So I broke up with my boyfriend on Wednesday, but that's the least of my worries.
Nick passed away that morning.
So I was in my first hour class doing what I normally do (Make some slides, go play games, etc.) My friend James was ther with me too, because he broke his elbow the Memorial Day weekend.
Well he was on the computer playing games that were blocked while I checked my MyOtaku. (XD)
As I logged in and everything, I saw that so many people had updated. (I only have my good friends on my list.) I clicked Sayoko's first, because she's my best friend, and she always comes first. (=P) My heart fell instantly when I read the first line of the post. Rest in peace Nick; 2/15/1990 - 5/28/2008
My mouth literally fell open, and I could've sworn my heart stopped for a second or two. I couldn't breathe as the reality of Sayoko's post gripped my heart. James was wondering why I wasn't talking (Or responding to his question, either.) Me: One of my best friends died.
And everything pretty much got siletn as I just started thinking about Nick and how short his life was. It just wasn't fair that his life was taken from him so abruptly. It's not fair at all.
Correct me if I'm wrong, (and I mean it) but I don't think he got out of high school. (Tell me if I'm wrong and I'll edit it.)
So I was just sitting there, staring at the computer when I started crying. Sure, I never met him and I didn't know him like Sayoko did, but he meant so much to me.
So James, being the sweet guy he can be, gave me a comforting hug. (He's watching me type this, XD. He says hi and that he's awesome. How vain is he? XD
I still cant' believe it though: Nick's life was taken by something he couldn't control himself...
I've had enough tears from me this week though! D= I've beenc rying the whole week, I swear. Plus, I'm gonna cry again at the end of the year when I say good bye to all of my friends who're going to a different high school. =( Some time for some...Happy stuff?
James kept making me feel better throughout the day. He kept singing the chorus of Bad Day by Daniel Powter, and it made me feel better each time for two reasons:
1)He was singing to me XD
2)His singing was horrible, so I joined in with him, and we sucked together. XDDDD
There's this guy at my school, who I've liked literally...since I met him three years ago named Jake. XDD Even if I was going out with someone, I knew that in the back of my head I still liked him. He's cute, ya'know? Dark brown hair, highlights..uh...pretty eyes (JUST LIKE JAMES XD) Lol.
Well I was walking with him and two other people (One is my ex, and the other one is my friend's ex). I forgot what we were talking about, but I remember that it somewhat pissed me off, so I walked to the door at the end of the hallway.
Me: *In a whiny-like voice* I hate you guys! All 3: Why? Me: Well everyone but Jake.
I don't think Jake heard me though because....
Jake: Well that sucks because I was gonna ask you out.
My heart fluttered, XD I dunno why, but it was just the way he said it, the fact he said it, and that it was comming from him. XD But then I thought Don't get your hopes up. I didn't know what to do!
Why?
Well...there's a few reasons for that.
1)Jake's a silly person. Sometimes he says things he doesn't really mean as a joke.
2)This same thing has happened to me before when I thought he liked me, but he didn't.
3)Jake could've been telling the truth, because that whole thing about asking me out came from no where.
GRAWR. I dont' know what to do anymore. )= Help me? =(
So...I guess taht's it for today's post. Sorry it's so long, but I appriciate it if you read and comment. =D
Hey everyone. How're you?
I've uploaded a video on youtube of me singing! X3. It's okay, but I don't really sing that well. The high parts kinda suck, and you can hear me typing in the background. XDDDD
It's Only Hope, by Mandy Moore. Yes, it is currently my MyOtaku song. X3
Please comment me on it and tell me how it is.
Don't be mean about it though, or it will make my friends very mad. ._.
SoOoOoOoO....
Today just happens to be Memorial Day.
And my mother's birthday. XD
She's 52 today. She's ooooollldddddddd. XDDDDD
She had to go to work, because last year, she took Memorial Day off, so she has to work this time. XD
Well I also saw Indiana Jones. :] It was Saturday, actually, but it was good. :]
I don't know what to post, really....>.<;
So yeah, I guess I'll go.
Time to play Stick Arena with my best frannnn SAYOKO! :D
We had this final track meet thing yesterday, where all the top students from each of the schools in our district would compete. THERE WAS 5 SCHOOLS THERE! DX.
I didn’t know where my friends were for a looooong time. XD But when one of the other schools that came, I was happy because I got to see my friend again. His name was Sebastian. :3 He was in 6th grade, lmfao.
I’ll go into much more detail later, because I’m at school right now and I really can’t type that much. T-T
So I will post more details later.
Mood:Sad/Mad/Angry/Embarassed. Doing: Crying, Talking on AIM
Okay. My cousin came home for a day and a half.
And today, I'm at his house right now. He's in the Navy.
Here are the reasons why I'm sad/mad/angry/embarassed.
SAD: He made Sayoko block me by saying some crap to her, and I don't know when she's going to Unblock me; I couldn't figure out the pattern to the stupid game that we were playing, and I was the only one who didn't understand it (But I understood the other two that we are playing. And the fact that he's leaving and I won't see him for awhile again.
MAD: My cousin made Sayoko block me. T-T He's a fucking douche, I swear. But I still love him.
ANGRY: Um....it's the same thing as mad.
EMBARASSED: My cousin made me cry in front of all his friends.
It's still dull, haha. I just did some of the basics :P
But I changed the background to fishys, XD.
Next time I change my background though, it's gonna be monkeys, because I promised Addie I would :].
And the song Save You by Simple Plan is dedicated to my friend Nick, aka xXUchiha_ItachiXx.
He's in the hospital again. =[
But if you could visit him and send him a PM to make him feel better, I'd appriciate it. :D
And with that being said, I shall depart, because I've got loads of chores to do. Dx
EDIT: I deleted a lot of people from my friends, so if you still want to be mine, just PM me. :D Comments (0) |
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Friday, May 16, 2008
Yay. They finally fixed the internet at my school!
That's why I haven't been posting, if you've been wondering.
That is...if you're still here on MyOtaku. T-T
I'm thinking about changing my theme again...what should I make it this time?
Mkay.
Sooooo…
I’m really bored right now.
I lost count at how many days were left before it’s been a year Sayoko and I have known each other. I don’t feel like counting anymore either, because I know I’m just going to forget again. :P
I haven’t posted since the day before Washington D.C either. :P I haven’t had time to go on, but I’ve been on myspace lately, so if you want to add me there, go on right ahead.
But um….Washington was cool. It was raining all day though. Literally. I was soaked at the first place that we stopped, which was Arlington Cemetery. My hoodie was so wet that it was soaking through to my hair, so I though “WHAT THE HECK”, and I pulled back my hood. Then my hair got all wet. I didn’t really care anymore, but I cared that my hair got poofy and ugly there. And curly, not to mention. :[
My friend fell down the stairs of the Lincoln Memorial. XD How stupid is he? :P
