Thursday, November 3, 2005

My dad needs to die -_-
So yea me dads a bastard i cant talk to the one person i love more then anything in the whole fucking world because of that son of a bitch god damnit i just fucking wish he would fall over and fucking die leaving nothing left but dust that will blow away in the fucking wind i hate him i want to kill him
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Sunday, October 23, 2005

Love that never ended


“It’s so beautiful out today Yuki thank you for bringing me to the stream.” “No problem Toharu I love taking you places, well without Kyo that is” as I said so myself looking into the sky hoping Toharu didn’t hear me. “Yuki”, Toharu screamed while flowing down a stream with something clanging tightly around her neck. “Toharu I’m coming” I raced to get to her before she reached the waterfall “waterfall?” I looked in fear of Toharu dying falling off a rapid waterfall and the rage Kyo and everyone would be in. I finally caught up with her “Yuki” she screamed, “Toharu hold on” I yelled I reached out to her but our fingers nicked and I watched in horror as she yelled my name falling to a bottomless pit of water. I stood there just looking as that moment came rushing in my mind like a bomb exploding right in my head. I couldn’t bare it any longer I rushed back home with tears dripping from my eyes like rain falling and hitting the roof like hail.

I threw open the door as Kyo and Hatsuharu started laughing at the tears running down my face. I looked up at them and said in a scared, sad, and tough voice “you wouldn’t be laughing if you witnessed someone close to you die right in front of your eyes and it was your fault they did would you?” I asked. “Yuki” Hatsuharu said in a worried low voice. “I asked you a question and I expect an answer” as I yelled everything went in silence not even the birds were chirping. All of a sudden Shigure came out of no where with his papers in hand, and said in a happy voice “I just wrote a novel about a man who lost his women in a waterfall accident.” I looked up at Shigure and hit Kyo throwing him into the wall and said “if you ever say anything about waterfalls or two lovers again I swear I swear ill kill you and leave nothing left not even your ashes.” And took off up the stairs to my room and slammed the door shut behind me.

Mean while back at the waterfall. “Uh that was scary but where did Yuki go?” “Yuki where are you…Yuki?” “Toharu” “huh? Who’s there?” “Its me Ayame.” “Ayame where are you?” “I’m around your neck.” “Oh hello were you with me the whole time?” “Yes I was, and that was a near death experience if you ask me.” “Yea I would have to agree with you there.” “Well let’s go.” “Right…damn” “what’s wrong Toharu?” “I don’t know where we are or how to get home, that’s what’s wrong.” “Well our best bet is to just follow the stream I guess” “alright I will.”

“Yuki damn it get out of your room and explain to us where the hell Toharu is and if she’s hurt I wont go easy on you.” “Oh shut up already don’t you ever run out of breath?” “Did you just tell me to shut up you damn rat? When I bust down this door your ass is mine got that?” I over heard Kyo talking to Hatsuharu and Shigure he said, “I’m going in after him.” In a really mad voice as Hatsuharu told him to leave me alone. “Ok fine” he said “but as soon as you come out of there I expect to hear the whole story and if I don’t like it you’re a dead man.” If I tell them what happened what will they do? What will I do?

It was midnight and I decided to leave for a little while. The sky was black just like Kyo’s socks when he has the same pair on for a week. I herd a crunching sound it sounded like Hatsuharu when he eats grass, oh how I despise grass eaters I thought to myself as I kept walking. I herd that damn noise once again and took off running to see if it was the person I thought it was. I was right I was running my fastest and there’s only one person who can run as fast as me and that’s Kyo of corse. I decided to stop running and just walk. I went straight ahead because the trail seemed familiar to me, even though I had no clue where I was going. I herd rushing water and just stood there for awhile, as Toharu’s scream came into my head and the scared look on her face. ”AH Yuki!” someone screamed. It’s Toharu I said to myself and started running again. I was running faster then I ever have before but some how Kyo managed to keep up, I don’t know how but he sure as hell did. I finally got to the stream hoping to see Toharu and hoping she was ok. “Toharu!” I screamed in a voice I couldn’t describe, I have never herd this voice of emotion come from my mouth. I looked every where trying to find her, but there was no trace.

