Monday, September 27, 2004

   Before I forget ... again
There was a signature in my guestbook that reads:
Cool site! I love Yu-GI-OH too, haven't missed an episode. Bakura is a good person without evil Bakura in him, but hey your choice. I prefere Yami-Yugi. Peace out!
I won't say who it is, but if you actually care enough to go find out yourself, have fun. I just wanted to clarify something though. I don't "prefer" Bakura in the way that you mean. I'm not a fangirl who swoons over bishonen. Call me crazy, psychotic, stupid, whatever, but I respect Bakura, he's my idol, my role-model, sometimes I refer to him as my twin. I see characters from anime and games just as I see people at school or any other place. To me, they're people too. They have everything required to be a person: thought, appearance, emotion, a voice, reaction to their surroundings, a personality. The only thing they lack is physical tangibility in this realm. Who's to say they aren't tangible though? They could be like a person of the past, like George Washington. We'll never truly know for ourselves if he was real, we only have evidence that supports it, so who's to say somewhere, someway, sometime, someone like Bakura wasn't tangible or isn't tangible? He's tangible in the Yu-Gi-Oh! world, is he not? That's proof enough to me.

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   I've Failed ... Again
My inconsistency does me in far too often for my own good. I've given up being a vegetarian because vegetarian "meat" tastes like ... so terrible I can't even put it into words. I can't live off starches because of how much sugar and carbohydrates they have in them and I can't live off dairy cause I'm mildly lactose intolerant. It must be a conspiracy ... I know Patrick is going to get on my case if I tell him. Wish people wouldn't expect anything of me and maybe I wouldn't always disappoint them.
My fan art got posted. Yay, I guess. I need to put my quiz things down below into my quiz results section.. or.. whatever. Don't know why I didn't do that in the first place.
Oh yeah and I lied. There were actually two people who said they would of guessed I was a Scorpio ... and these were people who'd been talking to me for a year at least. What does that tell you? I'm trying to figure out why that is ... Maybe because Capricorn is the dominant sign in my chart, following Aquarius and then Pisces ... [Pisces... damn Pisces. I have a bad history with Pisceans.] Or it could be that all my personal planets [Sun, Moon, Mercury] are located in the 12th house [the House of Secrets, Sorrows and Self-Undoing. Haha and oh, look at this, "This House governs disappointments, accidents, trouble, and self-defeat. It rules unseen forces, secret enemies, escapism, asylums, hospitals, and prisons." I got that from The Only Astrology Book You'll Ever Need by Joanna Martine Woolfolk [love the last name, must be Irish or Scottish]. I read once most serial killers have noteable placements in the 12th House. Tch.] That in combination with a fixed sign in Sun, Moon and Mercury [Aquarius--explains my dettached nature] and a sign known for its stubbornness, Aries, in Venus, I suppose. Don't think my Ascendant has much to do with it. 'Cept the withdrawn, quiet quality [thank you Pisces Rising, damn Pisces].
[Yawn] I got up at .. oh it was almost 7. I've been awake since 3. Since I went to bed at 10 I got my average of five hours of sleep. No use wasting more time tossing and turning in bed...
I have to do my CAD project today ... I honestly don't think my box is going to spare a raw egg from a 28 foot drop. Well, at least if it does, the cottonballs will soak it up and there won't be a mess right? ... I contradict myself. I was thinking just last night, Natalie was telling me how I'm so optimistic... but that's not true. If you're being pessimistic, I'll be the optimist. If you're optimistic, I'll be the pessimist. Guess it's my way of checks and balances.
You know ... there's a toolbar on my browser that wasn't there yesterday. I'm going to hurt whoever put it there because spyware keeps hijacking my computer, and once Pim thought I'd been going on online casinos because there were cookies from the ads on my computer. People who make adware like that should be murdered.

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Sunday, September 26, 2004

   Too many posts ...
I have to say I'm amazed people actually come here. Or did I already say that. Except I just now noticed people actually signed my guestbook ... that has never happened to me before.
If anyone is wondering about my drawing and why the skin tone looks off, it's either because of the effect I put in with Microsoft PhotoDraw or ... the simple fact that I'm limited to how many colored pencils I have, and the accuracy of the color is just as limited. I bought all the brown colored pencils they had available at Michael's ... tch. Oi.
Quiz time. I was browsing some of the journals belonging to people who signed my guest book. These quizzes are what I got out of them.


