Friday, October 15, 2004

Oh, spooky...

~VIOLET OR PURPLE~ Your very mysterous and rare. You're usally laid
back and very quit. You're shy,cool,com and
lazy. You always seem like your hidding a big
secert. You keep to yourself alot, even with
friends.Rate^-^

What's your anime hair color? COOL PICS^-^UPDATED!!!
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I got this from the kindly person who commented on my last entry. It's pretty accurate, 'cept for the lazy part.
Oh and the title wasn't referring to the quiz... I saw the person I dreamt about last night staring in my direction from across the parking lot after school ... They really need to go away. I don't mean to be hateful but I've found a deep resentment for the distraction they've caused for me. I can't wait 'til next year when they'll be gone. I'll have my mind back together in one piece. I just wish they'd leave sooner ... I don't mean any unwell toward them but, they got into a really bad car wreck a couple weeks ago because they were speeding and they were very fortunet to be alive. I secretly wished that they would have died just to get them out of my life.
Um. Today was nice and rainy. It made me pretty sleepy. It made me cold all day too. [shiver] I'm thinking about committing suicide. I was thinking a lot about it earlier. It's not because I'm depressed.. It's just gonna cost so much money to get my life in order. My body is screwed up off the hilt and it won't be fixed any time particularly soon. Frankly, I'm somewhat exhausted from daily treatment. Truth be told, I wouldn't be sad if I knew I was going to die tomorrow. I have no reason for living, nor any motivation for it. Life isn't worth living ... it really isn't. Not unless you have something to live for, and I do not. [ponder] ...

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