Friday, July 30, 2004

hehe, got this from purgatory's site. it was fun...kinda

What time are you starting this?:	11pm
Name?:	matthew
Nicknames?:	matty, matt, goober, dork, geek, etc
Date of birth?:	9/11/83
Sex?:	male
Height?:	6'2"
Eye color?:	hazel
Where were you born?:	stockton, CA
Number of candles on your last birthday cake?:	20
Pets?:	one cat named shadow - evil thing
Hair color?:	dark blonde (called dirty blonde *wink wink*)
Piercings?:	nope
Town you live in?:	camas, WA
Favorite foods?:	italian, chinese, fast food
Ever been to Africa?:	nope. don't intend to
Been toilet papering?:	once or twice
Love someone so much it made you cry?:	yes
Been in a car accident?:	yes
Croutons or bacon bits?:	um, both
Favorite day of the week?:	any day i'm off work and school at the same time
Favorite resturant?:	anything nearby that serves edible food
Favorite flower?:	something that doesn't make me sneeze...and roses
Favorite sport to watch?:	football, baseball (don't watch much unless dad's watching though)
Favorite drink?:	anything not diet with caffeine in it (except mountain dew - i do mix that with other things though)
Favorite ice cream flavor?:	i like 'em all....well, most of 'em
Warner Bros. or Disney?:	pixar?
Favorite fast food restuarant?:	do i have to pick one? burger king, mcdonald's, arby's, carl's jr, jack in the box, taco bell....
Carpet color in your bedroom?:	light brown
How many times did you fail your driver's test?:	once - she said stop, so i failed automatically. i was already hitting the brake when she said it though
Whom did you get your last email from?:	leah
Which store would you choose to max out your credit card?:	a car dealer or place that'll make my car not suck
What do you do most often when you are bored?:	draw, listen to music, read, go online and wait for someone to show up
Most annoying thing to say to me?:	the same thing over and over again
Bedtime?:	whenever i feel like it
Favorite TV show?:	futurama? but i don't watch tv much anymore
Last person you went out to dinner with?::	my brother and a buncha mutual friends
Been out of country?:	to mexico (tijuana is disgusting by the way) and canada (don't remember it)
Believe in magick?:	depends what kind. throwing fireballs...no, astral projection...yes
Ford or Chevy?:	both. they're not cheap little imports
What are you listening to right now?:	the offspring - hit that
Have you ever failed a grade?:	no
If you have, what grade did you fail?:	N/A
Do you have a crush on someone?:	only if being madly in love counts as having a crush
Do you have a bf/gf?:	yes
If so, what is their name?:	rebecca
How long have you been together?:	known each other about two years. semi-official about a year. actually official a few months
What are you wearing right now?:	shorts and a t-shirt from my school (clark college)
Would you have sex before marriage?:	depends on who it is and the situation
Have you ever had a crush on any of your teachers?:	in 6th grade
Are you a virgin?:	does oral count?
Do you smoke?:	no
Do you drink?:	only tried a couple of things. beers nasty by the way. in a few months, i'll try other stuff
Are you ghetto?:	i don't think so. define ghetto
Are you a player?:	no
What are your favorite colors?:	black, white, silver
What is your favorite animal?:	edible ones
Do you have any birthmarks?:	yes - left inner thigh
Have you ever gotten your ass kicked?:	no
Who do you talk to most on the phone?:	work - telling them i won't come in on my days off or early on days i'm working
Have you ever been slapped?:	yes - both deserved and not
Do you get online a lot?:	yes
Are you shy or outgoing?:	depends on what hour it is
Do you shower?:	yes
Do you hate school?:	maybe not hate, but sick and tired of going - and now i have to pay for it! agh!!!
Do you have a social life?:	not really - at work, school, or online all day
How easily do you trust people?:	until they break it, i'll trust anyone completely - a little naive, i know, but i prefer to give the benefit of the doubt
Do you have a secret people would be surprised knowing?:	i tend to surprise people a lot, so prolly
Would you ever sky dive?:	no, afraid of heights
Do you like to dance?:	nah...too white...hehe
Have you ever been out of state?:	yes
Do you like to travel?:	yes
Have you ever been expelled from school?:	no
Have you ever been suspended from school?:	no
Do you want to get out of your hometown?:	i don't care where i go. if my love is there, i'll be happy
Are you spoiled?:	no
Are you a brat?:	no
Have you ever been dumped?:	yes
Have you ever gotten high?:	no
Do you like snapple?:	some flavors
Do you drink a lot of water?:	not really
What toothpaste do you use?:	whatever's on the counter at the time
Do you have a cell phone?:	no
Do you have a curfew?:	no
Who do you look up to?:	no single person, but i respect a list of people too long to list...i don't even know everyone on it
Are you a role model?:	i have younger siblings, so i guess i am
Have you ever been to Six Flags or Cedar Point?:	no
What name brand do you wear the most?:	i don't know. i don't look at tags
What kind of jewelry do you wear?:	i hadda bracelet (stolen chain that holds pens to counters), but it lost a few links, so it wouldn't fit anymore. i needa steal another one. i feel naked without it
What do you want pierced?:	don't like needles
Do you like takin pictures?:	not really...i prefer to live my memories than preserve them on film
Do you like gettin your picture taken?:	no
Do you have a tan?:	as much of a tan as is possible in WA
Do you get annoyed easily?:	no
Have you ever started a rumor?:	no
