Tuesday, June 27, 2006

  

What you see's not what you get
With you there's just no measurement
no way to tell what's real from what isn't there
Your eyes they sparkle
That's all changed into lies that dropped like acid rain
you washed away the best of me
you don't care

You know you did it
I'm gone
to find someone to live for in this world
There's no light at the end of the tunnel tonight
just a bridge that I gotta burn
You were wrong
If you think you can walk right through my door
That is just so you
coming back when I've finally moved on
I'm already gone

Sometimes shattered
never opened
nothing matters
when you're broken
That was me whenever I was with you

Always ending, always over
back and forth, up and down like a roller coaster
I am breaking that habit today

You know you did it
I'm gone
to find someone to live for in this world
There's no light at the end of the tunnel tonight
just a bridge that I gotta burn
You were wrong
If you think you can walk right through my door
That is just so you coming back when I've finally moved on
I'm already gone

There is nothing you can say
Sorry doesn't cut it babe
Take the hit and walk away cause I'm gone
Doesn't matter what you do
It's what you did that's hurting you
All I needed was the truth
Now I'm gone
What you see's not what you get
What you see's not what you get

You know you did it
I'm gone
to find someone to live for in this world
There's no light at the end of the tunnel tonight
just a bridge that I gotta burn
You were wrong
If you think you can walk right through my door
That is just so you coming back when I finally moved on
I'm already gone
Oh, I'm already gone
Gone, gone, gone
Already gone
I'm gone
Hey everyone, I have deceide that I don't exist, never have and never really will. I am just a shadow passing through, no one can tell when I am, and there is no trace of me ever being there. I walk in a room unseen, and leave without being noticed. later....
~the girl who never existed
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Saturday, June 24, 2006

   AHHH!!!
Hey everyone!! I went to the mall today! I don't get to go very often so it was great!! I went to get my cell phone fixed and I was alone (my family was already at the spot) and this guy walks up to me and was like can I ask you a question. then he grabbed my hand and was starring at my nails, he wanted me to buy a nail kit thing, but it was weird cause he was holding my hand. Then I went to a bookstore to get some manga and the guy at the counter was like do you go to this school! He knew me from school!!! It was weird!! but I had an exciting day! well, later.
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Friday, June 23, 2006

   Hey everyone!! I'm so tired!! I'm really annoyed with my job right now. Its only a morning job but they are so irrataing!! They have been complaining about everything we do!!! There are only three of us and we clean a museum, they had trouble getting people to apply for the job (even though four of Tinks friends tried to apply) And they expect us to done everything like this one girl who left! (reality check! we are us, not her) she was a cleanning FREAK!!! she cleaned everything 3 or 4 times IN 1 DAY!!! They were fine with us working together when she was here, but as soon as she left... BAM! we couldn't do anything right! we have half a mind to quit! Sorry everyone, but this is really getting on my nerves!

Well, I think thats all.... later
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Thursday, June 22, 2006

Okay, here's some more of my story. This is all I have so far, later.


It was ten minutes after three and the school was deserted. Riley waved as her last friend faded in the distance, it had been a good year. She sighed glad to have it over but the memories would stay with her forever. She walked along the road on her way home, barely noticing the young man standing beside a tree, until he spoke to her.
"Hello miss" His voice was strong and sounded kind. Riley looked up and for the first time actually noticed him. He was very cute, but the first thing she observed about him was the fact that his eyes matched the color of the leaves he stood next to.
"H...hello" she couldn't believe how shy she'd gotten. She was never the type to get nervous in front of people. His smile was gentle and she felt suddenly calm almost like she was dreaming.
"May I carry your books for you?" He already had them in his hands as she stood and let him take them.
"Y...yes. you may" She silently scolded herself for being so overwhelmed by his charm. They walked in silence for a block, then he spoke.
"Did you enjoy yourself on the last day of school?" She was amazed, he spoke as though they were old friends, when they had just met.
"Yes, I am saddened by the fact I will not see my friends for some time, though" He nodded,
"That can be cause for sadness, but thats the best time to make new friends." The conversation changed as they reached her house.
"May I see you again?" He said it almost as if he dreaded her answer. She thought for half a second then answered.
"I would like that." He smiled and handed her books back. He looked relieved and very excited.
"I will call again then, when I get the chance." He spoke fast and his tone was that of anticipation.
"Very well, then I will wait for you." She was overjoyed that he wanted to see her again. As he walked away she couldn't help but think about him, she went to her apartment. She picked up her cat on the way to her bed, she stopped at her window to see if she could catch a final glance of the man who had made her feel like she never had before.