Solitude

What Kanji word best suits you?
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Your element is earth: Wise, solitary, mysterious
and loving. You are very wise. Your wise as in
you know things others do not, you can see past
stereotypes and see the real people behind
their facades, and people will often come to
you for help and advice. Quite solitary and
somewhat shy around people because you prefer
animals and plants, animals aren't afraid to
show themselves or what they are feeling and
plants are fun to nurture. You are very strong
in your silence if you set your mind on
something you will often times pursue it to the
end. Sometimes you just want to get away, so
you seek refuge in the forest where you can
have time to think and try to sort out your
emotions. The sound of the wind usually calms
you, especially moving through the trees. Life
to you is something precious and should not be
taken for granted.

.:-|What is your true element?|-:. -With Anime Pictures and detailed answers-
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Uhm. That's ... kind of true I guess. Oh well, moving on.


You are Pluto... Abuse of Power, Darker side, Spiritual Outlook.

What planet do you represent? (Chobits based, Anime Girls)
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Someone once told me if they didn't know what my sign was, they'd guess I was a Capricorn or Scorpio. Scorpio is ruled by Pluto. Oh. The irony.
All the other quizzes I came across seemed pointless. Those series quizzes aren't worth posting even if you're bored enough to take them.
I'd stop writing, since I've run out of things to say .. but ... I've nothing else to do. I've been thinking a lot lately though, when people ask me why I never go out and do anything and tell me, "You're only in high school once!" I'll tell them, "You only live once too, so I only have one chance to get it right." It's true. And then when people complain that they're not good at something, I always tell them, "If everyone were good at everything, those who are truly good at a certain thing wouldn't be recognized." That is true too. If we all were a Mozart, we wouldn't know him as the musical genious he was. Then again, that'd spare us from the assumptions that he was a perverted lady's man as well. That seems insulting. Like Salieri said in 'Amadeus', why does God give such a great gift to such a person that would insult the greatest virtues? It boggles the mind...

More I found later...

You are a loner. Your only friends are yourself and
your pets though people try hard to befriend
you. That can cause emotional hurt when the
time comes.(please rate)

what kind of girl are you?(Anime pics!)
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That was only one, but I need to make HTML codes for the results of my own quiz. Just thought of that.

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   Quiz 2 Complete
I finished the second quiz on Quizilla. Took long enough. I might make a quiz on here. I haven't tried yet, it'd be interesting to try though. Wonder what I'd make it about ... [ponder]. Maybe Harvest Moon too. I dunno. Nobody's taken my Harvest Moon quiz yet, even though I made it active last night. Here's a direct link for anyone who's interested [not that anybody really comes and reads this, tch].
http://quizilla.com/users/DeshiNoYami/quizzes/Harvest%20Moon%3A%20Friends%20of%20Mineral%20Town%20%5BFor%20Girl%5D%201
I haven't made the second one active yet. I'm waiting for someone to take the first one before I make the second one active. We'll see.
I also posted one more fan art I made a while ago. I have more I'm considering posting, but not yet. I'll post them later.

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   Ohhh, wow.
My fan art has 3 votes. 3 more than I thought it would ever get. I'm surprised.
I made a quiz on Quizilla. I'm pretty proud of it, it's my first and it's not the greatest because it's setting up the story, but it's a Harvest Moon quiz. I wanted something original, so I made it Harvest Moon: Friends of Mineral Town [For Girl] series quiz. Fun, huh. The second one is really long ... I'm still working on it.
I was going to go to the Bush rally tomorrow for extra credit points in US History. But there are supposed to be 30,000 people there ... That's a lot of people. I'm too avoidant to put myself that out there.
I'd like to post more of my drawings since here people actually look at them. I think I'll do that now in fact.

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Saturday, September 25, 2004

   Added Art
I added a drawing I did today of Pharoah Atem that I editted with Microsoft PhotoDraw. It's alright I guess, not my best work but it's alright. Took me like an hour maybe a little more. [shrug] I wasn't timing myself. Anyway...
More venting. Why does Ben think he can boss me around? Sure he's older but I'm 16 now, it's so juvenile for him to do that. Then he tries to act like he's my dad when I "give him attitude". Usually I just clam up so he'll shut his mouth and stop bickering with me like a stupid little kid, but he's all "don't give me attitude" blah blah blah. All in one ear and out the other. I'm just not gonna start telling him if he doesn't stop yelling at me I'm not gonna say anything to him. That makes me mad. One thing I can't stand is people who think they have authority over me when they don't. I mean really. He has no right at all to tell me what or how to do anything. Tch. People...