Do you have your own phone or phone line?:	no
Do you have your own pool?:	no
Do you prefer boxers or briefs?:	depends how hot it is and if i have to run...running in boxers = ouch
Do you have any siblings?:	yes (younger brother and sister)
Have you ever been played?:	yes...like i said, i'm trusting
Have you ever played anyone?:	no
Do you get along with your parents?:	for the most part, yes
How do you vent your anger?:	i listen to "the game" by Disturbed and just sit by myself in my room
Have you ever ran away?:	no
Have you ever been fired from a job?:	no
Do you even have a job?:	yes
Do you daydream a lot?:	yes
Do you have a lot of ex's?:	no
Do you run your mouth?:	yes....too much
What do you want a tattoo of?:	cheshire cat
What do you have a tattoo of?:	nothing
What does your ex bf/gf look like?:	average
What does your most recent crush look like?:	gorgeous...but i'm biased
Whats her/his name?:	rebecca
Have you ever been bitched out?:	yes
Are you rude?:	i'm told i am...i have a dry sense of humor and i'm blunt (at least that's what my boss told me last time someone called in to complain about me)
What was the last compliment you recieved?:	you're so sweet
Do you like getting dirty?:	depends
Are you flexiable?:	not as much as i used to be. i should start working on it again
What is your heritage?:	mostly norwegian. little canadian, irish, german, and some other things i don't know about
What is your lucky number?:	this'll sound a little cliche, but 13 and multiples of 7 (up to 49)
What does your hair look like right now?:	parted down the middle and pushed back behind my ears
Could you ever be a vegetarian?:	if i had to........no
Describe your looks?:	um, i'd rather not. if i say i'm ugly, people will think i have low self esteem (i don't), and if i say i'm hot, people will think i'm vain (also not). how's average sound?
If you had to completely dye your hair it'd be what color?:	almost dyed it black once, but decided i'd prefer to not change myself
Would you ever date someone younger than you?:	yes
Would you ever date someone older than you?:	yes
When was the last time you were drunk?:	never had enough to get drunk....usually the driver...how boring, eh
How many rings until you answer the phone?:	i usually don't. if someone else is home, they answer. if i'm alone, i let the machine get it...might be work
Have you ever been skinny dipping?:	no
If yes, when was the last time?:	N/A
When was the last time you went on a date?:	around january? when i was still with elaine
Do you look more like your mother or father?:	grandfather/uncles
Do you cry a lot?:	no
Do you ever cry to get your way?:	no
What phrase do you use most when on the phone?:	i'm bored, entertain me
Are you the romantic type?:	yes
Have you ever been chased by cops?:	yes, i let 'em catch me though. was pulled over for running a stop sign (i'm a californian, we don't stop completely..hehe)
What do you like most about your body?:	um, my stomach
What do you like least about your body?:	arms
When did you have your first crush?:	4th grade is the first i can remember
When was the last time you threw up?:	2 or 3 years ago? i don't remember
In the opposite sex, do you prefer blondes or brunettes?:	hair color doesn't matter
Do you ever wear shirts do show your belly?:	no
What about cleavage?:	don't have any
Is your best friend a virgin?:	don't know
Have you ever fucked someone up?:	haven't had to
Have you ever been fucked up?:	no
What theme does your room have?:	boring
What size show do you wear?:	um, 9 1/2 to 10...i have small feet for my height
What is your screen name on AIM?:	Naquoae2
How are you feeling right now?:	neutral
When was the last time you were at a party?:	couple months. one of the exchange student's going away parties
Have you ever given a lapdance?:	no
Have you ever recieved one?:	yes...not very entertaining....strippers just don't do it for me. i know they don't want me, just my money
Has there ever been a rumor spread about you?:	yes
What is one of your bad qualilties?:	i worry too much.....little overprotective (working on that)
What is one of your good qualilties?:	compassionate?
Would you marry for money?:	no
What do you drive?:	kia (pos, but it runs, so i'm not getting rid of it yet)
Are you more of a mommys or daddys child?:	when i was younger, mommys (dad was out to sea a lot - navy)
So?:	neither now
Well?:	i'm an adult now, so neither
When was the last time you cried in school?:	when jared died - it was a sad day for everyone
Would you ever hook up with the same sex?:	prolly not
What kind of music do you like?:	everything - except gangster rap
Would you ever bungee jump?:	nope - still afraid of heights
What is your worst fear?:	losing rebecca
Would you ever join the army?:	no - i don't take orders well, and i'm a smartass (the drill sergeant would beat me)
Do you like cows?:	they taste good
If you were to die today, what would you do?:	fly to TN to see rebecca and show her know how much i really love her
If you had one last word to say to someone before you die, what would it b?:	get off my oxygen hose
Do you like to party?:	depends on the company
Hearts or broken hearts?:	what's that mean?
Moons or stars?:	stars
Coke or pepsi?:	as long as it's not diet, it's ok
Favorite scent?:	um, fresh baked bread, or cheese
Favorite band?:	depends on the genre of music and what mood i'm in
Would you ever dye your hair red?:	maybe
How many languages can you speak?:	two fluently (english and pig-latin). also bits and pieces of japanese, french, spanish, russian, german, hawaiian
What time are you finishing this?:	11:45

