Tuesday, October 12, 2004

Bad Day, Good Day, It's All Relative
Well damn. I find myself in a bad fix. First, I'm questioning Patrick's companionship. He .. is strange. I don't know what to make of the way he treats me. He comments at least once a day about my attire, even if I've worn it before, "Oh, you're wearing your Yu-Gi-Oh! shoes today? That's cool!" He came back from Michigan yesterday and bought me Newtype USA [which, don't get me wrong, is great] and bought me a new container of seaweed. I know I can't stand it when people think just because someone does something nice for someone else, that means they like them, but, nobody's ever given me this sort of attention and I honestly don't know what to make of it. For the time being I'm ignoring any sub-conscious suspicions. Next, I think I made a big mistake today. Like I said earlier, I open my mouth and regret what comes out. Chad was telling me how people say he's immature for a junior and I said that was Ok, because I balance him out ... We sit next to eachother in 2nd period [assigned seats] but I did not mean anything by that !! His lack of response makes me worry that he may think otherwise. Argh ... To make things more complicated, Brittany decided she wants her and Catherine to come over to my house sometime ... I don't like inviting people over. Especially not when they come into my room. That's an invasion of my privacy when outsiders come in. I couldn't tell Catherine that it wasn't alright when she asked though... maybe they'll forget.. [grunt] Then Natalie confessed to me about how bad she felt for not calling me over the weekend and threw herself on me, apologizing. I told her it wasn't a big deal ... but she was convinced she should of been more considerate... Ok ? [sigh] Why are all these people suddenly jumping onto me? I feel like I'm in a pool of water and it's slowly rising, but I'm tied to the floor and I'll be drowning soon... Oh. Yes. To make it even better [sarcastically speaking] a person I'm trying to avoid as much as possible [won't go into the story] keeps appearing. Everyday, I see them at least once. Everyday! I'm looking forward to the year ending not because I want to be a senior, but because I can't wait until they're gone! I want them out of my site, out of my head, and out of my life. But, they're friends with Ben. They won't be going anywhere this year.

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