Well here I am on another site. There's not much to say about me, really. I normally don't get along well with most people, although that's something that's slowly changing. The few friends I have are the most important things in the world to me, and I'm finally in a relationship with one of the most amazing people I've ever met (that means you Dawn =) ). So I'm happier than I can ever remember being, and am actually happy to be here (for once). My main hobbies are roleplaying, playing DDR, and doing capoeira (the best fighting style ever). I think that about sums me up. If you visit, sign the guestbook or something...I feel friendless. ;)

Monday, March 7, 2005

This is a boring entry...
Heh- I haven't updated on here in awhile, but that's fairly typical of me. (I never keep up with this kind of thing...)
The past couple weeks have been busy with all kinds of stuff.
First off, I've been to the hospital a bunch. The first time was for my shoulder after it got split open by a table (or maybe that should be 'split open after a guy threw me into a table' *shrug*) and all the other times have been with Dawn who's been hella sick recently.
On that note, I've decided I don't like her being sick (heh- I told her that a few days ago and she promised to cut it out soon...). It's something with her stomach, and of course she didn't bring it up until she nearly passed out in the middle of campus about a week ago and I ended up driving her over to the on-campus doc-in-a-box. Since then most of our 'quality time' has been spent in waiting rooms. The whole thing's got me a little worried, but she went in for some tests yesterday and found out that it's like duodenal ulcers and slight gastritis in the lower stomach (or something like that...whatever it was, she came away with a bunch of prescriptions. It doesn't really matter to me what it is as long as it gets fixed.)
The rest of my life has been the same old routine of school and work (a lot more work than usual since two of the other bartenders took off early for spring break >.<).
There was a DDR competition this weekend too, which was good. I managed to get first place in the freestyle division and Kira took second in perfect attack (there's a couple kids at our school that are insane at the game. The one who took first AAed Max on Heavy...he's one crazy bastard.) Dawn and I had been planning on entering in the routines category too, but we nixed that idea pretty quickly because of her condition.
I guess the good side of all this is that it's been easier to find her lately since she's almost always home. We watched the entire Slayers series last week.
Man...this is a boring entry. Oh well.
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Thursday, February 17, 2005

   Not Much
This week has gone by pretty quickly, it's hard to believe it's already Thursday. Nothing's really been happening other than class as usual and lot's of work. I'm looking forward to the weekend in about two days, even though I don't think we have any plans yet...
The only kinda funny thing that happened recently is Dawn tried to recruit me to help her with some presentation she has do for sociollogy (I think). To be more specific, she wanted me to talk with the 'boy's group' for a sex-ed discussion. heh- no way. There's a lot of things I'd do for her, but I have to draw the line somewhere (scarring my brother for life is enough for me, I think I'll leave these other kids for someone else). But I had a good laugh over that, and I'm sure I'll be hearing some interesting stories once she finishes up on Friday.
The rest of the week is just boring. I got to break up a bar fight last night, and got thrown into a wall during capoeira practice this morning. I've still been going to Dawn's yoga thing too, and it's at least not painful anymore.
Hmm. That's about it.
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Sunday, February 13, 2005

  I've never celebrated Valentine's Day before except for in elementary school when it was mandatory (even then I thought it was cheap because everyone got Valentine's...I always had enough cards for everyone, but hid and/or threw out the one's my mother had forced me to make for the people I didn't like. heh.)
Anyways, that makes today the first Valentine's Day I've ever willingly participated in, and I think I finally can understand some of the allure. It was pretty much like every other weekend (since I've been spending most of them with Dawn anyways), but a little more exciting. We hung out for the first part of the day and played DDR until Dawn decided we should make a doubles routine up...which sounded odd, but I agreed anyways. We argued about the song for awhile (I like Samba de Janeiro and she likes True..., we ended up settling on Sobakasu which we both like, but not before a finger poking war broke out, but I always win those anyways ;)). So we made up this crazy DDRish dance thing and ended up going down to the public machine to play it. =) A lot more fun than I expected- we ended up making an A on it and A's and AA's on two other songs, and this random guy offered to buy us another round...first time that's ever happened...
It was cool though, and we spent a couple hours in the University arcade after that playing House of the Dead (haha- she died first and kept yelling 'vengeance!' whenever I destroyed another zombie), and,heh, 'Ultimate Pingpong'...which is evidently something she came up with with some of her other friends...it's more like a cross between ping-pong and raquetteball. So we ran around in the little alcove where the ping-pong tables are, hitting the ball off of the walls and diving to the floor to catch it in time. (we kept invading this other ping-pong table, but Dawn's got this crazy power where people never seem to get pissed when stuff ends up that way...they joined us *still mystified*). So, yeah, we played 'Ultimate Ping-Pong' with three strangers for over an hour. I think we managed to lodge two balls in the back of the basketball machine too- it was damn funny.
We left to have dinner, and spent the rest of the night hanging out (which is always cool, but is even better since we've been dating. =D ). The best part of the entire day was me looking over and realizing that she'd actually fallen asleep on me...I've known her for about a year and a half, and have spent the night at her apt. and parties, but I've never seen her sleep =). So I was in the same position for like two hours- trying not to move or breath too hard, with no feeling in my right arm, but it was possibly the coolest thing ever. =D
I think I like Valentine's Day.


