Monday, November 15, 2004

   My path of Faith...(aka the pilgrimage trip)
Well pilgrimage was pretty cool except if you forget the fact that we never got food/sleep/rest, and we were all tired/sick, but the overall atmosphere was yay. we got down there, went to the night session, which there was mucho music (best part there) and we got to our hotel, RUN BY DICTATORS!!! damn security guards ><, we went to bed at 2, and got up at bloody 7:30...0o.. we got ready and went to the 1st morning session! the speaker was quite dull this year unlike last year, cool azn dude talking last year ^^. so we then went ROCK CLIMBING! @^^@! i was a belayer! >:D and to think, ppl trusted me enough to keep them from falling! ^^ actually i was pretty good, and i got to climb and got 2 the top! heath did good at the climbing thing 2! GO JROTC SKILLS FOR YEW! hooha! lol, and every1 did good, clumsy, but goodz...trey has no more children in his future im 'fraid :/ ... we got to the night session and we had the RAIN THING! lol its really awesome where the whole 6347 who were there made a rain storm w/ various sounds like clap hands, snap fingers, etc. after that, CONCERT- By The Tree- they were awesome, and i gots all their autographs! ^.^ we got back to the hotel and no supper...all i ate that day was an apple and a box of nerds...woots. we got up the same as we did yesterday morning and went to the 2nd and last morning session...it was awesome, we had our church banner go -OVUMC- and then sang a lot and got really in2 dancing and jumping and moshing, yes moshing. lol, we got home after sleeping, almost gettin in2 wrecks, and going in 3 circles, lol. i got home and ramm came by and my god, i was so happy to see him, i missed him so much, and lol he greeted me w/ the biggest hug ive ever had :), im glad i saw him cuz i missed my home, i was home sick idk y, just was. so the next day (du du duuu) i got to sleep till 12, missed the 1st 2 blocks of school YAY! ^^, and ramm and i got to hang out! sadly, we cant see each other as much cuz of my madres rules and crap -_-...it blows, but heck, at least we get to hang out still.
Pilgrimage, my Qs towards christianity, and my overall faith towards anything has finally picked its' cross. Sadly, Pilgrimage did not set my course of faith on the christian path. infact, i have come to the conclusion that i do not follow the christian faith anymore, if i did at all, i, however, do believe that the christian life (being a good person, believeing in an after life ((not exactly heaven/hell)), and the whole thing of having good karma) is still in tacked. I believe that there is probably some sorta higher power out there, but the human mind is too dull leveled to think that far, and i sorta let other things give me content towards my soul, like nature, poetry and music for example.

Now some ppl would take one look at tihs and say ''oomph, shes not christian, that means she worships the devil and is going straight to hell, blah blah blah" let me assure those who think this...just bc i do not follow the christian faith anymore , DOES NOT mean i am a bad person, infact, i take it for granted that i Qed this instead of following the line of christianity and keeping my mouth shut and always questioning what should i believe? stuff...im not tyring to convert any1 to my thoughts, heck, i still am trying to get them fully understood. so i guess i have those agnostic thoughts and such, and ppl will have to get use to me believing and following my life by a different faith, one where i believe that my soul is in placidity in some other form of faith. if you would like to Q me or what not- gothicelfgirl004 - is my AIM sn, feel free!

-Lu-




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Wednesday, November 10, 2004

   Reality in the making...?
I guess it's those little moments where you think that if you lose one of your most prized possessions, that you would go crazy. Even thinking of the slightest temptations of losing these treasures sends tears to anyones' eyes. How could it be that something you have loved for so long, suddenly, dies? It is an unexpectable fact amoung human beings. Most would just break down and cry, while others try the ''no point in living anymore'' method. Which that doesnt solve anything for you will probably just set the whole routine in motion all over again...
Also someone plz answer me this much asked Question that goes on in my mind, day after day...Is this world for real? for it passes by so gosh darn fast...how can we even start to contemplate how this world concedes to state such opinionated facts of this ''non-fiction'' novel. Basically, Time Flys By Way To Fast and therefore,this world is nothing but a dream, it can be compared by doing the math and seeing how closely symbolic a lifetime is, compared to a 30 second dream. What is reality? Reality, has feelings, such as pain, love, depression, happiness. This world CANNOT be reality, bc even though we believe we face all of these emotions everyday of our lives, time passes by so quickly, it doesnt even distress to start to feel these emotions until you do not feel it anymore in the end. Summarizing that, emotions come and go so quickly, its like they had never come, so therefore, death, must be the same. Except, where you still stay in this 'fake world of reality' you are awakened in another sort of dream world where you are conceived in believing that that world, is yet another reality....WHEN WILL WE EVER AWAKE TO FIND THE TRUE REALITY?