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   Explanation ? Please ?
Here's something I don't understand ... Cim and Pim went to Grandma's house for the day, 3-4 hours away. So they left me in charge of the house all day. Why didn't they put Ben in charge ? He's the oldest! Shouldn't he have to take that responsibility ? He gets all these privledges that I don't get, and yet I seem to have more responsibilities than him ?? What the hell is that? I wanted to go out on a walk today since it's only 70* out for a change but I can't cause I have to watch the house. GRR. What the $*^@ is wrong with that? Tell me, what the hell is wrong with this picture??
I hate life ... People. Everything. I can't ever do anything and then get in trouble for never going out and doing anything. [deep, irritated sigh] Wth does everyone do this to me ... I think I'll just draw a while. I'm gonna add my fan art to uhm, that anime submissions things on the side over there. Guess you can view it from here but if not I guess I'll post the links. [shrug]

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   EuroDance
I used to listen to Digitally Imported a lot but it would always have to reload for some reason, now after my computer crashed and got fixed it works like a charm. Somehow Ben got all the credit for "finding" the online radio station though and everybody thinks he was into techno before I was . . . Not that I really care, I know the truth.. right?
I got up at 7 to watch Beyblade. The drawing style for G Revolution is cute. Much better than the first season. I wish they would do the Beyblade animation better though, for the actual Beyblades I mean. It's really corny ...
I watched Uptown Girls yesterday. It was kind of depressing actually. Not at all what I expected. The commercials made it look funnier, but.. it really wasn't that funny at all. I did a lot of "tch"s and "heh"s at parts that were supposed to be funny but weren't really.
I had another dream with that one person in it. Why does this person haunt me so? Why can't they go away? It doesn't bother me much but I really do want some answers. Maybe if I ignore it it'll go away ...
I was sick last night several times. I still don't know exactly why so I'm afraid to eat anything for breakfast. I should eat something though... Well. I dunno, I'll think of something, I suppose. And if not, I just won't eat.

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Friday, September 24, 2004

   Ugh ...
I might of mentioned this before, but I hate it when people touch me, specially on bare skin. Cim needs to stop touching me. I can't just sit here in a tank top without her coming up behind me and freaking rubbing my back I HATE that! GRR. People just leave me alone, geez. I don't care if you come in to say good night, just DON'T TOUCH ME!! ... I need to vent. That pisses me off more than anything, you DON'T TOUCH ME especially not bare skin areas, blech ! Is that so hard to COMPREHEND dammit. I say it a million times, "Don't touch me !" EW and when I get touched on the waist area I hate that even more! MAN just leave me the hell alone people!! *fumes* I don't get mad about a lot of things but touching me is one thing you don't want to do or I'll snap your neck in half! GAH!! [grumble]

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   Yup ...
I went home early today, feeling nausciated with a headache. Earlier it had gotten somewhat worse but it's not that bad now.
I finished watching Boogiepop Phantom and decided to make a website on it since I can capture a million screens of it with my ATI TV card and the whole series. I'd already started so I could begin a layout for my site ... come to find they weren't saved to the gallery like I thought I'd programmed it to.. So I can't start yet.
It's past lunch time... I should probably eat, but there's nothing to eat and I'm not hungry. I would like to see if Harvest Moon: Friends of Mineral Town For Girl has recieved a scheduled release date. Last time I checked it was Q4 2004. 2004 is almost over, I don't think it'll be coming out this year, but they said they would release it. I already know who I'll marry in the game. Gray. I'll tell you why too. In real life, I prefer quiet guys, I can't be around people who talk a lot for X amount of time, and being around people who are really loud is difficult for me too. So, in all realism, I'd probably go for him anyway, though, in all realism, I have no interest in relationships. It's part of the game though. If you aren't married by the end of the third year I think the game ends ... That's no good.
Earlier I told Cim about how Mr. Yelton said the old metal Matchbox toy cars are collector's items. I have 5 of them, and I said I wanted to find them. I commented that I was a strange little kid, but Cim disagreed and said I was just "off in your own little world". I found that amusing. I must be a very distant person to everyone around me, more so than I realize maybe. I do want to find those cars though ... I hope I didn't give them away.

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