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Wednesday, February 9, 2005

   God I'm sore.
Ow. I hurt in many areas I was previously unaware of.
So yesterday was Mardi Gras, which was (amazingly enough) great. I got woken up at around 6 yesterday morning by a phone call from Dawn...had it been anyone other than Dawn on the other end of that ringtone, I would have hunted them down and skinned them alive, but since it wasn't- I stayed quiet until I was awake enough to speak English rather than profanity.
Turns out that Ino had had another of her waffle cravings and was trying to rally some kind of grand force to go to breakfast. So yeah, managed to drag my ass out of bed and drive over.
I had forgotten it was Mardi Gras too, until Ino walked in all covered in sparkly junk like some demented pixie. I learned later that Dawn hadn't forgotten either since she had stuffed the pockets of her cargos full of plastic beads...which she hurled at everyone with a little more enthusiasm then is really warranted at 7am, but it was hilarious all the same.
Since none of us really had plans, Me, Dawn, Ino, Eiri, Haru, Kendell, Marxis, and a bunch of people I've never met (I'm guessing friends of other people...didn't take the time to find out) headed downtown to a sushi bar and ate, then headed back to Haru's apt. to watch a shit load of anime and play DDR. All in all, a fun night- a lot more than I initially thought it was going to be.
So at some point during the course of things last night, I was talking to Dawn about the whole Mardi Gras thing and she pointed out that today marks the beginning of lent (I knew that at one time, just forgot it...). She's going back to veganism and doing some sort of detoxification program for 40 days, and I figured that I may as well try doing something too...so I took her up on her offer to join her at her yoga classes thinking 1)more time with her 2)it's yoga...it'll be easy...relaxing....
Holy shit, the things you learn. So I woke up this morning and Dawn goes "try not to eat anything until after the class."
I go. "Why not?" (not that I'm in the habit of eating anything other than instant breakfast in the mornings anyways)
She goes, "Because if you eat anything, you might throw up."
You'd think I would have taken that as a warning sign. So she drives us down to the gym complex and I'm like one of 3 guys in a class of 30. We start warm-ups which are normal stretches like the ones we do in capoeira, and I'm feeling kinda cocky because I train 4 times a week and all this shit is really easy....and then he starts telling us to put our limbs places. So I follow instructions...and find out that I'm not nearly as flexible as I thought I was. Sure, I can do a split, but I can't put my fucking foot behind my head!
Long story short, I try to keep up with this screwed up game of quantum-twister, look around and notice that Dawn and everyone else seem to be happily tying themselves into knots like insane pretzel-people...and force myself into a semblance of the poses they're holding.
When I first got out, I was a little sore...on the drive back to my apartment, I was noticing some new muscles...and now I have a new respect for yoga. I am so sore...40 days of this 4 days a week? I better be damn bendy at the end of all this...
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Monday, February 7, 2005

   Stuff
“...when the fight begins within himself,
a man's worth something.” -Robert Browning

"If you don't know what you want," the doorman said, "you end up with a lot you don't." ~Fight Club Chapter 5

"Recycling and speed limits are bullshit," Tyler said. "They're like someone who quits smoking on his deathbed." ~ Fight Club Chapter 16

I've met God across his long walnut desk with his diplomas hanging on the wall behind him, and God asks me, "Why?" Why did I cause so much pain? Didn't I realize that each of us is a sacred, unique snowflake of special unique specialness? Can't I see how we're all manifestations of love? I look at God behind his desk, taking notes on a pad, but God's got this all wrong. We are not special. We are not crap or trash, either. We just are. We just are, and what happens just happens. And God says, "No, that's not right." Yeah. Well. Whatever. You can't teach God anything. ~Fight Club Chapter 30

"You're not your job. You're not how much money you have in the bank. You're not the car you drive. You're not the contents of your wallet. You're not your fucking khakis." ~Fight Club the Movie

"Life has taught us that love does not consist in gazing at each other but in looking outward together in the same direction." ~Antoine de Saint-Exupery

For what is the beloved? She is that which I myself am not. In the act of love, I am pure male, and she is pure female. She is she, and I am I, and clasped together with her, I know how perfectly she is not me, how perfectly I am not her, how utterly we are two, the light and the darkness, and how infinetly and eternally, not-to-be-comprehended by either of us is the surpassing One we make.

- D.H. Lawrence

Since I have nothing better to do, I guess I'll post poetry too(how very out of character of me...)

A stream of unmet goals
And futile dreams
Lonely nights
He never knew
The past could weigh so much

Stares out the window
Outstreatches a hand
and waits

A storm is brewing somewhere
And one day
He hears
Lightening will strike his heart
A fire will start
Igniting love

Reduce the past to nothing
Reduce the pain to ashes
There is no barrier
No weight
This flame cannot destroy


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