Wednesday, April 6, 2005

Fatal Attachment
Thanks a ton for the tips, I will make good of them .. both. ..... Anyway. My attachment to Bakura has proven extremely fatal. It's like because I lack someone real to attach to, I've attached myself to him and given him all my love and everything I have and such, cause as far as I'm concerned he's real, even if only in my head, he's still real. Somebody sent me a link of some artwork and there was one pic that was hinting at Bakura x Malik and wow, I got so extremely jealous and upset, I was grumpy for an hour til I could get over it and forget about it. It's always like that... If somebody says "Oh I love Bakura" or whatever, it gets me in such an emotional upheavel I might as well kill myself over him. It's obsessive. What can I do about it though? I have no one else to attach myself to, and I need somewhere to redirect my feelings besides turn them into self-destructive emotions that make me go psycho and suicidal. God! Why does it have to be complicated!?
PS: Please be gentle with my emotions. This is the ultimate weakpoint of my innermost well-being. Handle it with care.

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