Suddenly I herd footsteps behind me even though I didn’t know who it was, I embraced that person hoping it was Toharu. There was a voice that said, “get off me you damn rat before I kill you!” and shoved me away. As soon as I herd “damn rat” I knew it was non-other then Kyo. I looked up at him and he blushed “what the hell is up you?” he started “sneaking out, going into a mad rage!” he sighed and whispered “which some how freaked me out.” “And most important why the hell did you fling your arms around my like that? That was weird you pervert.” I didn’t speak then an unexpected blow came to my face, it felt like a brick his my cheek. I laid there on the ground until I finally go the strength to sit up, I slowly looked up at Kyo. “Yuki stand up.” Kyo said in a very scary voice that sent s chill to my spine. I did as he wished preparing myself for another hit. Kyo decided not to hit me and I slowly turned my head to look at the ground. We stood there in silence as I herd a crunching sound as if something had been squashed. I raised my head to see a horrible sight of, Kyo clutching something in the palm of his hand tightly. I looked into his eyes the shadow’s from the moon where covering his eyes along with, the right side of this nose and mouth. He suddenly clutched his hand tighter then quickly let it go, when he opened his hand I saw something fall. My eyes widened as my mouth slowly dropped a little as tears again ran down my face. I dropped to the ground and looked at the dead motionless bird lying on the ground, so sad I couldn’t help but cry it was my first option. Then Kyo’s voice rang out “this is just an example of what will happen to you if Toharu is dead or hurt in anyway.” I turned my attention to Kyo the look on his face was so terrifying I couldn’t more, my body was paralyzed. A sudden breeze came and struck my hair blowing it a little then, Kyo turned his back to me and disappeared into the darkness without another word. Leaving me there confused, I didn’t know what to do.

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Tuesday, October 18, 2005

Edward...

In Memory of
Edward Lee Meeks,
born: May 29, 1992
re-born: October 13, 2005

When you lived your life for others and you loved without condition, When you made so many laugh and your smile won't be forgotten, When you left behind an empty place that no one else can fill, When friendships that you filled long to be renewed, When you built your life on hope and fulfilled it every day, The footprints that you left behind will bring us face to face, So, goodbye is not forever, you're only steps away...

R.I.P Edward I love you...
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Monday, October 17, 2005

yay yay yay -_-
Well I'm back and the weekend SUCKED I was so freaking bored....but I'm still alive so don't worry....
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Friday, October 14, 2005

I HATE HER!
I have to fucking stay at Jim all weekend long with his perverted son if you dont hear from me sunday i killed myself
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Never thought this would happen.
Well today isnt a very good day for me, as you can tell by the title. I just found out one of my best friends died yesterday, alot were crying. I hugged Holy alot, because she was crying the most out of all my friends. Anyways i dont really feel like posting too much but I just thought you would all like to know. If you want to talk to me about it more PM me or something I would really like that. Well thank you all for reading I'll post some other time bye.

R.I.P Eddward.
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Wednesday, October 12, 2005

Death Island: Dreaming of Death.
“Wow… this is getting awfully interesting.” Kakashi’s voice rang out so the rest of the class taking an exam could hear. Spike glanced up at him, an eyebrow raised.
“What’s getting interesting?” he questioned, dropping his pencil onto the table.
Kakashi blushed, closing the book and setting it down. “Oh, nothing, nothing!” he cried, smiling nervously.
“You’re reading Make-out Paradise again, aren’t you?” Spike asked with a smile.
“What would make you think that?” he said defensively, casting his gaze elsewhere.
“Sorry I’m late, I was grabbing some girl’s ass!” a voice screamed, and sharp footsteps were heard outside the exam hall. Benitora entered the room, his cheeks flushed with red from the desperate running he had just done.
“What the hell?” Spike spat, concerned as Benitora took a seat next to him. “Who’s ass was it this time?”
He blushed, making his face even redder than before. “I didn’t realize that I had said it out loud.”
“Just tell us!” Kakashi said a little too excitedly.
“Some chick named Faye. She was a total hotty,” Benitora responded, opening his school bag and pulling out a thick book on Ninjutsu.
“Ah shit, you’re in for it now,” Spike laughed, pointing his index at him.
“What do you mean?” he asked, his brow creased with concern.
“Faye will probably knock the shit out of you for that,” Spike answered simply, picking up his pencil.
“Now, class,” Kakashi said, waving his hands. “Get back to your exam on the Ninjutsu techniques, or you’ll fail it.” He gave an evil gaze in the direction of Benitora. “This is your twentieth tardy, and we’ve only been in school for twenty days. That’s disappointing. If you get one more tardy, you’ll be kicked out, so keep that in mind.”
Benitora stuck his tongue out at Kakashi, who didn’t see it because he had picked his book back up and was flipping through the pages to find his spot. Quite recently, many people had joined the Ninja Academy to learn ninja techniques, which was quite surprising that most of them were around twenty years old. Most of the students that he had graduated were around the age of fifteen. The older students were less successful than the stupid younger ones because all that was on their mind was sex. But Kakashi had no room to speak.
“Hey Kakashi!” Benitora whined.
“That’s Master Kakashi to you!” he snapped back. “What is it?”
“I don’t have a test and I need one.”
“Well that’s too bad, isn’t it? You’re the one who was grabbing Faye’s ass, so I guess failing doesn’t matter to you,” he shot back at him.
“Just give me a damn test.”
“You came in late so you automatically flunk. Sorry! Maybe next time you’ll learn not to grab a girl’s ass in the middle of the day right before class.” Benitora scowled at him and folded his arms across his chest in a pouting state.
“I don’t wanna take your damn written test anyway. I can take you in real combat any day of the week,” Benitora boasted.

