Tuesday, February 22, 2005

hi guys, i'm at school right now. the cable guy got my internet working. he hadda replace the splitter and something on the tower, but i dunno what. oh well, it works again and that's all that really matters, eh. i really haven't felt like going online anyway though. i've been playing a lot. i'm not sure why. i love the people i've met in that game so far. i guess one of the nicest things about them is they dunno any of my problems, so i never feel like they're just being nice out of pity. i'm sure none of you pity me and i'm thankful for that. i got another 4 levels in my tradeskill class and 1 more in my adventurer class over the weekend too. now i'm a 25 monk / 28 alchemist. i also helped a guildy get through her first three class specific armor quests last night. that was pretty fun. she's been playing a cleric for a while, and just created a monk, so i've been helping her figure out what to do as a monk (way different than a healer) and i'm gonna upgrade all her skills for her (that's what alchemists do...make fighter class skill upgrades). anyway, i'ma shut up about this since i've prolly confused all of you with my rambling.

lessee, wanna hear what happened last time i was online? tough, you're gonna hear about it anyway. i was talking with rebecca about my game and how it's my escape from the real world. i told her i have a really hard time focusing on reality or caring about anything here any more. guess what she told me..."i hate to say this, but i don't think you were ever in the real world." and ya know what? i think she's right. i've been living some delusional fantasy for a long time now. i need meds...strong strong meds. oh well, i gotta go get some lunch before class. here's your song (i heard it in the car today and finally figured out who sings it. i love this song now)

"Lonely No More"

Now it seems to me
That you know just what to say
But words are only words
Can you show me something else

Can you swear to me that you'll always be this way?
Show me how you feel
More than ever baby

Well I don't want to be lonely no more
I don't want to have to pay for this
I don't want another lover at my door
It's just another heartache on my list

I don't wanna be angry no more
You're the one who could never stand for this
So when you tell me that you love me, know for sure
I don't wanna be lonely anymore

Now it's hard for me
When my heart's still on the mend
Open up to me
Like you do your girlfriends
And you sing to me
And it's harmony
Girl what you do to me is everything
Let me say anything just to get you back again
Why can't we just try?

I don't want to be lonely no more
I don't want to have to pay for this
I don't want another lover at my door
It's just another heartache on my list

I don't wanna be angry no more
You're the one who could never stand for this
So when you tell me that you love me, know for sure
I don't wanna be lonely anymore

What if I was good to you?

What if you were good to me?
What if I could hold you till I feel you move inside of me?
What if it was paradise?
What if we were symphonies?
What if I gave all my life to find some way to stand beside you?

I don't want to be lonely no more
I don't want to have to pay for this
I don't want another lover at my door
It's just another heartache on my list

I don't wanna be angry no more
You're the one who could never stand for this
So when you tell me that you love me, know for sure
I don't wanna be lonely any more

I don't wanna be lonely any more
I don't wanna be lonely no more
I don't wanna be lonely no more
I don't wanna be lonely any more

-Rob Thomas

it's been five months now
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