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As Chloe walked slowly back to her apartment a cold wind blew passed her causing her to shiver. That's weird, she looked up and noticed the suddenly overcast sky. She could smell the rain in the chilly air. Not wanting to get caught in the rain she walked faster. Lightning flashed and the rain came with little warning filling the streets. Chloe had never seen the weather change this fast before. As she ran through the empty streets, she thought she saw a shadow following her. Could it be? No, they couldn't have found me that quickly, Could they? She ran faster, the rain pelting her bare arms and face, causing her sight to be obscured. She ran fast and hard, she ran until she could no longer breath. She collapsed near a wall and leaned against it. Well, whoever is following me will have an easy target. she leaned her head against the cement wall and let the rain run down her face. After a few minutes the rain stopped hitting her face, but she could still hear the sound it made on the sidewalk. Now that's odd. She looked up and saw a man standing above her holding an umbrella over her.
"Need some help?" his voice was very commanding yet there was a trace of sorrow in the way he spoke. She stood suddenly embarrassed at her appearance.
"Yes, I seem to have lost my way." she looked down as her wet hair fell in front of her face. He smiled and pushed her hair behind her ear. She raised her glance and looked into his deep brown eyes, his eyes were shrouded in mystery. She was amazed at how beautiful his eyes were, she quickly looked away realizing she had been staring. He helped her put on a black leather jacket.
"Well where do you live?" His red hair covered his left eye as he spoke.
"I live right before the high school, in the center of the city." she pulled the jacket closer.
"I live around there as well, I can easily take you." he put his arm around her and brought her closer so they would both be under the umbrella. Chloe could feel the power in his arm as they walked. She wondered why this really attractive man would want to help her. She realized that she must have looked really pathetic sitting out in the rain like that. He spoke again,
"So what's your name?" she looked down trying to decide if she should tell him, she chose to tell him since he was helping her.
"K.....Chloe" dang, I have to remember not to mention my old name! He appeared not to have noticed her mistake. They walked in silence for a few blocks, then he spoke.
"Chloe, thats a fine name." He paused "I am Vincent" Chloe looked at him, something about the way he said his name made her feel uneasy, almost like he wasn't used to saying his name. They walked along the sidewalk in silence, she occasionally looked up at him, but tried to focus on the ground in front of her. After a few minutes of walking they reached her apartment building.
"Well, this is it." She spoke quietly, and started to take the jacket off.
"Alright, It was nice meeting you, I look forward to our next encounter, You can keep the jacket." He smiled then walked back the way he had come. She stood there holding his jacket. Then turned around and slowly walked up the stairs to her apartment.

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Tuesday, June 20, 2006

Hey everyone!! I hope your all doing okay. I'm not doing that great. It stormed really bad at my house last night, so it woke me up, and I couldn't get back to sleep. I'm just having a really busy week, and on top of it all, I really miss my guy friend, we were really close last year but I never get a chance to see him now. And I miss my best friend, who is in Florida. So I'm left all alone, which isn't at all unusual. But I feel more left out/rejected. I guess I'm just feeling sorry for myself or something. all well, as my mom would say "I'll get over it" thats what she always says. well, sorry you guys had to read that. I'll post more of my story later.
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Monday, June 19, 2006

My story!
Okay, I've decided to post it. Don't be to harsh on it everyone, Just to let you know my grammer is not the best and I love comma splices! And this is long *(sorry bout that) well, here it is! *insert drumroll*

Flames traced the forest in an attempt to wipe out all the inhabitants. Animals rushed in all directions, leaves cringed from the intense heat. The flames grew near the small village of the fairies, unable to do anything they watched in horror as their beautiful home was destroyed. The fairies knew of only the forest, how would they manage to survive without it. The oldest fairy had known a spell that could change a fairies shape to that of a human. Knowing he had to save the fairies he cast that spell on a young fairy girl. The fire advanced and the young child ran for safety, leaving all she had known behind her.

