Listening to: "Lost Heaven" - L'Arc~en~CielI probably seem egotistical for saying that, but it's better than "God hates me" since I don't quite believe in God. Right now, I'm stuck in a rut. Even though I know what I want to major in, I have no idea what I'm gonna do w/ my life. I'd be okay w/ it if I didn't have to fill out all these scholarships asking me how I'm gonna change the world. When I was younger, I wanted to protect the environment and save the rainforest/endangered species. However, my parents won't let me major in ecology-evolutionary biology for two reasons. One, people hate environmentalists so there aren't many jobs out there. Two, even if there are good job opportunities, I'm allergic to almost everything the Earth has to offer: grasses, ragweed, willow, cats, dogs, dust, and mites. That killed my childhood dream of being a veterinarian. It just sucks b/c I feel like I'm one of those rare people who actually CARES about the environment and who actually likes studying the ecological aspects of biology (not that biochemistry and cell bio is boring...I'm just not as naturally inclines towards it).
I feel somewhat guilty for not being able to do much, especially now that a third of the world's amphibian population is threatened w/ extinction! Who cares? Well, the interaction between amphibians and their environment allows them indicate when things are going bad (like too much pollution or even global warming). Also, some species, including the poison dart frog, may be potential sources of medicine. I hate it when people tell me to get my priorities straight, saying that there's other problems like world hunger that are more important. Not to undermine the issue, but there won't be a world to live in if somebody doesn't care about the environment; and you know, not all environmentalists are crazy, SUV-burning fanatics. The real ones are the people who know about compromise. Cars and factories aren't bad, but we have to be careful not to overstep the boundary between co-existence and domination.
Okay, I'll get off my soap box for now, but it's frustrating how most people around me don't understand. Additionally, we need to be more appreciative of what Mother Nature gives us for free.
the universe hates me (and frogs)