Monday, March 20, 2006

i think ive officially lost my best friend
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   hmm...yeh i have a really bad feeling about something but i cant really say what it is.*siigghhhh* god i wish i was like 10 years old instead of 16...i had no worries.its so much more fun.then i can just bounce around and be like WWWWWOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO and noone can question my motives.its great!lol....

anyways, ya know today is one of those days where its like...u just know something bad is gona happen, and u know ur gona find something out thats bad.i hope i find out what it is here soon cuz im gona go insane,lol...BLEH i just wana smack someone.they bother me.*sighs agin* well im done complaining so im gona go...love u ryan,i hope u start cheerin up.=)
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   well its monday...woo...goin to beef n boards on thursday,and next week is spring break!yaay!even tho its supposed to snow like 7 inches tonite...so much for getting a tan over break!lol

newayz...man im SO bored!yeh i found out that i have an F in botony, a D in chemistry, and a D+ in english.dont i feel smart!lol,and thats 3 of the five grades that i get.hehe...if my parents find out about that,im dead.like,literally.ill be strangled to death.ya know,ive been thinkin about this for a while.like,im losing my best friend.i dont even know who she is nemore.shes gone all "goth/punk" and like,i dont talk to her, and i mean...yeh i miss her but whenever she wants to go do stuff, and if its like on a day that i can see ryan, i would rather turn her down and go with him. my sister did the SAME thing...with her fiance and stuff.*shrug* i duno...newayz im gona go,cuz im bored.love you ryan ttyl
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Sunday, March 19, 2006

   my lip has been twitching for the longest time now!lol...newayz!my brother in law is here today, hes a cool guy.i was in my room when i here this *thump thump thump....BOOOOMMMM* nd he comes charging in my room,tackles me and goes "hello sis" and walks out again.hes so random!lol

we got some new stuff for my room...headboard for my bed, 2 sets of drawers, and a table bedside thing...its cool,matches my room and gives me someplace to put hammy the blind prophet.(for u ppl who dont know,that is my hamster...hes blind in one eye)hes so incredibly fat...lol...oh!and we got a new compy game,its the expansion pack to the sims 2,the buisiness one.its pretty cool,i like it.well that it so im gona go now.love you ryan!
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Saturday, March 18, 2006

   wooooooooooooooooooooooooo im so hyper...lol...

im feeling loads better!i have this nasty ear infection now, but thats ok.still havin issues keeping things down but oh well.im over it!i didnt go to the doctor last night, cuz i told my mom that i felt fine even tho i was really dizzy and stuff but i wanted to see ryan.so it all workd out!lol...hmmmm...what else?YOUR MOM!hahah,i so just owned you all!*cracks up* jeez im so hyper and happy and i dont know whY!!!!...*dances around* hm,well im gona go find some food,cuz that sounds really good!I LOVE YOU RYAN!!!had fun last night...specially when we had to hide out in the mall.;),tell bryce im mad at him,lol that scared the crap out of me!!!jeez...well ttyl!
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Friday, March 17, 2006

well uhm...i feel like shi* right now cuz im still sick.the only thing ive eaten and kept down in the last 3 days is a pack of poptarts.i ate a hamburger last night and i threw that up too...*sigh* 3 days, ive lost 10 pounds.crazy!newayz...my moms takin me to the doctor tonite after tennis,my parents are in like total denial that i rly need to get to the doctor.their nuts...

ya know in a way,this sucks really bad cuz since im going to the doctor, i cant see ryan most likely.unless i totally fake a "WOO IM *cough* HEALTHY" kinda thing...GAH my gum is stuck to my retainer...ewwww....lol,weelllll im gona go.im sleepy so i think im gona go to first hour and sleep the whole time.woo!i love you ryan
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Thursday, March 16, 2006

well, i have the stomach flu...i have NO clue how i got it tho!lol, oh well...i cant eat nething, this is my second day of not eating.*shrug* ive lost 2 pounds allready so im ok with it!lol...im at school tho, even tho i prolly shouldnt be..my dad made me come to school,hes sucha queer.*shrug* oh, and yeh ryan i HAVE noticed all that stuff.but u gota understand, thats all of ur frinds.not mine.my friends,mostly have pretty nice lives,they dont have to sit in bed jumping at every sound they hear worrying that their dad is gona come home drunk and decide that its perfectly fine to hit u in the head a few times.but w/e, i dont even care nemore, i have a shi**y dad, im over it...newayz,im gona go cuz i gota do some work.love you ryan,hopefully see u tonite
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Wednesday, March 15, 2006

Limp Bizkit-Trust
1..2..
1..2...what the f**k you gonna do?
You know I see right through you
you act like you don't know me.
You lie, you cheat.
You steal, you lose!!
wouldn't wanna be in your shoes.
Always lookin' over your shoulder
for the ones you stick,
you sick little prick.
it looks like your times runnin' out.
I'm creapin' up your back
so whatcha you all about?

[chorus]
I'm too fu**in' good,
and fu**in' proud!!
I'm gonna show you how
bad it hurts
to be a clown!!
You're the kind of guy with two faces.
Just another life that's wasted.
Here's a little fact,
you do me like that.
End up in the back
of my trunk in a sack!!
you'd better keep your hands off
what's mine
and anybody else's.
When you're selfish
your wealth is
all you crave from the cradle to the grave!!

[chorus]

I'm too fu**in' good,
and fu**in' proud!!
I'm gonna show you how
bad it hurts
to be a clown!!
I'm too fu**in' good,
and fu**in' proud!!
I'm gonna show you how
bad it hurts
to be a clown!!
I got a little bitty question...
just what the f**k are you thinkin'?.
You think you're all that and then some?.
well you're not.
I think you're dum ditty dum!!
I take it back
those thoughts are kinda whack.
Don't really need that kind of karma on the track.
Maybe freddy krueger
will step into your dream
and burn you like a demon
and leave your ass screamin'.
To be exact I wanted to react.
Mission of attack.
Your head was gettin' cracked!!
but you're a human bein'
that's lucky to be breathin'
and that's that!!...
that's that!!...
I don't trust nobody
and nobody trust me.
Never gonna trust anybody
and that's the way its gonna be!!....
I don't trust nobody
cause nobody trust me.
Never gonna trust anybody
and that's the way its gonna be!!....
I don't trust nobody
cause nobody trust me.
Never gonna trust anybody
and that's the way its gonna be!!....
I don't trust nobody
cause nobody trust me.
Never gonna trust anybody
and that's the way its gonna be!!....

[chorus]
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   *sighs*
i know he was in the hospital but i was ok with him then...he wasnt goin back to his whole, im gona get drunk and freakin go insane on my wife.if he died, yeh id be upset,but i mean do u realize how much happier id be if he was just gone?everything would be ok...but nothings gona be ok is it?not if my mom keeps puttin up with it...*rubs eyes and sighs* i just want a normal life like everyone else...i want a dad that cares about me,that can look me in the eyes and say that he loves me.my dad cant even do that, all he knows is that he hates me, im a b***h and he never wanted me.it sux.but w/e, ill be fine
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i hate my dad...sooooo incredibly much,its gotten to the point where im honestly starting to consider running away.i thought everything was ok, i thought it was all done with.but no,apparently not, hes back to his old ways again.i hate him.i hope they find out he has some sort of heart disease and he dies.
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