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there. maybe you've learned something more about me.
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Thursday, July 29, 2004

just posting this so someone can see it because she's blocked...damn parental controls


i showed her to rebecca first because i thought she'd think she was cute. then julie wanted to see, but since she's only 13 (she'll be 14 on saturday) i guess her parents have things like that blocked. she's called a succubus, so maybe aol blocks that name rather than the pic itself. i remember at school one day when i was making a calendar for my graphics class, i couldn't search for "killer whale" because the school's computers filter the word killer. i could search "orca" though. maybe it's something similar. anyway, i just thought she was cute and you guys might wanna see her.
i found her here, but since i don't read japanese (i can read romanji, hiragana, and katakana slowly, but i don't know enough kanji to follow) fluently enough to translate, i don't know who the artist is or who to contact for permission to use this image, but i figured, i'm not taking credit for it or using it for commercial purposes, so i'm prolly safe as far as copyright laws are concerned.
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Wednesday, July 28, 2004

well, um, i haven't really updated in a bit, so here goes. *clears my throat* excuse me, but i have an announcement to make.

nothing exciting happened today. well, nothing you guys really needa know about anyway. i got up, talked with rebecca, went to work (uneventful as always), went home, talked with rebecca again. this time i also talked to rayea, ani, and julie (you guys don't know her. she's some 14 yr old i met on that chess site i play at. she thinks i'm her older brother. it's so cute) anyway, like i said, nothing exciting.

i love you rebecca *kisses*
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Sunday, July 25, 2004

   not working
well, no matter what i do, the pic won't show up, so if you wanna see what i look like, you're going to have to give me your email address (PM if you want) and i'll send it to you there. or i can show you on aim. i don't think it's worth all the trouble of trying to get it to show up here.
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Saturday, July 24, 2004

   today
well, today was good. i got up at 5:30 this morning (that's the only bad thing), and picked up niki and drove her to chris's house where chris and greg joined us. (i don't really expect you to know who these people are. i'm just saying their names so i don't have to keep saying "that one guy" throughout the post). anyway, we all drove down to seaside (it's s'posed to be a 2 hour drive. we made it in just over 1 ^_^). so, yeah, we spent the whole day at the beach. we ate breakfast at a little restaurant thing there (called pigs 'n blankets in case you're wondering). after that we played beach volleyball with a ball that chris "borrowed" from the high school last year. the teams were me and greg vs chris and niki. (chris and i promised niki's parents that we'd keep an eye on greg and niki and make sure nothing happens between them...hehe, niki's daddy doesn't like greg much). after that we went to the arcade thing down the street. we found a really awesome street luge game. it cost $1 per play though...kinda spendy for an arcade, so we only played two games of that. then we played virtual tennis. that game is surprisingly fun. anyway, after that we went back to the beach. niki and greg just sat there and watched me and chris hitting the volleyball back and forth and diving for it. we gotta lotta sand in our mouths and eyes (ick). then chris and i went to the bike shop thing and rented these little beach bike thingys. they have 3 wheels and you lay back in them and turn by leaning (it was fun...kinda like the street luge arcade game). we rolled around with those for about an hour then returned 'em and drove home. i took greg and niki back to niki's house (she lives across the street from me), then went home, took a shower, kicked my brother offa my computer, and posted this. in a couplea hours i'm gonna go watch the bourne supremacy with my brother and greg and niki (if they call. they're not sure if they wanna go or not).
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Friday, July 23, 2004

