Wednesday, September 22, 2004

   Apathy
I've lost it again. I'm just empty. There's nothing there. No emotion, indifference to everything ... and I'm freezing. I think I'm getting a head cold. [sigh] I should go shower and get it over with but I really don't want to shower. I just want to go to sleep. I haven't skipped a shower since summer though [of course, I shower twice a day].
Got a letter from Eric. He's not liking the way his new school does the scheduling [seven 90 minute classes everyday]. I wrote a 4 full page reply [always so long ...]. Of course I have the hand writing of a kindergartener, huge as it is it might be mistaken for a kindergartener's hand writing. I was short of stickers though ... so I closed the envelope with a snowman sticker and wrote "kind of early, but yeah ..." and put an arrow to it.
Winter's going to be bad. I'm glad. I love the snow, though I can't handle the cold very well. Winter scenery touches the depths of my soul... I'm a scenery person. Beautiful scenery inspires my dreams. Food for the imagination.
You know ... I'm beginning to become very interested in Hyuga Neji. With his Byakugan, he can read people's thoughts and emotions ... what a psychiatric breakthrough. That alone is enough to get me interested ... Of course.. heh ... he isn't real. So it's a wasted interest. I waste a lot of my interest in feeble fantasies and untangible things.. It's very much a waste but sometimes I can't help myself.
I don't have much to discuss these days ... so I'm going to read now. Maybe I'll have something interesting to mention later.

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