Friday, May 11, 2007

well im babysitting a 5 month old, a 1 year old, a 2 year old, and a 5 year old.

the 5 month old is rocking next to me asleep, the one year old is asleep on my lap and the 2 and 5 year old are knocked out on their beds. i am going to be an amazing mommy b/c who else can rock a 5 month old with their foot, rock a 1 year old in their arms, sing to a 2 year old and keep an eye on the 5 year old all at the same time?

proms tomoro and i cant wait. other then being on crutches its gona be great. im so excited! i just wana see ryan, i havent seen him for almost 8 days and im going insane!!! well im gona put this baby in the crib. ttyl
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Tuesday, May 8, 2007

good note, i won my match today

bad note, i didnt get to see ryan even tho he was in town today...(still a bit er...bitter...about that)

good note, i have straight a's

bad note, i think im pregnato

good note, proms this weekend

bad note, im moodier then ever

and to end it on a good note...um...well...hmm...
hah! always one good thing, im still with ryan. hehehe, i love him so much...ok no mushy stuff. im gona go now
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Wednesday, May 2, 2007

i wish the government did have systems like that... unfortunately they dont. my best friend had a baby and shes doing quite well. if my parents found out i was theyd literally beat me til it died. some family huh
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Tuesday, May 1, 2007

in my opinion, it depends on the situation... i dont like abortion dont get me wrong, but then again if ur my age and u cant afford it and u would literally be thrown out on ur butt then u dont really get a choice do you?
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Monday, April 30, 2007

touchy subject...

abortion?

or not?
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Wednesday, April 18, 2007

sooo i got this migrain yesterday and i took my meds for it plus like ten ibuprophin and i dont remember what i did after taking it lOl i remember laying on my bed and staring at my tv even tho it wasnt on but thats all i remember hehe i found that amusing...

todays a half day, and im goin to pizza hizzle with jordan (who def. drove by at the wrong time hahahah...only her and ryan know!) and then prolly the mall afterwards...then tennis and mowin the lawn after that...rock on! well im gona go.

<3
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Sunday, April 8, 2007

this is how my mind has worked the last two days
fast or slow?
fast

weapon?
gun

back up plan?
swallow a bottle of sleeping pills

who would care?
ryan

Noone else?
nope

what about my parents?
they told me to do it so why not

what if it doesnt work?
well...then ill run my car off a bridge once i get out of the psych ward

you cant take it back you know that?
yea i know

why though?
because its going to happen sooner or later

story of your life?
damn right it is
.................................................
thats the convo ive had in my head over and over again. so whats stopping me you ask?

the love of my life

yea, things will "get better" and i shouldnt "talk like that". but it wont get better it hasnt gotten better and it never will. i know i shouldnt talk like that b/c its selfish and stupid some might say, but in my head, its the only other way to finish it.
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Wednesday, March 28, 2007

   im still like sick and i feel like crap. my head hurts im shakey i can barely walk without getting tired i didnt get to sleep until 3 cuz the ER at the hospital wouldnt freakin release me until really late and then i talked to ryan and i just dont want to be here. =(
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Tuesday, March 27, 2007

sorry for not commenting on neones sites i never have time...ill get to it this summer i swear.

neway, ryans comin over today so im happy cuz i wana c him

uhm...i have straight a's right now...hehe

thats about it, love u babe xoxo
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Monday, March 26, 2007

schools boring once again...

tennis is ok...

im kinda goin crazy i guess...

i duno...
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