   is it bad if i have this song running through my head all day?
Disclaimer: don't worry, none of the feelings or actions in this song are directed at anyone in particular (especially you kitten. don't be scared by this, ok? i would never ever hurt you). this is just the song i listen to constantly when i'm having some kind of emotional problems dealing with relationships. i don't know, maybe i'm kind of a jealous type and this song embodies that. i am trying to work on that and i think i do a pretty good job, but every once in a while i still think things like this. that's right, i'm not perfect. deal with it.

The Game

Tell me exactly what am I supposed to do
Now that I have allowed you to beat me
Do you think that we could play another game?
Maybe I could win this time
I kind of like the misery you put me through
Darling you can trust me completely
If you even try to look the other way
I think that I could kill this time

It doesn't really seem I'm getting through to you
Though I see you weeping so sweetly
I think that you might have to take another taste
A little bit of hell this time

Lie to me
Lie to me

Is she not right?
Is she insane?
Will she now
Run for her life in the battle that ends this day
Is she not right?
Is she insane?
Will she now
Run for her life now that she's lied to me

You always wanted people to remember you
To leave your little mark on society
Well don't you know your wish is coming true today
Another victim dies tonight

Lie to me
Lie to me

Is she really
Telling lies again
Doesn't she realize
She's in danger

The little bitch she went and she told a lie
And now she will never tell another, a lie
The little bitch she went and she told a lie
Never fucking lie to me

-Disturbed

again, i'm sorry if that frightens anyone. i didn't mean for it to. oh yeah, and in my head i replace all the "she" with "he".
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   my last post and today
ok, first off, about that last post. i'm surprised people think something is wrong. there's nothing wrong at all. i promise. i just felt like updating, but i had nothing to say, so.....

rebecca....i love you....go to sleep. sleep is good. i'll come visit you and hold you tight and keep all the bad dreams away, ok? don't worry, i'm not in pain. well, maybe a little sore, but that's physical. it'll pass. emotional pain? no, not really. the only emotions i can feel right now is love and concern for you. i'm also a little concerned about rayea kagome chan (does that name mean something i'm not familiar with? i know chan, but the rest eludes me). i'm numb to pain right now. it's a very good emotional defense. you should try it sometime.

ok, now on to my day. i finally found that art media store my brother was telling me about before. i bought a few new pens (one black brush pen and a few colored pens) for rebecca's picture. i'm beginning to think i might actually finish it before summer is over. yay! if you guys wanna see it, you'll have to ask rebecca though. my scanner is screwy. after the art place i went to the mall again today. i bought a new cd (the distillers: coral fang). it's not bad. i've never heard 'em before, but i've heard they were pretty good, so i decided to give 'em a try. *starts head-banging with my hair flying everywhere* ouch, now i have a headache. rebecca....kiss it all better? well, that's it for now.

p.s. i love you
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um, blah
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Wednesday, July 21, 2004

   blah
i'm so bored right now. rebecca's off somewhere with her mom, and i've already read all your guys' posts (at least the updated ones). i played several games of chess, worked on rebecca's picture a little more, and a few other random things. her mom hadda buncha questions she wanted to ask me, so i emailed the answers to her and i wanna know how she responded to them. *hits head on keyboard over and over* blah, i hate waiting and wondering/worrying. her mom doesn't seem to like me much, so i'm afraid that if i said something wrong in one of my answers she won't let me come see rebecca next summer. maybe i'll go...um....do something....but what? there's nothing to do. this city sucks.
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Tuesday, July 20, 2004

picture
well, i figured out how to add the pic to my site. thanks Rayea Kagome chan *hugs* the picture is way too big though. maybe i can get rebecca to shrink it for me. i don't have a program to do it with on this computer (at least not one i know how to use). once i get it a little smaller i can show you guys what i look like (not that anyone really wants to see).
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