Saturday, December 4, 2004

this has always been one of my favorite songs. it's true of the way i feel about rebecca. i wish every moment we're together could last an eternity. oh yeah, and she's so cute and peaceful when she's sleeping. i'm not gonna bother bolding this one because if i did i'd have to bold the entire thing. all of it is true.

"I Don't Want To Miss A Thing"

I could stay awake just to hear you breathing
Watch you smile while you are sleeping
While you're far away and dreaming
I could spend my life in this sweet surrender
I could stay lost in this moment forever
Well, every moment spent with you
Is a moment I treasure
I don't wanna close my eyes
I don't wanna fall asleep
'Cause I'd miss you, baby
And I don't wanna miss a thing
'Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream would never do
I'd still miss you, baby
And I don't wanna miss a thing
Lying close to you
Feeling your heart beating
And I'm wondering what you're dreaming
Wondering if it's me you're seeing
Then I kiss your eyes and thank God we're together
And I just wanna stay with you
In this moment forever, forever and ever
I don't wanna close my eyes
I don't wanna fall asleep
'Cause I'd miss you, baby
And I don't wanna miss a thing
'Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream would never do
I'd still miss you, baby
And I don't wanna miss a thing
I don't wanna miss one smile
I don't wanna miss one kiss
Well, I just wanna be with you
Right here with you, just like this
I just wanna hold you close
Feel your heart so close to mine
And just stay here in this moment
For all the rest of time
Don't wanna close my eyes
Don't wanna fall asleep
'Cause I'd miss you, baby
And I don't wanna miss a thing
'Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream would never do
'Cause I'd still miss you, baby
And I don't wanna miss a thing
I don't wanna close my eyes
I don't wanna fall asleep
'Cause I'd miss you, baby
And I don't wanna miss a thing
'Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream would never do
I'd still miss you, baby
And I don't wanna miss a thing
Don't wanna close my eyes
Don't wanna fall asleep, yeah
I don't wanna miss a thing
I don't wanna miss a thing

-Aerosmith
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Friday, December 3, 2004

i don't remember if i've posted this one before or not. i'm pretty sure i have though. anyway, this is how i felt about rebecca before i was able to spend that week with her. since that week, nothing's changed. i still love her with all my heart and soul.


"I Knew I Loved You"

Maybe it's intuition
But some things you just don't question
Like in your eyes
I see my future in an instant
and there it goes
I think I've found my best friend
I know that it might sound more than
a little crazy but I believe

I knew I loved you before I met you
I think I dreamed you into life
I knew I loved you before I met you
I have been waiting all my life

There's just no rhyme or reason
only this sense of completion
and in your eyes
I see the missing pieces
I'm searching for
I think I found my way home
I know that it might sound more than
a little crazy but I believe

I knew I loved you before I met you
I think I dreamed you into life
I knew I loved you before I met you
I have been waiting all my life

A thousand angels dance around you
I am complete now that I found you

I knew I loved you before I met you
I think I dreamed you into life
I knew I loved you before I met you
I have been waiting all my life

-Savage Garden
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Thursday, December 2, 2004

i recently showed this song to purgatory to help explain some things to her. while the descriptions don't match rebecca, i feel the message does. this song describes what was going on in my head when i was first starting to fall in love and was trying to figure out if i was really in love or not. rebecca doesn't match some of the fantasies i've had in the past, but she's much more than i've ever dreamed. i love you kitten.


"She's More"

I like blue eyes, hers are green
Not like the woman of my dreams
And her hair's not quite as long as I had planned
Five foot three isn't tall
She's not the girl I pictured at all
In those paint by number fantasies I've had

So it took me by complete surprise
When my heart got lost in those deep green eyes
She's not at all what I was looking for
She's more

No, it wasn't at first sight
But the moment I looked twice
I saw the woman I was born to love
Her laughter fills my soul
And when I hold her I don't wanna let go
When it comes to her I can't get enough

So it took me by complete surprise
When my heart got lost in those deep green eyes
She's not at all what I was looking for
She's more

More than I dreamed of
More than any man deserves
I couldn't ask for more
Than a love like hers

So it took me by complete surprise
When my heart got lost in those deep green eyes
She's not at all what I was looking for
She's more

-Andy Griggs
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Wednesday, December 1, 2004

for the next couple of days i'm going to be posting songs that i feel describe the progression of my relationship with rebecca from the moment i first started falling in love with her. today is the beginning, so here's your first song.

