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Monday, July 31, 2006

still dont really know what to say. dont really care actually. my mind, keeps going over what has been happening, what happened a long time ago, what could happen. it goes over scenario after scenario of stupid pointless things that make absolutely no sense. i am trying to stop myself from thinking about mika at all. she is leaving. i dont want to think of her leaving. i am weak, i suppose, to be hiding myself from my own dumbass thoughts and feelings. doesnt matter. my pepere alarie, is very sick. mom sais he might even be dying, if he keeps going like he is. i want to see him. i cant. my own fault. i gave my mom bad additude, and so she said that i will stay here and work, and if i stop giving her bad additude and be good, then she will let me go. it doesn't matter. i talked to adame on the phone yesterday. he is not learning, or growing, he is jsut the same. that is okay. he may not be perfect, but riht now, he is one of the two people whom know me best. mika, i dont think she really knows me anymore, either that or she simply doesnt want to. adame doesnt know me all that well, but then again, nobody else does either. greg, he knows me less then many, but that is not his fault at all. the fault lays between my own fears and the fact that we dont see eachother much. this wenesday is our two month annaversary. i am hoping that mom will let me go out with him, to celebrate. ofcourse, mom will not know that it is him i am going out with, but still. he didnt pick up his phone when i called him today. was probably busy with his friends. thats okay. i have to learn to be less selfish. if he wants to play airsoft with his friends instead of talk to me, i dont blame hi. our conversations are all pointless anyways. i am stupid to care so much. and i am stupid to be hurting. its my own fault anyways. i dont know what to talk about with him. i dont really nkow why . i cant say any more on here. i have to go.
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