a concious effort played by me,
To disown anything I see,
There was a girl I knew,
Way back when,
Who says she doesnt know me anymore,
These are the lies the things you never mention,
These are my past mistakes I'll stay away from,

These are my thoughts written down on paper,
It's my only savior,
From not saying what I want to say,
These are the thoughts that are on my mind,
Moments that haven't yet been defined,
And I dont know if you could ever understand,
These are the things I cant say when were alone.

There were countless hours on the telephone,
My ears were ringing from the dial tone,
There were flashing lights,
People staring,
There was nothing I could ever do,
These are the lies the things you never mention,
These are my past mistakes I'll stay away from,

This is the truth,
The only time you'll here it,
I write it down because it seems so hard to say it,

These are my thought written down on paper,
It's my only savior,
From not saying what i want to say,
These are the thought that are on my mind,
Moments that havent yet been defined,
And i dont know if you could ever understand,
These are the things i cant say when were alone.

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Sunday, July 11, 2004

Radomnisity
Great, now my other sister wants me to build a deck for her, too. see, this is why you shouldn't do nice things: because then it becomes expected of you.

If you'll look at the top of my page, you'll notice a pair of ad banners. What I've noticed lately is that they tend to change in response to keywords in my posts. I'm now going to test this theory:

Star Wars Skywalker Darth Vader Darth Maul Chewbacca Han Solo Anakin Skywalker C-3PO Boba Fett

If my guess is right, the ads will now be for Stat Wars related memorbelia, which i, frankly, could care less about.

I become a trainee tomorrow!

Thought of the moment: Everyone like my anime kitty?

Quote of the moment: "I am your father." -Darth Vader, "The Empire Strikes Back"

Song of the moment:

"Over Seasons", Authority Zero

Over seasons, like so many times before
You drop drop drop it 'til you break down the walls
Over seasons, when you come disobey
Just keep on droppin' 'til the break of the day
Over seasons, like so many times before
You drop drop drop it till you break down the walls
Over seasons, when you come not obey
Just keep drop drop drop drop:
Back in 1994 there was no reason that we had wanted to play
But a vision of expression
An ability to reason with the worries in our lives
An ability we'd recognized
How many times, would composition turn into confession?
Building a foundation for our youth to grow into progression
Making our days, free-will reside, we say!
Now you know things ain't right
And the pressure that you're granted from this life
And forever you had wondered what's in store
'Til you stand up and not take it anymore!
Doubted about the things you do
And de?ant of your scattered mental institute
No second guessing when it's already past
Denying that it wouldn't last
Here's to the days, here's to the nights
Throughout the years, how many nights? Here's to the daze that paved the way! We say!
Now you know things ain't right
And the pressure that you're granted from this life
And forever you had wondered what's in store
That's when you stand up and not take it anymore!
Like we'd done before!
The seize of day, turned on into night!
And open wide!

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Saturday, July 10, 2004

   Life ish good
Well, it is. This morning, I took my sister to the Yu-Gi-Oh! tournament, to compete. She's been playing professionally since...let's see, Tuesday?

She was knocked out in the first match, of course, but I was so proud of her for actually winning a duel. ^__^ Against a guy with a huge deck full of holos. Nice.

And on the deck-building front, in ne morning, I traded enough to get all but one of the monsters she needs (We're missing one Solar flare Dragon.) Even I was impressed with how much progress we made.

(We're missing three Mystical Space Typhoons, a Pot of Greed, two Backfires, one Molten Destruction, one Emergency Provisions, and one Magic cylinder. All but Magic C are normal commons, so I thinkm i can scrounge them up.)

And, because good things happen to you when you help others, I myself aqquired a Dark Ruler Hades. ^__^

(Now, all I myself need is an End of Anubis, Call of the Haunted, and Heavy Storm.)

After the tourney, I took her to the mall, for...I dunno', malling? We stopped at express, where Julia works, and my sister met my cute Russian girlfriend. (As Stephanie knows, I have to mention her every few minutes. Don't ask.)

Then, we went to Best Buy, and I borrowed twenty bucks to get two CD's: Anthem, by Less Than Jake, and Catalyst, by New Found Glory. Schweet, no?

And, finally, a jaunt to the comic store (www.readmorecomics.com) for Ultimate Spider-Man #62. That book was wicked-cool, and not just 'cuz of the ending. (Note to Nikorasu: I think the ending's a fake-out, myself. She'll be fine.)

And...well, I'm going to watch cartoons as I celebrate my last weekend unemployed.

