Monday, December 6, 2004

   i have a gaia name now!!!
hehe im so happy...im on gaia for real now everything is activated and it all worked out right....my name is gothic_kiki for those of you who use gaia



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Friday, November 26, 2004

   this is for brittani
did i spell ya name right....just so my two friends named this but spell their names different don't get mixed up....hoho yeah that's right im talking to you....if i remember correctly you get along real well with popo to....>.>...XD i don't like him dude thats just gross. he makes up way to many stories like "i was at boot camp" or something like that...also i feel awful and am pissed of as ever...gak.... at this point im ready to die and am parinoid as i fear somone may be reading this behind my back so i keep constantly turning to see...my back and neck is killing me could be from head banging...i want to kill my whole family and burn them (no fear i wont do that) and i hurt all over...had a weird dream last night were i kissed my boyfriend at school and there was a bed in my classroom all this took place at my elementary school then him and his mom cam to spend the night....yeah weird dream huh..yeah..thanks bebop blues for stickin on my side. no real voices are in my head but it does hurt alot....infact my whole body hurts...my neck feels like it's ganna snap off....school ot much fun either...my boyfriends really cool though i've known him forever and stuff but even more awsome then that he has no problem with gothness and he skatboards!! he's awsome dude...lol....not much else to say really so i guess i'll go buh bais!!

~doko din:you can't love someone who doesn't trust you~


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Wednesday, November 10, 2004

   im no longer alone!!!
thats right insane there more then one of us in here and im happy ok ok i wrote a gothic fanfic about shamn king heres what happins anna goes goth sleeps with yoh and kills herself all in the first chapter yay it'll be on mediaminer.org in a few days im really sad but i think that the really weird phase i was just going through has ended for now also everyone at my school is racest against me becaus im goth i swear i had to do 6o push-ups today because of my black lipstick no lie we where playing dodgeball teacher looks at me if you get it you have to do ten push-ups to get back in everyone hits me -.-' it really sucks but my dad may hae found out im goth im so glade i have designated a small portion of my room to gothness alone gee i hope none of my friends at school read this i'd be sad -.-


~doko din~
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Tuesday, November 9, 2004

   still not good
the bell is about to ring so i have no idea how long i can stay and write but it isn't letting me on at school for some reason unless i do all this really weird stuff wich makes me sad....i seperated myself from my friends and they are carrying on their marry way and now i have a headache i've discovered that my friends don't notice my depression wich im happy for this at least.....im kinda mad right now and im not even sure why...my brians is confusing me....also about the last post i would like to explain more to those who didn't get it the brain during the teenage years rewires itself for adult hood and thats kinda why the teenage brian make such poor desicions recent test have shown that they can't tell differences in human emotion as easy either...i wacthed discovery as a kid bye bell has rung


~doko din~
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Monday, November 8, 2004

   not good
i've been real messed up latley i've been having visions of being killed by demons and nightmars about it to i've become so sick it hurts to walk or even move....and last but not least meh damn hearts gettin to meh...yeah you heard right....latley i've been having mixed emotions about everything...it's so confusing i just want to ripe the dang thing out and burn it my brain is confusing me to....-im not one for big crushes but suddenly gak-...yeah you heard/read right but im not even sure who exactly it is....sigh it's weird becaus i know whats going on...during your teenage years your brain "rewires" itself preping for adult hood and thats why teens act the way they do and i thought i could deal with it but at this moment i just want to die on top of all that i've fallen into another "phase" or pit od depression this time it's real like a gothic thing it's never been like this before aside from my pyshical health im worried about my mental health latley i've also become violent and my smiles arnt that real anymore i've also relized why i hate my family so much maybe it has to do with the fact that they don't accept me gak i have to go now buh bais

~doko din: my life is going no where fast~
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Tuesday, November 2, 2004

   not much
gak i have to go bell just rang....


~doko din~
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Saturday, October 30, 2004

gak!!!
ok im back and i have logged on at the libary...did i spell that right?? anyhow not much latley but the cheer leader is ok....she's back at school with a neckbrace not much really buh bais


~doko din: sorry that was such a short update~
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