Monday, May 29, 2017

29 May, 2017
It's been 9 years without you now.

It's been forever since I've been here. I've grown up! I've gotten a job, graduating college.

I look back and read all my cringey posts and how young I was, and some of those posts were 10 years ago. How did 10 years go by so fast?

I remember writing some of these too, haha.

I've changed so much.

I still adore every one of you. I hope you've all been well if you read this.
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Tuesday, December 14, 2010

It's been a good year.
He's gone. He's moved on.
And it's time for me to do so, too.
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Friday, May 21, 2010

Ian Nathaniel Jameson.

Mine. All Mine.

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Saturday, July 25, 2009

iTouch?
Yeah, not gonna lie, I really hate typing on these things.
But right now at 2:22 in the morning, it is my only means of Internet access. But it's getting easier to type cause the keyboard format of it when you turn it sideways is exactly like my phone, the env3.

Yeah, I got that phone. Woohoo it's Epic and I love it to pieces. X3

I'm Like sweating and I'm In my basement where it's usually freezing rofl.

But I think I'm going to try and sleep now. Ttfn!
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Monday, June 29, 2009

Cody Turner:
I hate you for hurting me like this,
but i cannot help but love you
even with all this pain.
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Friday, June 19, 2009

So...
I have an icy pop. It's yummy. :3
And cold, and it's freaking hot as hell here.

But, I gots a new picture!

My friend Jenna spent the night a few days ago. It was epic, ahah.


And, I miss someone ever so dearly ]:

And I must go!

Byes.<3
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Wednesday, June 17, 2009

in a perfect world you'd still be here.

Have you ever had to watch someone die in front of you, where if you were one second earlier, you could've prevented it?

So I'll give you something that happened that I never blogged about.
My best friend, Hunter, is dead. He committed suicide last month. The 22 of May. He was terribly depressed, for reasons that he wouldn't tell me. He said he was going to tell me that day as we were walking from his house. He was really depressed. And I witnessed someone telling him that he was pointless to the world. And he ran the rest of the way to his house, and I chased him. I chased him two blocks to his house. As soon as he got inside, he ran to where his dad kept his gun, and attempted to shoot himself. I ran through the door just in time, and tried smacking the gun out of his hand. He fired at the ceiling as he pushed me away, and I hit the wall. Thud went my head, BAM went the gun. Blood was everywhere. It was terrible. He'd stuck the gun in his mouth and pulled. He didn't even say goodbye. He just... was gone, like that. I couldn't do anything, either. I sat there for two hours, staring at his body, watching it cool with death.

And that's why I'm in such a bad mood.
I hate the fact that everyone around me is dying.

R.I.P. Hunter <3

3.21.92 - 5.22.09
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Monday, June 8, 2009

So why do people still talk about faith when it's proven to be nothing great?

Now everyday reminds you of what could
and should have been
Please remember, I must go on...

Yesterday, I was quite messed up. Sorry, if you were talking to me. My boyfriend had neglected to talk to me the whole weekend because his best friend was over. He usually calls to say goodnight and the such... but I didn't get it. owo. It was saddening. I felt so abandoned. And I miss Hunter. GOD, I miss his laugh. I miss it so much... I just wish I knew what was getting him down before he did what he did... And... There was just a lot of drama going on. I don't know if I should inform you completely, but I don't think I want to share. I apologise. ^^;


I got new jeans. Do you like? :3

My day did not go well. I was eating pocky in first hour, and the chocolate was melted and gross and everything. I didn't know that I'd dropped some, so there were small chocolate stains on my pants. Fuck, the first day that I wear them, there's chocolate on them. Then at lunch, there's magically chocolate on my behind. I don't even know how it got there. And now I had to walk around, looking like I shit myself. Fuck my life, seriously. ):

I have final exams all this week, starting tomorrow. Sadly for me, I forgot to bring the book that I have exams in tomorrow home, so I cannot study. ToT I fail. And I hate geometry. Fucking C+ in that class, I swear. It's hard! It's an accelerated class, because I'm a Freshman. I should be taking Algebra I, but I took it last year when I was still in junior high. Meh. It's okay. I understood a lot of our review today, so I should at least get a B or higher.

I have to pee now. So until I update again tomorrow when I get home (it's a half day, yippee!) I LOVE YOU <3

~JayyDizzle.

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Thursday, June 4, 2009

We'll write a song that turns out the lights...

When both boy and girl start suddenly shaking inside...

So this is copied straight from my world. Comment there instead please, or you can comment here. I don't really care, but I'll probably check the comments there first. xD

I'm learning to play the guitar by teaching myself, and from time to time asking my dad for help. XD I'm kind of failing, and I can only play chords... but I don't understand how to read tabs. =o= It saddens me, and I'm just too lazy to learn. xD I can play one song with chords, and it's sounds terrible. It's "Teardrops on My Guitar" by Taylor Swift. It was one of the first songs I wanted to learn when I picked up my daddy's guitar a year ago. xD And I'm starting back up now. :3

I got my friend's phone back from the office, thank god. But she had to leave like two seconds before the phone was put into my hand. :X So now I have the phone with me next to me. And I'm probably going to be texting with it all night :X Shame on me, but I don't know what it's like to text all night. But I've heard it's fun. xD I have no life...

Finals are coming up next week. *Le sigh* But then there's SUMMER! WOOHOO! X] My mom says I'm not allowed to use the phone during weekdays until school is out (but mind you I'm still going to.) Shame on me, I know. :]

I did my bestest buddeh's World yesterday. JackE034's. I had a fun time doing it. xD Go check it out, maybe.

Well I'm going to continue playing the guitar [andfailingepicallyisuppose] whilst texting Kitt. BYES!

~Jayy Dizzle.
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Thursday, May 28, 2009

Today is a day to remember.

I miss that kid so fucking much.
God. ):

My friend said "Why do you care for him, for all you know, he's not real."

Bitch. Seriously, what kind of friend are you if you say that about one of my closest friends died?

):
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