Monday, November 8, 2004

Cross your fingers, hold your breath and say a prayer.
I screwed up big time! I'm so stupid, gah! Natalie was telling me about how she's looking forward to going to the Senior Dinner Dance and I was like "That'll be cool." And she was like yeah, I can't wait. She misunderstood something I said and I cleared it up and she thought I said I was going. I told her I didn't really do those kind of things and she asked why not. I explained that no one ever invites me to those kind of things and... She started to tell me about a friend she has who just broke up with his girlfriend and she won't go with him, so she asked me if I'd go if someone asked me and I was just kind of like I don't know ... uhh... trying to come up with a good answer. Before one came she started skipping away, "Ok well I have to go talk to some people!" She looked as guilty as a kid with his hand in the cookie jar, I have a bad feeling she went to talk to her friend. I wanted to slam my head against my locker when I got there. There wasn't anyone around either, so I don't know why I didn't. [sigh] And even if she did introduce us I seriously don't think he would like going with me, I'm just not the type of person guys like. I'm ... just not... argghh. How do I make such an idiot of myself?!

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