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Monday, March 1, 2004
Ah, so bold.
Am I more defunct of an individual of I cannot get over a young woman from when I was the tender age of 11?
I don't know what's normal, I can't know. It just seems odd. People mention it in passing, namely my mother, like it were nothing. Yet, it remains a horrid thing to have to face, for some reason or another.
It must be the person failings that come with that memory, like freshly seeing over and over again where your battle plan went awry and you lost the war. The final moments.
It isn't really supposed to be that way,I think. If it is then things are more easily ignored than initially perceived. It's a curse, yes. A curse that all people might bear but do not display, all due to a state of mind that has been deemed magical by most, a suicide by some.
Surely not, love must be something magical- that is how it is so dark of a light subject.
Maybe it was because it was the first time that I did not feel inhuman in the way I do things. Not an outcast, but a worthwhile member of this species.
Maybe I'm just bad luck. People I love seem to fall into hard times, alot. Could it be that there is a curse of the Ken? haha.
Oh well. *I* don't think it's normal. I'm not grieving still. It's more of an intensifying of the storm in your mind due to the exposure to the memory.
Secrets of society.
Ah, oh well. *walks away*
"It is important to do what you don't know how to do. It is important to see your skills as keeping you from learning what is deepest and most mysterious. If you know how to focus, unfocus. If your tendency is to make sense out of chaos, start chaos." - Carlos Castaneda
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