Saturday, July 15, 2006

Excuses
I have reasons why I have not been on in forever. Check out my xanga to find out! www.xanga.com/ItsumoDemoAishiteru. Later!







(All three are the same songs... Hey, I like the song, so sue me! >.<)
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Friday, June 16, 2006

   i hate working for my dad. we have 6 flipping places to clean tonight. SIX!!! and i know for a fact that 3 of them are, like, HUGE!!! gah! someone help me!? *sighs* i'll make it through... just the rest of the summer left, ne? i can handle that. yup. well, later. gotta catch some sleep. <3
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Thursday, June 1, 2006

   *yawns* school sucks so much... 3... no, 4 days left if i count the day i'm not going. hm... all my finals tomorrow... crap. it's gonna suck serious monkey--- yeah... uhm... so, i feel like crap... the girl i love is killing me... for the 40 millionth time... so, yeah. luckily, my friend and i made up. i still hate her stupid, flirtatious boyfriend who i think should kiss off and die, but, hey, it's her life, right? right. so, w/e. uhm, yeah. still haven't figured out how to put amvs up here, so, i have to figure that out soon, or someone could always tell me... either way works. oh! my friend (kinda) came out today. he's dating my other friend and no one besides a few of us knew already, so yeah... we pretty much announced it today. hey, he's the one who said, "i don't care if people know." so we went and told our class and it drifted into our next class and he was kinda getting picked on until the guys looked over and said "crap, donovan's friends are going to kill us!" then, this cute boy that i would go straight for (...nah...) came up and said, "is mitch really dating donavan?" i'm like, "yeah. why?" i glared at him and he's like, "oh, no, i'm cool with it, it's just that i just asked him and he said it was just a rumor." so what do i do? stomp over to mitch and start flipping out. i love donovan like a sister and when his own boyfriend starts denying being with him, heck yeah i'm gonna flip! >.< yeah, well, it delayed class for a while... guess the teachers were interested in mitch coming out. haha. stupid teachers. can't wait till school is finally out! then only 3 years left... o.O;; scary... it'll be weird to be out of normal school then onto a college campus. hm. oh well. after that, it's off to broadway... yup. i've got my future planned out. *nods* well, i'm in a yaoi mood... kawaii yaoi pics...

http://www.sprintusers.com/wallpapers/uploadedfiles/121005naruto%20wallpaper.jpg

http://static.animexx.de/fanfic/74710/73481.jpg

http://www.comicdom.gr/pics/shinjuku/angels.jpg

http://www.kimaro.zaccara.net/pics/fake.jpg

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Sunday, May 21, 2006

   Lalala
Well, I know how Shuichi-chan feels!!! (check previous post) Yeah... Okay, I worked with my dad today and ran around office buildings like an idjit in the process... Hm... Yeah. That's pretty much it... Peace out. MWAH!!!
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Wednesday, May 10, 2006

Wah...
I'm losing her all over again...
It's hard to explain, but I'm losing my ex-girlfriend all over again.
We had this thing where we would be close friends but we had no labels, so if someone were to ask "Are you two dating?" and we answered "No", we wouldn't be lying. But now... I think she's dating this guy and I'm incredibly upset about it. She asked me if it was alright, and maybe I should have said no, but she really likes him and, hey, you try being in a room with her, trying to deny her something she wants. I love her too much... I want her to be happy... Plus, everytime people ask, she claims she's "straight"... It's not fair!!! Is it so bad for me to be in love? Am I not allowed to love?! This isn't fair... I'm so miserable around her and away from her... I don't know what to do anymore!!! It's not fair... I know, I know... "Who ever said life was fair?" It's just... I believe I've been punished enough through my life... I don't need the girl I love to do this to me...
*Sighs* Should I give up?...
"There's no point in mourning over a lost love that was never really a love in the first place because if it was never really a love, then it was never really lost... Right?" (~Me)
If that quote has any truth behind it, then maybe she never really loved me and maybe I should just seriously give up on her...?
But...
I don't think I can...
I love her too much...
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Wednesday, May 3, 2006

   Grar!!!
Hm... Today is Hiei's and my... 2 year-7 month-1 week-5 day anniversary. *sweatdrops* I can't believe I remembered that... *calling over shoulder; "does that make me a nerd, Hi-san?!"* *silent* Grr... Darn you, Hiei... Anyway,uhm... Today has been a pretty decent day. I'm currently only mad at two people, though I started out with three today. I have spoken to my ex-girlfriend about how I feel so that's taken care of... Now I only need to worry about my "best friend" who's ditching me for her boyfriend and... that guy that I like who's always flirting with other chicks... When I deal with all that, I'll be so much better... *yawns* Such tiring business, being a freshman in high school, an artist, a singer, an older sister, a wife and a mother... Speaking of being an older sister, I'd better go. My youngest brother is being a brat so I'm gonna go. <3 Ayane Shinata-Jaganshi
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