I'll be earning $6.50 an hour next week, but subtract 25% for savings, and 10% on top of that for tithing. That's...I'm too lazy to calculate it right now...

Mimmi: I want to place a remotely-hosted image into my introductory block at the top of the page, but I'm unable to do so. I'll check D's site, though. Thanks.

Thought of the moment: I have a cute russian girlfriend...how long was that?

Quote of the moment: "I know I lost, but I want to loose for the right reason!" -Me

Song of the moment:

Less Than Jake, "The Science of Selling Yourself Short"

I've come to my senses,
That I've become senseless,
I could give you lessons on how to ruin your friendships,
Every last conviction, I smoked them all away,
I drank my frustrations down the drain, out of the way,
So I sit and wait and wonder,
"Does anyone else feel like me?"
Someone so tired of their routines and disappearing self-esteems,

[Chorus:]
I'll sing along,
Yeah with every emergency,
Just sing along,
I'm the king of catastrophies,
I'm so far gone,
That deep down inside I think it's fine by me,
I'm my own worst enemy

I could be an expert on co-dependency,
I could write the best book on underage tragedy,
I've been spending my time at the local liquor store,
I've been sleeping nightly on my best friends kitchen floor,
So I sit and wait and wonder,
"Does anyone else feel like me?"
I'm so over-dosed on apathy and burnt out on sympathy.

[Chorus]

Let the meaning slip away
Lost my faith in another day,
Self deprication seems okay,
I never thought I'd make it anyway

[Chorus]

I'm my own worst enemy [x5]

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See ya' 2nite!
Well, I'm going to the Yu-Gi-Oh! tourney with my sister. Yeah, she wanted to learn the game, an' I built her a deck of my spare cards. Whilst at the tourney, I'll be trading for the cards to build her a real deck. Fortunatly, she wants the rather unique type of deck that is Pyro/Fire elemental. All the goodc ards for that (and there ain't many) are common and normal rare, with the exception of Fire Princess.

See you later, then.

Thought of the moment: I'd really, really like so HTML help...

Quote of the moment: "And would it kill people to bring me offerings once in a while?" -Bucky, "Get Fuzzy"

Song of the moment:

"Blitzkrieg Bop", The Ramones

Hey ho, let's go Hey ho, let's go Hey ho, let's go Hey ho, let's go
They're forming in straight line
They're going through a tight wind
The kids are losing their minds
The Blitzkrieg Bop

They're piling in the back seat
They're generating steam heat
Pulsating to the back beat
The Blitzkrieg Bop

Hey ho, let's go
Shoot'em in the back now
What they want, I don't know
They're all reved up and ready to go

They're forming in straight line
They're going through a tight wind
The kids are losing their minds
The Blitzkrieg Bop

Hey ho, let's go Hey ho, let's go Hey ho, let's go Hey ho, let's go
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Thursday, July 8, 2004

The Blue Duck
I'm at 1399 hits....


Big Brother! You're the born protector. Girls love
you because of your strength and that you
always care for them. They feel simply well in
your presense, go you!


What kind of Boy are you? .._..contains Anime pictures.._..
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Thought of the moment: HTML? Anyone know? 'Ello?

Quote of the moment: "I'd like a lemon wedge in mine."-Dilbert

Song of the moment:

The Offspring, "Spare me the details"

My girlfriend, my dumb donut
Went up to a party just the other night
But three hours later and seven shots of jäger
She was in the bedroom with another guy

And I don't really wanna know
So don't tell me anymore
And I really don't wanna hear
About her feet all up in the air

And well I'm not the one who acted like a hoe
Why must I be the one who has to know?
I'm not the one who messed up big time
So spare me the details if you don't mind

Now I can understand friends who wanna tell me
They think they're gonna help me, open up my eyes
But the play by play makes me wanna lose it
Everytime you do it man, it turns the knife

And I don't really wanna know
So don't tell me anymore
And I really don't wanna hear
About her feet all up in the air

And well I'm not the one who acted like a hoe
Why must I be the one who has to know?
I'm not the one who messed up big time
So spare me the details if you don't mind

Now I don't need to hear about the sounds they were makin'
And I don't need to hear about how long it was takin'
Or how the walls they were shakin'

Now lying in bed wallowing in sorrow
Missin' the tommorow that we could of had
Running through my head, over and over
Things I never told her that just made me sad

And it drives me insane sittin with a vision
stuck with that image burned into my brain
And I feel so dumb that I could ever trust her
When someone else f***** her, then walked away

And I don't really wanna know
So don't tell me anymore
And I really don't wanna hear
About her feet all up in the air

And so I'm not the one who acted like a hoe
Why must I be the one who has to know?
I'm not the one who messed up big time
So spare me the details if you don't mind

Cuz I don't wanna know
Don't wanna know
(Spare me the details if you don't mind)
Don't wanna know
(Spare me the details if you don't mind)
Don't wanna know...

