Wednesday, March 30, 2005

Trying to be optimistic ...
I went to the doctor today. Luckily, all symptoms have passed except for the nauscia and .. something... else. And I got some medicine for that. I should be able to go to school tomorrow [and I am so relieved. I actually miss school *heh* and I have a week of spring break to make up the work so that's an even bigger relief] but I worry that the medicine will make me drowsy... cause it's a side effect. And being drowsy during school almost defeats the purpose.
I guess I'm at a loss of what to do with myself. I feel like there's something I should do, that I could do, but can't put my finger on what it is. I don't know. I'm not looking forward to going to grandma's on Monday. With my luck, I'll go down there and catch something else. I always come back feeling like shit. I despise going there. Maybe Pim'll let me stay to get my make up work done. Or maybe he'll be an ass and say I can do it there, well no I can't, there too many distractions down there. Not that anything interesting happens down there but the atmosphere is all wrong for doing homework [or anything for that matter]. To make matters worse, it's warm enough that wasps are out and grandma always has a plentiful supply of wasp infestation. They even get in her house and it's ridiculous. I swear I'm gonna go everything I can to get out of this. I'm not staying down there for several days. If we were only going for one day that would be one thing but no we're talking a handful of days. With all the crap I have to pack you'd think I'd be staying a month [well hey, I gotta bring with me all my medicine, all my skin care crap, extra clothes, stuff to do so I don't get bored out of my fucking mind and all my school crap]. Why do I have to be bugged when I'm still half-sick anyway? I guess Pim doesn't put any consideration into that. I should stop ranting. It isn't doing me any good. Just making the water boil over.
I had a revelation yesterday! [If only you could feel the mood swing that just occurred.] I've been talking to Cim about the theory that women tend to attract the same type of men that they were raised with, my personal experience would be that of the father figure, right? Well, this could be said true for Cim. Pim and Opa were a lot alike. Hot-tempered, could be violent... well, that's the most common traits I can think of. Oh yes, they yelled a lot and both were very big headed, egomaniacs perhaps. I rarely saw this side of Opa cause I was his grandkid, but Cim's seen it. I'm determined to break the mold though.
Ok well now that Cim came in and totally pissed me off I'm not even gonna go on. Maybe some other time I'll talk about my unimportant observances and the likelihood that theories can be disproven and shit. Not like anybody cares.

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