Tuesday, March 14, 2006

HAPPY BDAY JOJOOOOOOOOOO!!!ur sixteen bitch!lol...cant wait til garfields and the mall tonite!newayz...yeh,jordan IS my bestest friend in the whole wide world, shes just a w!!!e. hahah, jpjp... and YAh jordan,im definately jealous of your wh***ness,hahahah...hmm,yeh i went outside yesterday to go to botony and it was pouring down rain.i got soaked...but!luckily i had my awsome jacket on and it got soaked,not me.lol...hmmm...what else?no tkd today, =(, which means i cant see ryan...*tear* lol,thats ok i guess...ill see him on thursday.at least he doesnt have to close all this week!(tryin to look on the bright side of everything...its rather hard somedays) lalaaaaaaalaAAAAAA....ya know u love my opera singing!haha,well im gona go cuz im BUHORED and yeh...oh!!ryan, by the by, i forgot to tell u that it like,wont let me comment all the way so i had to tell u on here that i LOVE that song,lol...wasnt expecting it at all,haha!made me laugh,^_^ I LOVE YOU soo much babe, sry i cant go to tkd tonite...*sigh* well ill ttyl mk?love you,xoxo
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Monday, March 13, 2006

YAAAAY I GOT IT TO WORK!!!WOOO
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   my site is bein all weird...=(...i cant see ne of the posts.sooo if neone knows how to like, fix it or w/e pm me...newayz!its monmday, its raining...woo, i get to walk out in the rain.WET TEESHIRT CONTEST!!!ya know, i could get jordan to do that with me, BUT considering that her shirt is just a white piece of cloth that has holes in it and nothing underneath it, she cant really join.hahaha, WHORE!!!lol...hmmm,well uhm im gona go, im bored,love you ryan xoxo
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Saturday, March 11, 2006

   i hope my mom and i hope my dad, will figure out why they get so mad-everclear
fun day...went to the mall twice,got jojo her presents...went to taco bell,almost made out on the mall bench but i started laughing for some reason, uhm,i think i made ryan mad cuz chelsey called and i got mad but only for like 2 minutes and now i really dont care i just hate her SO incredibly much but w/e im pms'n sooo i have a right to get mad at stupid stuff like that...O M G that explains why im nauseated,hahaha,i feel smart now...newayz!i got new earrings...woo... lol, i looked at hamsters too, i wana either get a panda hamster or a dwarf one...i love the dwarfs there soooo tiny...newayz,im gona go, im in dire need of a pillow and a good book.love you ryan...sry if i made u mad...
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Friday, March 10, 2006

   Todays a good day...cuz its friday!!!woo!!lol...get to see ryan again tonite, im happy!did u get any sleep last night ryan?u better have!!!ur gona like, go retarded on me cuz of sleep deprivation,lol.well im out of words for now so im gona go play that stupid mcdonalds game... yes,ryan,THAT one.lol,see ya tonite babe,LOVE YOU!!
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Thursday, March 9, 2006

   So you can take that cookie, and stick it up your YEH-Limp bizkit
Well my day started out good, went bad, then sorta kinda good.lol...rather confizzling... newayz!i have tennis training after school til 430,tennis lesson until 530,and martial arts right after that.busy schedule!!!woo!...well im gona go sit with my exhusband,(cricket)haha,love you ryan...sry about all this sht see ya tonite
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Wednesday, March 8, 2006

   Hey babe...
ryan, i dont want u to fukn shoot urself, thats retarded!why in the world would i have told u that i wanted to spend my life with u if i wanted u to blow ur brains out??I love you...
more then nething in this world, and just cuz ur a total retard and a dick now and then doesnt matter to me.dont u think that i would have said fck this and left if i didnt care?i really shouldnt have blown up on u like that last night, but thats what ive held inside of me for 4 1/2 months now.b/c everytime u get mad at me, i just take it.ive taught myself to not talk back, to just keep it inside b/c of my dad.whenever i talked back to him i got hit...so i just learned to take the pain.well, the whole u goin to prom with chelsey thing and u not listening to me just set off a chain reaction and everything blew up...im sorry ok?i feel like a ttl btch for yellin at u and makin u feel like sht...but im not gona get mad if u go to the prom with her, shes ur best friend and i mean...i love u and trust u with all my heart.i know that ur not gona do nething ok?but its ur choice, do what u want to do...but plz, dont think that i would want u to kill urself, i never want to have to be without u...ever...i love you so much babe, dont ever forget that
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Tuesday, March 7, 2006

   Well...im just sorta,bleh right now.my dad was having issues breathing again last night, i went to the bathroom around 2 am and he was sittin up,clutchin his chest gasping for air...that was pretty scary...hes goin back in for more tests today and tomoro.fun stuff for him...*sigh* im so worried, and everyones worried about me.which i duno why, im just upset about my dad.i duno...newayz,my popo is wet cuz my pants didnt get dry fast enuf...all of it but my back pockets got dry.so my butts cold and wet...lol, hm...we get grade cards today, who wants to bet money that im grounded!??!ME cuz i know i am...i did horrible,all my grades dropped except for math.hehe...newayz, im gona go,love you ryan see ya tonite
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Monday, March 6, 2006

   HES HOME!!
THEY RELEASED MY DAD!!!!im sooo happy, like beyond happy...he has to go back for the next week everyday, to get a bunch more tests...they dont think its his heart thakn god, but they still want to check.he cant go to work this week either, but thats ok.i hardly get to see him cuz of his work, so now i can see him all week!!!im still worried,but that takes alot of my mind....yaaay
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   *sigh*
My dad's still in the hospital...we went to visit him yesterday evening, it scared me so much.he had an iv, tubes up his nose, wires connected to his chest, had one of those things on his arm that was permanently connected so they could take blood...i just totally lost it and had to about face and sit in the hallway for a good half hour...i just couldnt stop crying.he said that saterday night, b4 he went to the hospital, whenever he fell asleep, he stop breathing and wake up gasping for air...im so scared right now and im trying not to cry again, cuz im at school...i hate crying but i mean my dads in the hospital.i htink i have a right...i duno, im gona go
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