Monday, November 15, 2004

   My path of Faith...(aka the pilgrimage trip)
Well pilgrimage was pretty cool except if you forget the fact that we never got food/sleep/rest, and we were all tired/sick, but the overall atmosphere was yay. we got down there, went to the night session, which there was mucho music (best part there) and we got to our hotel, RUN BY DICTATORS!!! damn security guards ><, we went to bed at 2, and got up at bloody 7:30...0o.. we got ready and went to the 1st morning session! the speaker was quite dull this year unlike last year, cool azn dude talking last year ^^. so we then went ROCK CLIMBING! @^^@! i was a belayer! >:D and to think, ppl trusted me enough to keep them from falling! ^^ actually i was pretty good, and i got to climb and got 2 the top! heath did good at the climbing thing 2! GO JROTC SKILLS FOR YEW! hooha! lol, and every1 did good, clumsy, but goodz...trey has no more children in his future im 'fraid :/ ... we got to the night session and we had the RAIN THING! lol its really awesome where the whole 6347 who were there made a rain storm w/ various sounds like clap hands, snap fingers, etc. after that, CONCERT- By The Tree- they were awesome, and i gots all their autographs! ^.^ we got back to the hotel and no supper...all i ate that day was an apple and a box of nerds...woots. we got up the same as we did yesterday morning and went to the 2nd and last morning session...it was awesome, we had our church banner go -OVUMC- and then sang a lot and got really in2 dancing and jumping and moshing, yes moshing. lol, we got home after sleeping, almost gettin in2 wrecks, and going in 3 circles, lol. i got home and ramm came by and my god, i was so happy to see him, i missed him so much, and lol he greeted me w/ the biggest hug ive ever had :), im glad i saw him cuz i missed my home, i was home sick idk y, just was. so the next day (du du duuu) i got to sleep till 12, missed the 1st 2 blocks of school YAY! ^^, and ramm and i got to hang out! sadly, we cant see each other as much cuz of my madres rules and crap -_-...it blows, but heck, at least we get to hang out still.
Pilgrimage, my Qs towards christianity, and my overall faith towards anything has finally picked its' cross. Sadly, Pilgrimage did not set my course of faith on the christian path. infact, i have come to the conclusion that i do not follow the christian faith anymore, if i did at all, i, however, do believe that the christian life (being a good person, believeing in an after life ((not exactly heaven/hell)), and the whole thing of having good karma) is still in tacked. I believe that there is probably some sorta higher power out there, but the human mind is too dull leveled to think that far, and i sorta let other things give me content towards my soul, like nature, poetry and music for example.

Now some ppl would take one look at tihs and say ''oomph, shes not christian, that means she worships the devil and is going straight to hell, blah blah blah" let me assure those who think this...just bc i do not follow the christian faith anymore , DOES NOT mean i am a bad person, infact, i take it for granted that i Qed this instead of following the line of christianity and keeping my mouth shut and always questioning what should i believe? stuff...im not tyring to convert any1 to my thoughts, heck, i still am trying to get them fully understood. so i guess i have those agnostic thoughts and such, and ppl will have to get use to me believing and following my life by a different faith, one where i believe that my soul is in placidity in some other form of faith. if you would like to Q me or what not- gothicelfgirl004 - is my AIM sn, feel free!

-Lu-




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