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Tuesday, May 23, 2006

Today is pretty much like every day. i don't feel scared. i don't feel angry, and i don't feel sad. i don't feel happy. i feel, numb. i feel nothing. it feels as if so much has happened for me to hink about and worry about, that my mind just gave up trying to think of them all at once, and shut down. i still worry about Mika, i still miss dad like crazy, i still am trying to get my grades up, i'm still trying to not fuck up things with mom again. i'm still trying to figure out who are really my friends, i'm still spending mst of my time alone, i'm still using alot of my willpower to keep from cutting, and i'm still dreaming of dripping blood off of my wrist. i still love going to koz, i still don't want to go. i still hate saying goodbye, and i still do it anyway. i still don't know who i am, nor do i know what to do. right now, i want most to go for a walk in the forest, visit woody. isn't that sad? i want to leave school, to go talk to a tree. i am probably crazy, and if a doctor or psychiatrist could get a hold of me, they would probably perscribe me all sorts of medications, if they didn't throw me in a straight jacket. i don't really care. i live in my own little world, if i am lucky. i know this post makes no sense, but i don't care. i want to go home. no i don't. i want to go to the forest.

i am angry at adame. i am not talking to him. he doesn't know it though. i am not really agnry at him. i am simply tired of being lied to. tired of being ignored. whatever. it don't really matter. i dont really care either way anymore
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