Monday, September 19, 2005

.... what else....

I'm sort of checking in, I'm sorry for my absence. Hm... alot has happened recently, but not enough to go into great detail about. Hm... how about a bit of a list? Birthday was Wednesday... got a few CD's (Beck - Guero, Alice in Chains *can't remember name*, Foo Fighters... and Interpol) some shirts, which are fun... and a truck. =P A 1994 Mazda B-Series... manual too, so I spent all day learning to drive stick. Went out to dinner Friday. It was awesome. I had all three sides of my family there *Mom's side, Dad's side, and Step-Dad's side*. Was great fun. I also found out my aunt was dating a relative of a gal I adore from my spanish class. ^_^ That was a bit weird/awkward/frightening... Spent weekend at my dad's house... my sis came down from college... which is located in northern Arizona. I always have a blast when she's over... My racist dad *complete dick... I hate it when he says his racist shit around me... I almost socked him in the jaw when he made a crack around my little sis... She held me back... >_<* was watching a movie, "Crash" which seems to have every derogatory ethnic slur imaginable... I walked away from it *not knowing what it contained* after about 10 minutes. My College sis and I went into the garage and just talked... which was very refreshing. I found out alot of things about her I hadn't known... and I love her for opening up to me. Missed talking to Jenea. I'm so sorry I couldn't be on... And finally grades came home... as I suspected... my mom freaked out to some extent over the D I have in Geometry Honors... I'm working on bringing it up... but am very... torn apart at the moment. Let me illaberate. She was pissed, to say the least... but she carried herself in a very calm... depressed way. She had said some things, that hurt deeply... things about how she doughted the outcome of my planned future... but what really hurt... and sort of drove a knife in my heart, then rotated it 900 degrees... was that she had said she lost all hope in me. T.T Lost all hope that I'd succeed... Let me say, this isn't the first time I've brought bad grades home... but this was extreme. Part of it is my fault. I had "lied" to her, for about 3 weeks... saying my homework was done... all but the Geometry. She took it very badly... that she thought I couldn't trust her to ask for help... when in all reality that I have been asking for help from my Geo. teacher... and not quite receiving what I needed. I'm going to start going to some after school tutoring... to catch up on what I've missed, and find a way to continue with the baseball prep. weight training. Hm... I got alot to think about... but I'll leave you with a question. I'm sort of a vent for everyone I know... people easily open up to me, *I guess I'm a decent listener*... my friend is sort of love struck over a guy I know... but he's taken. The gal he's with is in Japan... and not likely to return anytime soon. They are continuing a distance relationship... but likely to fizzle soon. My question is, what should I tell my friend to do? I mean... I've told her she has a few options, *to wait and see how things plan out, or to let him know she's interested.* but she doesn't feel either is right... could anyone make a suggestion as to what I should tell her? Well... g'night to you all... I'm off to bed.

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