Wednesday, October 13, 2004

Nosey people ...
I hate it how I can't ask anybody something without them wanting to know why I want to know. I just want to know Ben's rising sign so I can have a biaist against people with the same sun and rising sign as him. Psh. He's always such an ass toward me for no reason at all and I'm steering to avoid more people like him. No wonder people at school don't like him.
Somebody after school today in the art room was like "Hey, you're Ben's little sister aren't you?" everybody else was like "Duh, you just now figured that out?" "Yeah, but anyway, you're a lot nicer looking than Ben." I just said, "Um. Thanks.." Natalie told me I need to smile more.. and later said, "Whenever you say you're not that great at drawing or whatever I just wanna hurt you but.. you're just so cute, I can't." I was like, "Uh ... thanks.." Natalie kept laughing at me and I was just like, "What?" not knowing what was so funny. She was like, "I'm sorry, you're just so quiet." Ok ... [raises an eyebrow] It was sort of awkward. Everybody there is so out-going.. and I seemed to be in the middle of all of it because Natalie was in the middle of all of it and she was the only person I knew except Patrick, but he was somewhere else signing up for the try-outs, and I would just sit there, quietly, watching everyone around me, feeling uncomfortable because they didn't seem to pay attention to how close they got. Eventually I couldn't stand it anymore and just got up and walked away from the crowd. Natalie wanted me to try-out for the play, but I said I wasn't much of a stage person and I didn't have a way of getting back home but my parents wouldn't let me ride with anyone. She also begged me to take the painting class next semester, which I plan to switch into but I need the art teacher's approval because most people who switch into that class are slackers. Lucky for me, Natalie and Patrick can vouch that I'm a good worker and a half-decent artist. Natalie did ask if I sang though and I said I didn't because I knew if I said yes she'd ask me to sing... just another thing to refuse to do. [sigh] I wonder what she'll say tomorrow ... and if she'll want to get together this weekend to make that cake ..

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