Friday, May 30, 2008

So I broke up with my boyfriend on Wednesday, but that's the least of my worries.
Nick passed away that morning.
So I was in my first hour class doing what I normally do (Make some slides, go play games, etc.) My friend James was ther with me too, because he broke his elbow the Memorial Day weekend.
Well he was on the computer playing games that were blocked while I checked my MyOtaku. (XD)
As I logged in and everything, I saw that so many people had updated. (I only have my good friends on my list.) I clicked Sayoko's first, because she's my best friend, and she always comes first. (=P) My heart fell instantly when I read the first line of the post.
Rest in peace Nick; 2/15/1990 - 5/28/2008
My mouth literally fell open, and I could've sworn my heart stopped for a second or two. I couldn't breathe as the reality of Sayoko's post gripped my heart. James was wondering why I wasn't talking (Or responding to his question, either.)
Me: One of my best friends died.
And everything pretty much got siletn as I just started thinking about Nick and how short his life was. It just wasn't fair that his life was taken from him so abruptly. It's not fair at all.
Correct me if I'm wrong, (and I mean it) but I don't think he got out of high school. (Tell me if I'm wrong and I'll edit it.)
So I was just sitting there, staring at the computer when I started crying. Sure, I never met him and I didn't know him like Sayoko did, but he meant so much to me.
So James, being the sweet guy he can be, gave me a comforting hug. (He's watching me type this, XD. He says hi and that he's awesome. How vain is he? XD
I still cant' believe it though: Nick's life was taken by something he couldn't control himself...

I've had enough tears from me this week though! D= I've beenc rying the whole week, I swear. Plus, I'm gonna cry again at the end of the year when I say good bye to all of my friends who're going to a different high school. =( Some time for some...Happy stuff?

James kept making me feel better throughout the day. He kept singing the chorus of Bad Day by Daniel Powter, and it made me feel better each time for two reasons:
1)He was singing to me XD
2)His singing was horrible, so I joined in with him, and we sucked together. XDDDD

There's this guy at my school, who I've liked literally...since I met him three years ago named Jake. XDD Even if I was going out with someone, I knew that in the back of my head I still liked him. He's cute, ya'know? Dark brown hair, highlights..uh...pretty eyes (JUST LIKE JAMES XD) Lol.
Well I was walking with him and two other people (One is my ex, and the other one is my friend's ex). I forgot what we were talking about, but I remember that it somewhat pissed me off, so I walked to the door at the end of the hallway.

Me: *In a whiny-like voice* I hate you guys!
All 3: Why?
Me: Well everyone but Jake.

I don't think Jake heard me though because....

Jake: Well that sucks because I was gonna ask you out.

My heart fluttered, XD I dunno why, but it was just the way he said it, the fact he said it, and that it was comming from him. XD But then I thought Don't get your hopes up. I didn't know what to do!
Why?
Well...there's a few reasons for that.
1)Jake's a silly person. Sometimes he says things he doesn't really mean as a joke.
2)This same thing has happened to me before when I thought he liked me, but he didn't.
3)Jake could've been telling the truth, because that whole thing about asking me out came from no where.

GRAWR. I dont' know what to do anymore. )= Help me? =(

So...I guess taht's it for today's post. Sorry it's so long, but I appriciate it if you read and comment. =D

R.I.P Nick<3
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