lol something for every1 to ponder...yea, i think quite deep eh?



my day was odd, school=stupid, people at school=pure dumbasses, and sugary substances= :D

<3 2 Month Anniversary w/ my Rammie ^_^. love yas so much hun! MWHA! gonna make the 2 months, to 2 years, and then forever<3
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   Shine: Collective Soul
Give me a word
Give me a sign
Show me where to look
Tell what will i find(will i find )
Lay me on the ground
Fly me in the sky
Show me where to look
Tell me what will i find(will i find)

Oh, heaven let your light shine down...

Love is in the water
Love is in the air
Show me where to go
Tell me will love be there ( love be there )
Teach me how to speak
Teach me how to share
Teach me where to go
Tell me will love be there ( love be there )

Oh, heaven let your light shine down...

I'm going to let it shine...
Heavens little light gonna shine on me
Yea yea heavens little light gonna shine on me
Its gonna shine, shine on me
Its gonna shine, come on in shine
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Monday, November 8, 2004

good luck understanding my thoughts...
(not really a ""postie day"")

-Tis my turn to dance this dance where we one by one stand in line to fall off this cliff, like smokers stand in line to die of suffocation..-

Of course we all have those thoughts of where this life of reality comes to bite us square in the neck. As it bites, it suffocates you to breathe no longer of this world, but to avoid it at all cost, of staying awake and go along with the suffocation of this new world that your eyes have been opened to. I never would've thought it would happen during the sanctification of purity of the 'celtic remedy' stage of the year, but the imagination of my world has collapsed and is harder to regain. As the normal mortal mind will read this, none shall be deceived on the wording of which my tongue slurs what i have announced at this platform of minds. In fact, one will follow my vision into this unknown stranger of a world to stare in wonderment at the regular society's path of all the brain washed zombies. I, on the other hand, have chosen not to follow that path and to follow one where a leaf's fall coming to the ground of autumn will remain a spheric path to dreams. Have you yet to notice such a paradise? Will you ever notice that nature IS the celtic remedy each year i follow by whenever my breath represents the fog in the mornings' dew? Of course not. I do not expect you to contemplate such resources, nor do i expect you, (nor want u..) to understand my comprehension of my world which lies in between my eyes (which have created this world by connecting all of the theories of life together into one simple format of a play), therefore, give up your chances of playing with me side by side, and sit back with those zombie eyes and watch me ''dance off this cliff'' into my own immortal sleep of dreams, where the true heaven lies...Lu
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   It's all true too...0.o
DECEMBER:
Loyal and generous. Sexy. Patriotic. Active in
games and interactions.
Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in
organizations. Fun to be
with. Loves to socialize. Loves praises. Loves
attention. Loves to be loved.
Honest and trustworthy. Not pretending. Short
tempered. Changing
personality. Not egoistic. Take high pride in
oneself. Hates restrictions.
Loves to joke. Good sense of humor. Logical


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   PUFFINS GALORE!! ^^












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Sunday, November 7, 2004

   Avril Lavigne: Slipped Away
Na x 7

i miss u
i miss u so bad
i dont forget u
o its so sad

i hope u can hear me
i remember it clearly


the day u slipped away
was the day i found
it wont be the same
o

na x 7

i didnt get around 2 kiss u
goodbye on the hand
i wish that i could see u again
i know that i cant

i hope u can hear me
i remember it clearly

the day u slipped away
was the day i found
it wont be the same
o

ive had my wake up
wont u wake up
i keep asking why
i cant take it
it wasnt fake
it happened when u passed by

now ur gone
there u go
somewhere i cant bring u back
now ur gone
there u go
somewhere ur not coming back..

the day u slipped away
was the day i found
it wont be the same
o...

the day u slipped away
was the day i found
it wont be the same
o...

na x 7

i miss u...

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YAY SOAD!


YAY LINKIN PARK!

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Saturday, November 6, 2004

   ICE CREAM QUIZ! ^.^


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   State pride? lol why not put it in here-ah ^_^

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