Tuesday, November 9, 2004

Corrupted
Ok, it's official. My mind has been corrupted... and by two of those who I'd considered my closest .... How betrayed do I feel? Kamiko not so much as the other, whose name I won't mention. Kamiko just flaps her jaw in good humour [and she flapped it a lot last night, oh my gosh]. The other was just ... perverted to the extreme. She had Scorpio Rising, which made her very obvious about her sexual fantasies and.. [shudder]. God, why'd you let this happen? [sigh] I'd never had a tainted thought in my life before I met that girl and now I'm permanently scarred. Maybe that's one of the reasons I avoid having anything to do with a personal romantic relationship, I don't like all that stuff and I don't want to have anything to do with it. I hope Natalie doesn't tell her friend about anything .... If she brings it up today I'm going to plea her with to reason. Reason differently at least. I couldn't go to the dinner dance with anybody, I couldn't go to any dinner dance with anybody, and I don't want to be in a position where somebody might actually like me like that! That's why not meeting people to begin with is safer, if nobody knows you they can't justifiabley like you. And even if they did, they'd never approach you... Man how'd I get into this situation again? Oh yeah, I spent too much time thinking on my answer. Why did I know that someday would bite me in the ass? Man!! I'm so upset now. Curses.

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