Monday, March 15, 2004

*stumbles into the room*
Egads, yonder man must be Ken!

I remain intact, I suppose. Life is not well, really. Thought processes are bitchy like that. Oh well, what the hell can you do.

Aha, tis all for now.

A quis day cometh, eventually. :D
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Monday, March 1, 2004

Ah, so bold.
Am I more defunct of an individual of I cannot get over a young woman from when I was the tender age of 11?

I don't know what's normal, I can't know. It just seems odd. People mention it in passing, namely my mother, like it were nothing. Yet, it remains a horrid thing to have to face, for some reason or another.

It must be the person failings that come with that memory, like freshly seeing over and over again where your battle plan went awry and you lost the war. The final moments.

It isn't really supposed to be that way,I think. If it is then things are more easily ignored than initially perceived. It's a curse, yes. A curse that all people might bear but do not display, all due to a state of mind that has been deemed magical by most, a suicide by some.

Surely not, love must be something magical- that is how it is so dark of a light subject.

Maybe it was because it was the first time that I did not feel inhuman in the way I do things. Not an outcast, but a worthwhile member of this species.

Maybe I'm just bad luck. People I love seem to fall into hard times, alot. Could it be that there is a curse of the Ken? haha.

Oh well. *I* don't think it's normal. I'm not grieving still. It's more of an intensifying of the storm in your mind due to the exposure to the memory.

Secrets of society.

Ah, oh well. *walks away*

"It is important to do what you don't know how to do. It is important to see your skills as keeping you from learning what is deepest and most mysterious. If you know how to focus, unfocus. If your tendency is to make sense out of chaos, start chaos." - Carlos Castaneda
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Wednesday, February 25, 2004

You should think about it more.
If you look at history, there is a general cycle of near-successful attempts at taking over the world. It is a mere matter of time before someone accomplishes this.

Or, rather- it could be a matter of time before something that has a high impact lessens the world's possible ability to thwart such an attempt- aka, they don't start it- they just see a window and leap through.

If I could give you a time frame, I'd be a prophet- but merely looking at the previous steps the world has taken, if they take the same ones than the ending is predictable.

But, if they misstep where they didn't before- then an attempt would be successful. But who would be the one person who could do this? I surely know of some who would try.

Some sort of unspeakable, non-material power would be needed to take over a prepared, well armed world. Yes, but can you imagine what? Surely not, if you do you jest.

Maybe it is too fantastic, maybe there is too little magic left to have a unified world order that was not built by peace, but by war.

A great tribulation.

Oh well. Just, potential in people is sometimes not recognized by the person themselves. Maybe someone you know will do something potentially erratic and somehow successful like take over the world, or aid someone doing it.

You never know what these individuals have up their sleeves, but they usual doubt themselves and their actions frequently while retaining, somehow, a sense of arrogance and selfishness. Maybe even apathy. They don't smile much maybe, but they make others smile. Quietly loud. Loudly quiet.

Oh well. I wonder if I know anyone like that. Do you?

You might.

"A little nonsense now and then is relished by the wisest men."

.. <_<..
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Monday, February 23, 2004

Flame Cone.
Frankly I don't find myself to particularly enjoy any of the current Democratic candidates.

I won't go for this "anyone but Bush" thing either.

Well, it isn't like I can vote, lol. But in four years.

Actually, in four years prolly not either, haha. Well that sucks.

Anyway, here's a heads up- don't focus on Kerry's Vietnam thing ALONE. That would be a blind act to do. Kerry DID fight in the Vietnam War, however he also protested it. He voted against the 1991 Gulf War, but he voted for the 2003 Iraqi Invasion. But then, he voted against postwar funding for troop support and Iraq reconstruction.

Alrighty. More history on Kerry is done for today. How about some pictures I find to be interesting?




Pictures of monkeys are always good.




Josef Stalin. RIP.




Very nice.



Prussian Coat of Arms.







Also, I've decided I'm going to purchase a Chinese Red Army cap just because I can, lol.