“You really think so?” Kakashi questioned, setting his book down once again. “Do you care to test that?”
“Yah, I guess I do,” Benitora answered, standing up and walking down the aisle.
“You’re asking to die, you know,” Kakashi said with a polite smile. “By the way, if you grab my ass, I’m expelling you. That is, if you live through this fight.”
“Who’d wanna grab your ass, you cock-sucker?”
“Watch what you say. The more you spit, the harder I’ll knock the shit out of you.”
“You talk big, asshole. Who says you’re the master? Your ass is grass as far as I’m concerned,” Benitora shouted.
“Your ass is grass, boy, and your face is going to be smashed into the grass, too. I despise grass-eaters.”
“Well enough talk, old fag, lets take this outside!”
“Why take this outside…” Kakashi began, but disappeared.
“Where did he go?!” Benitora cried with dismay, glancing around the room. Kakashi suddenly appeared next to Benitora, grabbing onto his bandana.
“…When we can just fight in here?” He grinned. “If you move, then I’ll show everyone what your hair looks like under the bandana.”
“ huh you dumbass you would’nt dare” Benitora said in a Winnie voice “oh is that a challenge” Kakashi said in an exciting voice.”
Kakashi tugged on Benitora’s bandana “ah” Benitora wailed he reached to grab the bandana but Kakashi grabed his hand “were you trying to stop me from accomplishing my task Benitora?”
Benitora looked up “uh no I wasn’t” he said “oh well that’s what it seemed like to me” Kakashi said while a grin struck his face.
“Now if you act like a smart-ass toward me again I will smack you until you stop grabbing girls asses.” “heh” Benitora laughed “you have no room to talk Kakashi at lest I don’t read a book name Make-out paradise.”
Kakashi let go of Benitora’s bandana as he tumbled away Kakashi rose his hand to his face. “You think your so smart don’t you well I have a peace of advice for you.”
“Next time don’t mess with your teacher” “what the hell dose that mean.” Benitora wailed “Take a look for your self” Kakashi said. “Huh ah where the hell did my bandana go”

This is something me and mal made up ^-^ hope you like it!
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I ish single again _-_
well as you can tell im single once more :: thinks to self"that wasnt too long << >>":: neways im not that happy about it but Ben wanted to break up and everything so its fine with me i cant force anything on him and i dont feel like i need to at all but yea im not really putting any punctuation in this one cause i dont feel like it ^-^ lol neways i shall talk to you all later i just thought i would tell you ^-^ bye byes now

P.S. even though we arent going out any more i still love him LOADS!
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Tuesday, October 11, 2005

(>^-^)>
Well hehe i have a new someone ^-^ his name is Ben *Vampiric Werewolf* most of you should know him hehe. I ish very happy sense we are now offically BF and GF ^-^. My mom also said either this month or next she will take me to see him cause he lives about 3 hours away from me ::sniffles:: but i still love him no matter how far he is ^-^. Today i told everyone at school ^-^ even if they didnt know him, then i hugged the person and laughed cause i was very happy.I hugged about 20 people today hehe much fun. As you can probibly tell i am very happy lol so yea i hope you are happy for us as well ^-^. Bye Byes everyone ^-^.


P.S. I LOVE BEN! ^-^
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Sunday, October 9, 2005

I want Emily to read this. I don't think I have sent this to you
before.....




Footsteps Online ...
>
> Shannon could hear the footsteps behind her as she walked toward home.