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Wednesday, July 7, 2004

Cosmic Inequality
Okay, explain it to me, because I don't understand: why do good things happen to me, yet bad things seem to happen to the people around me?

It consistantly seems like my major problems are really petty whereas my friends tends to deal with major emotional, life-altering obsticles. How many of my really close friends have attempted suicide? At least three that I'm aware of. Me, I've never even thought of it.

I would never consider it, either, but thats' not what bothers me; I simply can't imagine events that could drive a person to consider that as a viable option. I can't. It exists, and I'm blessed enough to be insulated from it.

My parents have been married happily, and because of my mom's incredible therftiness-to-the-point-of-obsession, we have never been inserious debt. My family supports me, I'm mostly healthy, and I consider myself stable.

My point is, why does Fate decide that I should continue to be blessed, while people in bad situations continue to suffer more? It's not right, and I don't like it, and there's not a damned thing I can do about it.

It's hard to tell a friend "I understand" when I don't.

Thought of the moment: Can anone help me with some HTML code?

Quote of the moment: "I met a possum"-What's Her Face, Steph's avatar

Song of the moment:

Jet, "Hold On"

You tried so hard to be someone
That forgot who you are

You tried to fill some emptiness
Till all you had spilled over

Now everything’s so far away
That you don’t know where are
You are

(Chorus)
When all that you wanted
When all that you had don’t seem so much
For you to hold onto
For you to hold onto

For you to belong to


When it’s hard to be yourself
It’s not to be someone else

Still everything’s so far away
That you forget where you are
You are

(Chorus)
When all that you wanted
When all that you had don’t seem so much
For you to hold onto
For you to hold onto

Hold on [4x]

Hold on [4x]

(Chorus)
When all that you wanted
When all that you had don’t seem so much
For you to hold onto
For you to hold onto
For you to hold onto

For you to belong to

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Tuesday, July 6, 2004

   Happy Dauys are here a-frickin'-gain!!
I got the Barnes & Noble job! wh00000000tt!! I go in for training Monday at 9:30.

^___^ That's all for now.
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Monday, July 5, 2004

It's hip to be a square
...but I'm sure you already knew that.

Saturday, I got a flat tire, and had to drag my spare down several blocks to get it inflated. I then had to drive home in the pouring rain. Pouring rain I could barely see through.

Then lightning struck a telephone poll twenty feet from my car.

It was so cool, but at the time, I was freaked out, understandably. I really wasn't sure what just happened; there was a neon-green flash, and sparks started pouring onto the street. Pretty cool.

I got to talk to Stephanie Saturday night. ^__^ That just made my day. (Well, that and the lightning.)

Tomorrow, I'll know if I got the job at Barnes & Noble. If not, the car wash next to the mall is hiring. I think I'm qualified for that.

Hope everyone in the States had a fun holiday weekend. And I hope everyone not in the states had a fun weekend that didn't contain any holidays.

Thought of the moment: Come on, cafe job, come on, cafe job...

Quote of the moment: "Here lies Strong Bad: Checkin' e-mails and kickin' Cheats in the Hereafter. Buried with his hundred girlfriends. And, like, a billion dollars. (Please don't dig up the grave.)"- Strong Bad, "Homestar Runner"

Song of the moment:

"Boy Crazy", New Found Glory

Some girls are crazy
Just listen to what I have to say about it
You've gotta watch out for the beautiful ones
They'll twist your head right off your neck
And laugh about it with their friends
That's just one night for them
They target you with their eyes
And move with their lips
And it pulls you in
She shuts you down with her voice again
And now are you listening?
This song goes out to girls
That we haven't met just yet
This song is for stupid girls
Who think that every boy is all about them
These girls are crazy...
Just listen to what I have to say about it
You've gotta watch out for the younger ones
They'll tightly wrap you around their fingers
And brag to all their friends
It's nothing but a game to them
Then target you with their eyes
And move with their lips
And it pulls you in
She shuts you down with her voice again
And now are you listening?
This song goes out to girls
That we haven't met yet
This song is for stupid girls
Who think that every boy is all about them
You think you're on top of the world
When all the eyes are on you
Just wait until your heart breaks
And you'll know how I felt when I wrote
This song goes out to girls
That we haven't met yet
This song is for stupid girls
Who think that every boy is all about them
About them
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