Wednesday, June 20, 2007

   hi
hi again, everythings confusing, but i haven't told you guys, if you want to know whats up, PM me, anyway, when i see a way out of this confusion, ill let all of you know, ill be waiting for that to happen.
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Tuesday, June 19, 2007

   what to do????
hey, i found out that 2 of my friends are talking really bad about me, and its because i have a bf, but its not my fault i love to talk to him, my friends always talk bad about him and it makes me feel really bad. its like i don't know who to trust anymore but it makes me really confused, cause my bf hurt me 3 times already, but i still love him and i think i should hate him, but i won't cause i love him so much. anyway, i went shopping a the book store and got 9 new manga: 13 of tsubasa; 18 of hana-kimi; 1 & 5 of angelic layer; 2 of the gentlemen's allience; 1-2 of mamotte lollipop; 5 of full moon; and 1 of cardcaptor sakura of the first series so i have all the cardcaptor sakura books, im so proud of myself^^ i know FOR SURE i want to a singer for the rest of my life cause whenever i sing i feel free, otherwise i feel like im drowning, when i sing, im in my own world, my thoughts are my thoughts. ever since i started loveing my bf, i felt so happy, i love him so much. (i have over 80 manga (4got to mention ealier)) i guess ill start asking the question of the day that i was online: Is there a song (any song) that relates to your life? If so, what's the title of the song?
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Sunday, June 17, 2007

   My life is really confusing, why is that???
plz post a comment telling me why.
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Saturday, June 9, 2007

   good bye my fellow otakus.....
hey i won't be on the comp for a whole week! hard to believe huh? i am going camping in the mountains with marmaladegal9210 so i will be back next saturday with a full report, so all my friends, tell me what happened when i was away when i get back! I LOVE YOU ALL!!!!!!!!!! I'LL MISS YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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Wednesday, June 6, 2007

   Darkness......
Hey it's me again....I think I am in trouble, cause even though my boyfriend cheated on me, I still love him! Sad huh? Well I guess I am really weird and retarded cause I should be hating him (according to my friends) but I love him still, well, I guess I just have to rely on my heart..........and I don't know what my heart is telling me, it's like I can't hear it, or it's just to far away, away in darkness, a darkness that no light can shine through, I think this darkness is sadness...but I will find a way through, I always do.....
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Tuesday, June 5, 2007

   SORRY!!!!
ok i emptied by PM box so people can PM me!!! i am so sorry that it was full!!!!
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Monday, June 4, 2007

   hey
yesterday i went to another party with sakura hime02 and her cousins, hikari animeangel, keitarofan, and Anita Blake01 (sorry if i spelled these wrong!!!!><) anyway, i had a lot of fun, but i think my bf wants to end it with me, but i still love him so much that if he does, ill be lost in my head, a continueing maze that u can't cheat out off, u have to find your own way out...
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Saturday, June 2, 2007

Going Deeper
hey, i am going to my friend kristal's party today and all my friends that are mad at me are going to be there, and i have no idea what to do anymore, so i will try to work things out there, and if it doesn't work then i will run away, at least by the end of summer, so i can transfer and get money, even though i have some, but its good to be overly prepared...i might be scared to run away, but maybe its for the best, so i can run away from my problems, even though i know that is wrong, but its going to help eventually......
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   Messsed up.....
i am really messed up right now, that i will run away without a second thought cause my own friends treat me like crap except for my friend kristal (at least for now) so i will leave to a state i have absolutly nothing to do with...and i won't finish hs, i won't go to collage, and my life will be messed up......so i gress that my life is just one big hell hole, and i am willing to let go and drop into the firery pits below
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What a day.......
i had a REALLY bad day....first my bff and my bf fight on the phone and internet, then my dad has a stroke, so i was really upset when my bff IMed me all mad....she wouldn't even let me understand what i did wrong, i am still confused....i can't wait to leave california, i thinking about running away and maybe live somewhere else, maybe texas, i heard its friendlier there, and less confusing so i wouldn't mind living there till my life gets sorted out so i wonder how much a bus ticket costs, i might have enough money if i jack some from mom and dad...they got hundreds somewhere in the house all in one place, in the safe with no lock...ill be in texas soon, i can't take it here, i might have to be homeless, but it is better than being locked up and confused in california....texas, i will be there b4 summer school...
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