"I'd Do Anything"

Another day is going by
I'm thinking about you all the time
But you're out there
And I'm here waiting

And I wrote this letter in my head
'Cuz so many thing were left unsaid
But now you're gone
And I can't think straight

This could be the one last chance
To make you understand

I'd do anything
Just to hold you in my arms
To try to make you laugh
Somehow I can't put you in the past
I'd do anything
Just to fall asleep with you
Will you remember me?
'Cuz I know
I won't forget you

Together we broke all the rules
Dreaming of dropping out of school
And leave this place
To never come back

So now maybe after all these years
If you miss me have no fear
I'll be here
I'll be waiting

This could be the one last chance to make you understand
And I just can't let you leave me once again

I close my eyes
And all I see is you
I close my eyes
I try to sleep
I can't forget you
And I'd do anything for you

I'd do anything
To fall asleep with you
I'd do anything
There's nothing I won't do
I'd do anything
To fall asleep with you
I'd do anything
'Cuz I know
I won't forget you

-Simple Plan
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Monday, November 29, 2004

another example of the great jack handy
"I think a good product would be "Baby Duck Hat". It's a fake baby duck, which you strap on top of your head. Then you go swimming underwater until you find a mommy duck and her babies, and you join them. Then, all of a sudden, you stand up out of the water and roar like Godzilla. Man, those ducks really take off! Also, Baby Duck Hat is good for parties."

that's the kinda stuff i come up with when i'm hyper tired instead of the just plain tired tired i've been lately.
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Sunday, November 28, 2004

just curious
i was just wondering what your guys' pet peeves are and what are some things you do that you know annoys other people? my pet peeves are when people chew with their mouths open or talk with their mouths full. i also don't like it when people stand behind me while i'm sitting down. the things i do i know annoy others are bite my fingernails and pop my knuckles.
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Saturday, November 27, 2004

i'm sorry i haven't updated in a few days. i've been feeling really depressed the past couple of days and i didn't wanna talk much. i still tried to get to some of your guys' sites, but honestly, i don't even remember if i commented or not. ah well, hope you'll forgive me for not giving you guys something to read here.

yesterday (by this clock) i got up early to help kai (the german that's growing his hair longer i told you about before) move. we took two trips with the u-haul van (smaller one). after that, i went to work for a while, but i was feeling sick, so i went home early. i'm prolly gonna call in sick today (also by this clock) too. i talked to rebecca for a while (that made me feel a lot better), and confirmed some of what i'd thought for the past few days (why i was depressed, but it's ok. it's over now). i'm not gonna tell you guys what it was, but just know i'm ok.

i'll leave you with another one of those random thoughts from jack handy....

"I hope life isn't a big joke, because I don't get it." (quite honestly, i don't get it either)
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Thursday, November 25, 2004

happy gobble gobble day to all.....even those without a happy one, pretend.....this is my favorite holiday...mmm, sweet potatoes...but i have to go to my grandparents house today sometime. then we'll have the real thanksgiving with all the good stuff at my house on sunday if i'm not working. still not sure...maybe i should find out, eh?

so, what're all your guys' favorite holidays?
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Wednesday, November 24, 2004

this song is dedicated to all of those that are trapped or feel like they're trapped in a relationship, or a bad home life. i was listening to it on the way to school this morning (yesterday by this clock). say what you will about kelly clarkson, she has a nice voice. anyway, here it is...

"Breakaway"

Grew up in a small town
And when the rain would fall down
I just stared out my window
Dreaming of a could-be
And if I'd end up happy
I would pray (I would pray)

Trying not to reach out
But when I'd try to speak out
Felt like no one could hear me
Wanted to belong here
But something felt so wrong here
So I pray (I would pray)
I could breakaway

I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly
I'll do what it takes til' I touch the sky
I'll make a wish
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway
Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won't forget all the ones that I loved
I'll take a risk
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway

Wanna feel the warm breeze
Sleep under a palm tree
Feel the rush of the ocean
Get onboard a fast train
Travel on a jet plane, far away (I will)
And breakaway

I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly
I'll do what it takes til' I touch the sky
I'll make a wish
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway
Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won't forget all the ones that I loved
I'll take a risk
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway

Buildings with a hundred floors
Swinging around wild indoors
Maybe I don't know where they'll take me but
Gotta keep moving on, moving on
Fly away, breakaway

I'll spread my wings
And I'll learn how to fly
Though it's not easy to tell you goodbye
I gotta take a risk
Take chance
Make a change
And breakaway
Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won't forget the place I come from
I gotta take a risk
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway, breakaway, breakaway

-Kelly Clarkson

oh and sorry i didn't getta visit any of your sites yesterday. i was gone all day...school (physics test, then lab), then straight to work...got off at 10 (tomorrow by this clock), so i wasn't able to see any of you. after work, i rushed home to wish rebecca a happy birthday (by the way, today she's 18. go wish her happy bday...chainedangel). well, i'll go check those of you that updated yesterday and today. *runs off to read*
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Monday, November 22, 2004

well, i couldn't really think of anything to talk about, so i'll just tell you about something a guy at work told me today. he asked me when i'm gonna cut my hair, and i told him i didn't plan to. then he said that if i didn't cut mine he would grow his out again, but he didn't wanna grow it out then have me cut mine and have him look stupid...hehe, this is a 40-something year old german guy saying he's gonna grow his hair out long...it's gonna be great...well, not really long because work's dress code says our hair has to stay off our collars (mine's about 1/4 of an inch above mine), but it's still gonna be cool i think.

oh yeah, as of this posting i have 822 visits and am ranked number 502....i've been slowly creeping up on 500 for the past couple of days.
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