> The thought of being followed made her heart beat faster.
"You're
> being silly," she told herself, "no one is following you." To be
safe,
she
> began to walk faster, but the footsteps kept up with her pace. She
was
> afraid to look back and
>
> she was glad she was almost home. Shannon said a quick prayer,
"God
> please get me home safe." She saw the porch light burning and she
leaned
> against the door for a moment, relieved to be in the safety
>
> of her home. She glanced out the window to see if anyone was
there.
> The sidewalk was empty.
>
> After tossing her books on the sofa, she decided to grab a snack
and
> get online. She logged on under her screen name ByAngel213.
>
> She checked her Buddy List and saw GoTo123 was on. She sent him
an
> instant message.
>
> ByAngel213: Hi. I'm glad you are on! I thought someone was
following
> me home today. It was really weird!
>
> GoTo123: LOL. You watch too much TV. Why would someone be
following
> you? Don't you live in a safe neighborhood?
>
> ByAngel213: Of course I do. LOL. I guess it was my imagination
cuz'
> I didn't see anybody when I looked out.
>
> GoTo123: Unless you gave your name out online. You haven't done
that
> have you?
>
> ByAngel213: Of course not. I'm not stupid you know.
>
> GoTo123: Did you have a softball game after school today?
>
> ByAngel213: Yes and we won!!
>
> GoTo123: That's great! Who did you play?
>
> ByAngel213: We played the Hornets. LOL. Their uniforms are so
gross!
> They look like bees. LOL
>
> GoTo123: What is your team called?
>
> ByAngel213: We are the Canton Cats. We have tiger paws on our
> uniforms. They are really cool.
>
> GoTo123: Did you pitch?
>
> ByAngel213: No, I play second base. I've got to go. My homework
has
> to be done before my parents get home. I don't want them mad at me.
Bye!
>
> GoTo123: Catch you later. Bye
>
> Meanwhile ..... GoTo123 went to the member menu and began to
search
> for her profile. When it came up, he highlighted it and printed it
out.
He
> took out a pen and began to write down what he knew about Angel so
far.
>
> Her name: Shannon; Birthday: Jan. 3, 1985; Age: 13;
>
> State where she lived: North Carolina; Hobbies:
>
> softball, chorus, skating and going to the mall.
>
> Besides this information, he knew she lived in Canton because
she
> had just told him. He knew she stayed by herself until 6:30 PM every
> afternoon until her parents came home from work. He knew she played
> softball on Thursday afternoons on the school team, and the team was
named
> the Canton Cats.
>
> Her favorite number 7 was printed on her jersey. He knew she was
in
> the eighth grade at the Canton Junior High School. She had told him
all
> this in the conversations they had online. He had enough information
to
> find her now.
>
> Shannon didn't tell her parents about the incident on the way
home
> from the ball park that day. She didn't want them to make a scene
and
stop
> her from walking home from the softball games.
>
> Parents were always overreacting and hers were the worst. It
made
> her wish she was not an only child. Maybe if she had brothers and
sisters,
> her parents wouldn't be so overprotective.
>
> By Thursday, Shannon had forgotten about the footsteps following her.
> Her game was in full swing when suddenly she felt someone
staring
at
> her. It was then that the memory came back. She glanced up from her
second
> base position to see a man watching her closely. He was leaning
against
> the fence behind first base and he smiled when she looked at him. He
> didn't look scary and she quickly dismissed the fear she had felt.
>
> After the game, he sat on a bleacher while she talked to the
coach.
> She noticed his smile once again as she walked past him. He nodded
and
she
> smiled back. He noticed her name on the back of her shirt. He knew
he
had
> found her.
>
> Quietly, he walked a safe distance behind her. It was only a few
> blocks to Shannon's home, and once he saw where she lived he quickly
> returned to the park to get his car. Now he had to wait.
>
> He decided to get a bite to eat until the time came to go to Shannon's

> house. He drove to a fast food restaurant and sat there
until
> time to make his move.
>
> Shannon was in her room later that evening when she heard voices
in
> the living room. "Shannon, come here," her father called. He sounded
upset
> and she couldn't imagine why.
>
> She went into the room to see the man from the ballpark sitting
on
> the sofa. "Sit down," her father began, "this man has just told us a
most
> interesting story about you." Shannon sat back. How could he tell
her
> parents anything? She had never seen him before today!
>
> "Do you know who I am, Shannon?" the man asked. "No," Shannon
> answered. "I am a police officer and your online friend, GoTo123."
>
> Shannon was stunned. "That's impossible! GoTo is a kid my age!
He's
> 14, and he lives in Michigan!"
>
> The man smiled. "I know I told you all that, but it wasn't true.
You
> see, Shannon, there are people online who pretend to be kids; I was
one
of
> them. But while others do it to find kids and hurt them, I belong to
a
> group of parents who do it to protect kids from predators. I came
here
to
> find you and to teach you how
> dangerous it is to give out too much information to people
online.
>
> You told me enough about yourself to make it easy for me to find you.
> Your name, the school you went to, the name of your ball team
and
the
> position you played. The number and name on your jersey just made
finding
> you a breeze."
>
> Shannon was stunned. "You mean you don't live in Michigan?" He
> laughed. "No, I live in Raleigh. It made you feel safe to think I
was
so
> far away, didn't it?"
>
> She nodded.
>
> "I had a friend whose daughter was like you. Only she wasn't as lucky.

> The guy found her and murdered her while she was home alone.
Kids
> are taught not to tell anyone when they are alone, yet they do it
all
the
> time online. The wrong people trick you into giving out information
a
> little here and there online. Before you know it, you have told
them
> enough for them to find you without even realizing you have done
it.. I
> hope you've learned a lesson from this and won't do it again. Tell
others
> about this so they will be safe too?"
>
> "It's a promise!"
>
> That night Shannon and her dad and Mom all knelt down together
and
> thanked God for protecting Shannon from what could have been a
tragic
> situation.

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