Oh wait! I know. You can buy it for me!

http://www.goodorient.com/goodorient/customer/product.php?productid=24786&cat=405&page=1

=P

"A 1988 study by the National Research Council in the United States found that no scientific research conducted in the previous 130 years had proven the existence of parapsychological phenomena, although the council did find probabilistic anomalies in some experiments that could not readily be explained."
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Saturday, February 21, 2004

Hello there, the angel from my nightmare.
Hm. I'm looking at a quote-archive and feel like posting ones I like/believe in/live by. Comment if you like.

"Pain is weakness leaving the body." - Daniel R. Evans

"We gather strength from sadness and from pain. Each time we die we learn to live again." - Unknown

"If you gaze long into an abyss, the abyss will gaze back into you." - John Milton

"And taste The melancholy joys of evils pass'd, For he who much has suffer'd, much will know." - Homer

"The more I study religions the more I am convinced that man never worshipped anything but himself." - Sir Richard F Burton

"Genius is another word for magic, and the whole point of magic is that it is inexplicable." - Margot Fonteyn

"Keep quiet and people will think you a philosopher." - Latin Proverb

"I've been in a lot of trouble and come out of it. I think it shows a lot of good character." - Stefan Edberg

"Truly great madness can not be achieved without significant intelligence." - Henrik Tikkanen

"There are so many little dyings that it doesn't matter which of them is death." - Kenneth Patchen

"Hope in reality is the worst of all evils because it prolongs the torments of man." - Friedrich Nietzsche

"A pessimist is a person who has had to listen to too many optimists." - Don Marquis

"America may be unique in being a country which has leapt from barbarism to decadence without touching civilization." - John O'Hara

"Opinions cannot survive if one has no chance to fight for them." - Alain Rene Le Sage

Some of those were somewhat amusing.
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Thursday, February 19, 2004

Millions of Teras Kasi Artists! Ah!
I had dreams last night that I should not have had. About my first love, haha. It hasn't screwed me up but I'm quite morose today.

She was so pretty. I hope she is happy right now. I do not think I wish to dream of her anymore, however. It is a testing process when your dreams at night display what you are trying to ignore and have been ignoring for years.

Ehh. It's out of hands. I guess it was my own fault for reminiscing before I went to bed last night.

On Star Wars Galaxes I think I might master brawler as well, just to cement my mainly combat class mind.

Btw, Fett- I'm on Corbantis. Is Pikeman as broken as I've heard? With my mastery of brawler the window is open for me to possibly dabble in any of the extended melee classes. I was considering Fencer, but.
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Monday, February 16, 2004

Entertainment.
I've been off in Kenland, playing Star Wars Galaxies mainly. I'm a smuggler! Haha. After alot of work I finally got to the smuggler level. I'm going to be a commando too- so I will be a flamethrower-touting smuggler.

Nice mix.

I'm a rebel too, so you know. *knocks on stormtroopers heads* Morning', I'm here to slaughter ye. <_<

Pardon my absence. I miss you Tori! I miss you Aleia!

But you cannot seperate a Ken and his flamethrower. :P

I might do my fourth bloody history day tonight, and talk about the battle for Kursk.
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Sunday, February 15, 2004

Hope all the couples here had a nice V-day.

Well, I guess I wish you one. Haha.

Either way, yeah.
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Monday, February 9, 2004

Stained by the name of fathers.
Quickly, what does the decoded message say?!?

Sir, it says that.. there is a quiz day coming.

... My god.

Quiz Day, dood.

89% Of The Internet Loves Me!

I am loved by 89% of the population, including: 783 people who love fat people 701 people who love windows users 1351 people who love men In return, I love 45% of the population, including: 1559 women 450 webmasters 115 teachers

show the love at spacefem.com

You are...Whatever. yeah, whatever you like,
whatever is going on u don't care...nya, I have
better things to think of. F*ck off. _


Yet another personality test ^-^ (nice anime pics!) NEW outcome!!
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When the bombs fall and the world is coming to an end, we will find you riding the damn bomb down to the ground. If that doesn't say enough about you, your attitude, or your state of mind, nothing will.