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"Riley! Your going to be late for school!" The seventeen year old finished the last touches on her shoulder length blonde hair.
"Coming!" Riley grabbed her backpack and gave her cat Koto one last pat before grabbing her lunch and running out the door. She ran the first couple of blocks then slowed to a fast walk. The trees were alive with the songs of many birds, she enjoyed the warm sunlight that bathed her in light. She made it to school with five minutes to spare. Setting down her books she watched as the other students got their books and talked for as long as possible before the bell rang signifying the beginning of the last day of school. Riley stared out the window and watched as the birds hopped around looking for food. She was glad school was almost over, it would give her more time to be outside and to take care of her flowers. The bell finally rang, starting the last day of school.

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The day seemed so new, as twenty year old Chloe walked along the semi-crowded sidewalk. She inhaled deeply, the air was so fresh and clean. She walked along the shops and watched as a little girl bought a small candy and plopped it into her mouth, the candy was sour and made the little girl make a face. Chloe laughed as the little girl drank a glass of water in an attempt to get the taste out of her mouth. Chloe selected her items and purchased them at the front of the store then made her way down to the small lake that was located on the edge of the city. As she sat and watched the ducks floating on the water she knew that she would never be able to go back to her home. She pushed her long brown hair out of her eyes, and wondered if anyone missed her. She stared through unseeing eyes as she thought about what she had left and how much danger she might get into with her boss. She sighed and hoped that they wouldn't send anyone to find her, but she grieved in the knowledge that they would when they found her missing. Standing she brushed the grass and dirt from her black jeans and picked up her bag. She started on her way home.

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The day had begun to warm nicely as nineteen year old Chad slid his white jacket off. He knew that most schools got out around three o'clock, and he had been watching a girl for two months now and he thought it best to show himself to her on the last day of school. He walked toward the school causally and thought of this wonderful girl he would be meeting. He stopped in his normal stop and remembered the job he had been given, he was sure he would enjoy it. The wind ruffled his light blue hair causing him to remember that this job was very important and not all fun and games. He set his jaw and waited for the last bell to ring.
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"Yes Master, I understand. I am to bring young Kyouki to you if she fails in her mission." The leader looked down on his most faithful servant. He gave a faint smile and spoke with a gentle tone in his voice.
"Good, I knew I could depend on you, not like the rest of these pathetic souls. Go and persuade young Kyouki to finish what she started" The young man never looked up though the conversation, he had never failed a job yet and he didn't plan on failing this one.
"Yes Master." He stood and headed out the dark passage way to the world above.

sorry it is so long! This actually isn't all that I wrote but I did't want to post to much of it at once. well. later all!

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Sunday, June 18, 2006

Hey everyone, I might be posting a story I've been writing! I haven't got a title for it yet. But it depends on if I like it or not. I'm a slow writer so you'd have to be patient. Well, If I post it, it will be tomorrow afternoon. later
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Saturday, June 17, 2006

Hi all! I just had the weirdest day of work ever!! This guy was FOLLOWING ME!!! if I stood somewhere he would just stare at me!!! I went into a room to make sure no one was in it and he stood right outside the door!!!! he did it for like an hour!!! It was weird! I hope everyone had a good saturday! later
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Friday, June 16, 2006

Hello, I'm really tired... I'm so glad its Friday!!!! I ate lunch with my friend, (we call her Tink) But I felt bad for her today, her guy friend didnt show up and she was supposed to eat lunch with him (she had one of his books and was going to give it back) but he never showed up. I hope that he just had something come up and that he didn't forget cause she was really upset that he never showed. My parents had a fight which was annoying cause my dad said some money was his when my mom had told him like 2.5 seconds before that it was hers. (such a pathetic thing to fight over) and me and my sis had another fight, she said that I told her I would pick her up at a certain time and I never did! just another spot of darkness in my lightless life.
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Thursday, June 15, 2006

I hate subject lines
Hi all! that's not really my subject, just a statement. My day was okay, I saw one of my guy friends he was working though. My friend said she would (if she remembers) set me up with one of her guy friends (oh please let him be hot!) and we thought of a really mean/nasty trick to play on someone! My sister and I had another fight today (
I seriously want to hurt her serverly, but if I did that I would get killed!) grrr! why is it that alot of people favour the youngest? or is it just they favour the child your not? It makes no sense!

At work everyone has been complaining over the stupidest things... now we have a new girl who doesn't really do anything (but EVERYONE knows her) but people are like "oh what a good job she did" when it was really me, my sis and our friend! but the fact that we get everything done AND MORE! isn't good enough, they get mad at US because we work together (it makes the job easier and faster)

Why is it that people expect everything from those who have nothing, and the people who have everything aren't expected to give anything?

Well, that's all I have to say. later
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