myOtaku.com: DemonMessiah

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Vitals

Birthday
• 1983-09-11
Gender
• Male
Location
• i moved out of the physics lab...now i live at work
Member Since
• 2004-06-27
Occupation
• surviving
Real Name
• matt, chris, amanda, oz

Personal

Achievements
• nothin' all that impressive
Anime Fan Since
• not sure. it's fairly recent though
Favorite Anime
• full metal alchemist is the best i've seen. i also like hellsing, ghost in the shell, big o, trigun, cowboy bebop, samurai champloo
Goals
• scuba dive in the great barrier reef
Hobbies
• texas hold 'em poker, movies
Talents
• does procrastinating count?

myOtaku.com: DemonMessiah

Saturday, October 23, 2004

another little part of my heart/hope/whatever died today. i don't know how to explain it, but it died. i didn't know there was enough of my heart left to die. guess i was wrong. sorry darke, sorry kitten...the black spot's not gonna come off for several more years at least. i don't know why i bother sticking around. i try to help people, but it's never enough. as soon as i think i've made some progress with someone, they go right back to the way they were the day before. "i'm happy, now i'm depressed, happy, depressed." god dammit. i don't know what to do anymore. i'm not getting anywhere...in school, work, love, life, anything. nothing's going right. sometimes i think i should just give up. then i look at rebecca's picture and i'm reminded why i live. i'm here to protect her. if it weren't for her i don't know what i would do. even though i feel like i should just give up on life and end this, i can't just give up on her. she is my everything. i love you kitten.

"White Flag"

I know you think that I shouldn't still love you
I'll tell you that
But if I didn't say it
Well, I'd still have felt it
Where's the sense in that?

I promise I'm not trying to make your life harder
Or return to where we were

Well I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be

I know I left too much mess
And destruction to come back again
And I caused nothing but trouble
I understand if you can't talk to me again
And if you live by the rules of "It's over"
Then I'm sure that that makes sense

Well I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be

And when we meet
As I'm sure we will
All that was then
Will be there still
I'll let it pass
And hold my tongue
And you will think
That I've moved on

Well I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be

Well I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be

I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be

-Dido
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