This test taken @ TheAeroZone.com, where you can take more tests than any human should. :D

You are Proverbs.


Which book of the Bible are you?
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You are a Chinese dragon. Among the many Chinese
dragons are: Lung, the most powerful of the
Oriental Dragons who is completely deaf, and
has the power to produce rain, too. In
addition, Lung is a symbol of the East and the
sun. The Celestial dragon, who protects the
mansions of the Chinese Gods. The Spiritual
dragon, who creates rain and wind for mankind.
The Dragon of Hidden Treasures, who helps keep
watch over concealed wealth. The Coiling
dragon, who lives in the water, primarily lakes
and deep, deep waters. And, the Yellow dragon,
who is especially important, for this dragon
emerged from water and aided the Emperor Fu Shi
by showing him writing.



Which type of Eastern Dragon are You?
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The Guardian
Adventure, thrill seeking, loyal, with high goals
for themselves, and equally high standards for
society. They protect what they stand for, and
those that cannot stand up for themselves.


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Peaceful Soul


Find you inner Soul Goddess (Many results, awesome pictures)
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Cunning. Through use of many of life's faculties,
you've managed to suceed greatly. It may not
seem so to many, but isn't the the point most
times? It's only a matter of knowing more then
the others, right? I'm scared of people like
you, but in the same time, admire the ability
to see more then just the big picture; you see
yourself in it every time. You survived the end
by knowing who to knock down so you got that
last spot in the bunker... nicely done.


How would you survive the end of the world?
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The Darkness
Your personality type is occluded. You may even be
a genuine goth. Aloof, mysterious, introverted.
You absorb light and energy into yourself and
seldom release it...perhaps because you've been
hurt so badly in the past.


What's Your Celestial Personality Type?
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You'd carve them up with your chainsaw. I like your
style, you show much promise. Join me?






How would you Murder?
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Darkness. You Truly Desire Darkness. You wish
everyone around you was either dead, or
worshipping you. To you, life is not a gift,
but a punishment. You have no consideration for
others and do as you please.

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What Do You Truly Desire? *PICS*
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Stone Angel
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NEW!! Which Angel are you?(pics for anyone/14 outcomes!!)
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Lo! Death has reared himself a throne
In a strange city lying alone
Far down within the dim West,
Where the good and the bad and the worst and the best
Have gone to their eternal rest.
There shrines and palaces and towers
(Time-eaten towers that tremble not!)
Resemble nothing that is ours.
Around, by lifting winds forgot,
Resignedly beneath the sky
The melancholy waters lie.

No rays from the holy heaven come down
On the long night-time of that town;
But light from out the lurid sea
Streams up the turrets silently—
Gleams up the pinnacles far and free—
Up domes—up spires—up kingly halls—
Up fanes—up Babylon-like walls—
Up shadowy long-forgotten bowers
Of sculptured ivy and stone flowers—
Up many and many a marvelous shrine
Whose wreathèd friezes intertwine
The viol, the violet, and the vine.

Resignedly beneath the sky
The melancholy waters lie.
So blend the turrets and shadows there
That all seem pendulous in air,
While from a proud tower in the town
Death looks gigantically down.

There open fanes and gaping graves
Yawn level with the luminous waves;
But not the riches there that lie
In each idol's diamond eye—
Not the gaily-jeweled dead
Tempt the waters from their bed;
For no ripples curl, alas!
Among that wilderness of glass—
No swellings tell that winds may be
Upon some far-off happier sea—
No heavings hint that winds have been
On seas less hideously serene.

But lo, a stir is in the air!
The wave—there is a movement there!
As if the towers had thrust aside,
In slightly sinking, the dull tide—
As if their tops had feebly given
A void within the filmy Heaven.
The waves have now a redder glow—
The hours are breathing faint and low—
And when, amid no earthly moans,
Down, down that town shall settle hence,
Hell, rising from a thousand thrones,
Shall do it reverence.
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