Monday, May 22, 2006

   I hate the way you treated me
Coming home drinking those nights
Not one day went by without it
Those times you hit me
I tried to run but always caught
Hits were harder
Stronger, worse, even more
'make me learn'
Times have changed now
But the scars still remain
Deep inside, I will hate you forever
But I can't change that you're my dad...
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monday...woot...*yawns* i had a horrible time trying to sleep last night. i kept waking up and blah. so im all sleepy and grumpy. x_x oh, and what is it with parents and thinking that they can just barge in whenever they want?? i was walking around in my room in a SPORTS BRA and my cheer shorts when my dad just BARGES in!! i screamed soooo loud my mom came runnin upstairs and im still screaming. it was horrible.

i am soooo incredibly grumpy right now! lol...well i gota go the bell just rang. love u ryan ltr
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Sunday, May 21, 2006

i actually wrote a poem..me...write something...amazing i know
I love you so deeply,
I love you so much,
I love the sound of your voice
And the way that we touch.
I love your warm smile
And your kind, thoughtful way,
The joy that you bring
To my life every day.
I love you today
As I have from the start,
And I'll love you forever
With all of my heart.

I love you babe xoxo
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That songs by Gabrielle, Sometimes...its from the movie love actually...i just thought it matched the mood i was in cuz me n my bf got in a fight and yeh...*shrug* newayz...im home alone, my sister is passed out on the couch (last night was senior prom) she didnt get home til i think 5 am. so shes like, dead. but she was gorgeous last night, ive never seen her so dressed up like that, and then matt came in and hes all in his tux and stuff, they were so cute! lol, theyve been dating for almost 2 years now

i have to mow the lawn today...bleh, oh well, i get 10 bux for it so its all good ^_^ i babysat will last night, hes 2 and has just learned to talk so hes just all talkative the WHOLE time,lol. hes adorable, i got 30 bux for babysitting for like, 3 hours. so ten bux an hour isnt bad at all...i need to go to the bank...put everything in there, i gota have money if im movin out when im 18 or 19...well im gona bounce, i wana visit other ppls sites and get dressed. (im still in mah pjs)
i love you ryan
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Saturday, May 20, 2006

Sometimes i love you sometimes i dont
We've come too far we can't turn back
Have our good days, have our bad
When I'm feeling blue
You say that I'm hurting you
We try so hard not to fight
But sometimes we cross the line
And I wanna leave
But you
Won't let me
We have our highs and lows
Just like everybody else
Doesn't mean that we walk away
We work through our mistakes

(Chorus:)
Sometimes I love you
Sometimes I don't
But I never ever
Never want to let you go
The road's not easy
But the feeling's strong
It's the little things that keep me holding on

We're both guilty of mistakes
Though you rarely take the blame
Are you coming through
Sometimes
I hate you
But it's not mistakes in life you make
It's the good you do along the way
The dues you pay

We have our highs and lows
Something everybody knows
Doesn't mean that we run away
We work through our mistakes

(Chorus)

Ohhh
Of all the crazy things in life there's pain
It's you and me
We've come so far sometimes I can't believe
That I wouldn't change a thing
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Friday, May 19, 2006

its fffrrriiiiIIIIDDDAAAYYyyyyy...lol, inside joke...newayz!yeh im in a better mood than yesterday, i still shouldnt have read it tho cuz now its bothering me...for you ppl who were wandering, it was my bf's old site, and i dont know why i clicked on it but i did and it was ALL
about how he was in love with my ex best friend and how he was so depressed that they broke up or w/e and it just like, slapped me in the face..
and seeing that im all hormonal right now i started bawling in the middle of class cuz yeh. it was bad...but i duno why its still bugin me, i guess its cuz its weird to see him saying "i love her" to someone else...and i duno, i guess its also cuz hes always telin me that she didnt mean nething to him...*shrug*

newayz, today is our tennis sectionals...were all dressin up with our "we love billy b" on our shirts, hes so hott! hahhaha, not really, not in the least bit...gah...ew...lol, im so nice! ^_^ well im out of words so im gona go visit sites, love you ryan
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Thursday, May 18, 2006

   why did i do that? i shouldnt have...but i did...
and now im sittin here wandering. questioning...
everything ive ever been told...why am i so stupid? i shouldnt have read it...
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its thursday! i like thursdays, it makes me happy...ok so the first thing i say when i walk into the school doors is the following

"*gags* ohhh my god!!WHAT THE fu** is THAT! ohhh man"

it smells horrible in here...it seriously smells like someone took a crap in the middle of every hall, and room and its been fermenting in there for a month. its that bad. *covers mouth and talks like darth vador* hahaha..luuke... *gasp*...i am your father....*gasp* hehe...im so retarded, well im gona bounce, gota find michelle, we got baby clothes for our future niece!! wwooo! i love you ryan
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Wednesday, May 17, 2006

its my bestest best buddies, lol...im on the left, then its michelle nd nikki (the soon to be mommy!) shes the one that i came on here and was all "IM GONA BE AN AUNT" yeh. thats her! shes 6 months along now...its gona be a girl and her name shall be emily michelle, im so excited!!! woo!!! i heart my friends
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   well...i played for 2 hours AGAIN last night... lost the tie breaker, AGAIN. gaaah i was so mad! but then hunter nd me did the soco boys follow the leader dance and it was great again. plus we had cookies and did the dance with those so it made it even better,lol. we had to squeegie the courts, it was pretty fun...not....lol, squeegie-ing sucks a hard one...lol

uhm, well yeh thats about it. im bored so im gona go.i love you ryan, and guess what? i smell like strawberry daquiries,lol yumm
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