Sunday, October 24, 2004

Wouldn't it be easier...
I was thinking about some of the stuff I've done. There's one in particular ... the one time I approached a person to talk to them because they seemed interesting and all... I got their SN for AIM from one of Ben's friends that I knew and.. I started talking to them but they didn't really talk much.. so I tried to get a real conversation going and all they did was say "why do you argue with me over everything i say?" or something and I feel like such a fucking idiot now to even try and be aggressive. Damn... and to think I see that person everyday at school. I feel so stupid, why did I have to go and do something so stupid like that? Whenever I try to be brave, I don't care why, it always comes right back and hits me right between the eyes. So much for holding your breath and crossing your fingers. What a damned fool I am.
Today I'm expecting to do nothing. Natalie never called... I don't think she will. People are usually all talk.. I had hoped Natalie wasn't but, guess I wasn't so fortunet. Should of known. I'm better off sticking to the way I've been. All alone.

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