Friday, May 7, 2004

There's no earthly way of knowing.
.. which direction we are going.

So, basically, my computer is dead. Therefore my absence is, for once, explainable and I don't have to shyly inform you all of my horrendous addiction to gaming, anime and avoiding people en masse.

Ah, glorious day. Rain. See, a fallout is still happening in this household from a religious argument between me and my parents.

Tsk, it's a shame- I even apologized and that whore had the audacity to not give me one back.

She insulted me several times in our debate. I was harsh with my opinions but not on a personal level. My mother is sensitive, apparently. She threw a tantrum, cried, guilt tripped me. I apologized for no reason other than to heal her for her because she is such a fucking weak person.

I got nothing back from her, that miffed me a bit. I was controlling myself well for a few minutes before I realized I was being ignored by both of my parents.

That was almost amusing, but no- I had already lost some of my emotional control. That enraged me. What is it, huh?

Well? Are my opinions too ODD for you? Or, am I too HARSH for you to even talk to? To even look at normally?

They were looking at me like I was some sort of subhuman.

So the last few people IRL I speak to about opinions, I won't now. They are failures as parents. Their first kid died, Tammy ran off and I sure turned out spot on.

It was very hard to not literally murder her with my own two hands. I have anger problems, obviously. I could and would if I was pushed too far.

I guess by now it doesn't matter. I do not care for them anymore, any respect I had garnered in the last few weeks for my mother is shot.

As is my ever blackening view on mainstream religion.

.. Which direction we are going.

Anything America does now doesn't surprise me anymore. Bush isn't the best President there ever was, obviously.

The Iraqi prisoner abuse 'scandal' is something I expected. The Red Cross, if I heard right, knew about this before it was released publicly and urged the US to do something.

Well. Aside from that.. on the world scheme I can't think of anything that has really caught my interest. Apparently, though, once again there was a great surge in jobs. 250k+ if I remember right.

Which is good- but it gives Bush an advantage in the Presidential race, which I hate. Kerry sucks. Bush is obviously a bit nuts. Nader will affect the run a bit too much.

I think Bush will win it. Pessimism, you know.

Surprise me.

There's no knowing where we're rowing..

La Pucelle: Tactics is pretty good. Not great, I'd rather finish Disgaea first. Aside from that, I might beat FF8. I got to the end of Disk 3 and lost interest again. lol.

Rinoa is too hot to be a sorceress. =/

RPGamer.com has new screens from Advent Children if you care. Tifa ones, btw- she is too hot, period. Bad Squaresoft.

Mmm. Wish I could play Lineage 2. Damn computer. I might be a Knight, yet. Changed too many times to keep track of..

..or which way the river's flowing.

Blood should be spilt for that. I hate conceited brats who won't mature and manipulate people for their own gains.

Her religion means nothing to me. If she is murdered she will be put towards her religious wet dream fast, the resurrection. I'd be doing her a favor.

Is it raining? Is it snowing? Is a hurricane a'blowing?

I dreamed of a young woman last night that I keep dreaming of though our relationship was over long ago. It is depressing, yes. But the dreams are so delightful, being with someone and in love- ah, the only thing that ups my happiness alot. Too bad it's only a dream.

And that to wake up that facet of life has been a nightmare since she left. With that, I've been bingeing on a Deftone's song called "Anniversary of an Uninteresting Event". Get the lyrics/get the MP3 and you'll see why.

I could supply you with the lyrics if you wish. http://www.darklyrics.com/lyrics/deftones/deftones.html#10

Copy and paste. Should work.

Not a speck of light is showing..

That is about it. Bad times for the Knight of Bane.

Oh well. At least I have uh.

.. My health.

....

So the danger must be growing
Are the fires of hell a'glowing?
Is the grisly reaper mowing?
Yes!
The danger must be growing
For the rowers keep on rowing
And they're certainly not showing
Any signs that they are slowing!

Adieu.
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