Wednesday, September 7, 2005

   Torn Apart
She hides it all - everything in the dark she sits alone torn apart `*'
she hates her Life she wants tO die she dOesnt talk much - shes`
much to shy no one knows about the cuts on her arm every time
shes alone - herself she harms this shy little girl with nothing inside
but these feelings shes had to learn to abide she wants nothing "
but for someone to care for some one to know - for them to be there_ _+
she hates herself when she cuts her wrist she finally wants it to '
end with a little twist she’ll write you a note to let u know all the*
feelings she couldnt let go she’ll let you know + everything + shes done '
all the signs u never caught - not one she’ll write you a note n she
knows u’ll cry she just wanted to know she loves you and goodbye *`
shes sorry for wat shes put u through but she did all she could 2'
get to you she’ll let you know that life will go on and she’ll watch after'
you once she is gone this little girl no older than 16 choose her own fate
or so it may seem maybe you pushed her just a little to hard maybe inside'
she was just to deeply scared maybe it was that her friends never cared
maybe it was that they were never there maybe it was that she felt alone
maybii her heart couldnt be sown maybe it was dat boy who she seemed
to love so much maybe it was just a little crush it’s a shame that now u’ll *'
never know these were her feelings she just couldnt show

~Melzzzz*
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Sunday, September 4, 2005

   The Dream Eater
The Dream Eater

Have U Ever Wanted To
Close Your Eyes
And Fall Sleep Forever?
To have All Eternity
Alone In Bed.
Dreaming Of The Perfect Life,
A Life You Could Never Have?
Well Tonight When U
Lay Awake In Bed
Don’t Think About What Ur Living
Think About What Lays Ahead.

~Melzzzz*
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Friday, September 2, 2005

   HeadLights And A Tree
Head Lights rise from above the hill on one foggy
winter night. Im in the middle of the road and froze
to the ground. I hear the bird flying away, the lights
are getting closer. My feet cant move, im trembling,
scared that im going to die. The car is speeding up
and I think its spotted its target, me, the froze ice
cube in the road. I can see my life flash before my
eyes. Then see the car in front of me......................
A tree fell in the road right before the car got to hit
me. On the tree I seen a heart with mine and my ex
boyfriends name in between a heart. I remembered
where I was now the place where we first met. I
could see us smiling as we wrote on the tree, our
love for ever other. Then I noticed the car, it was
his and my feet were able to break free. Then I walk
over to the car and see he was dead finally out of my
life.....thankx to that tree, that dead looking tree.

~Melzzzz*
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Thursday, July 14, 2005

   Self Punishment (the poem)
What is there to do
when ur all alone.
Ur body trembles
and ur crying non-stop.
When the person you’ve because
is now ur worst nightmare,
the only thing u can do is bled.

Just bled all of
ur pain, agony, hatred, and sorrow
out of those hidden crimson beaded lines
on ur arms and legs.
All because of the person who you’ve become.

U feel as if
no one understands u,
all because of a little dirty secret
that no one nos about.

U keep it locked away inside ur
deep, dark, never-ending
thoughts of death infested
little-mind.

Everyday u feel
that u want it to be ur last,
but it never is,
u always return to skool the next day.

U always have the same smirk
on ur Barbie doll face.
U look like ur having a great time,
but in the inside
ur in to pieces,
and both sides agree
that they want this to be over.

People don’t understand
what goes on
in the mind of a
suicidal teen.
People don’t realize
what’s wrong.

They think that ur life
is so perfect
that nothing could ever go wrong.
But nothing in life is perfect!
No one could ever be.
They just don’t get it!

Now u cry black tears of
anger, hate, and pain.
U bleed black blood of
rejoice, relief, and forgetting.
U can’t remember what had happened.
Cause it doesn’t work that way.

U made those other dashes on ur body,
cause u wanted to forget
those other ‘bad days’.
But when the
pain is over,
it comes back and haunts u.

All u can hear
is chattered voice
running through
ur twisted little mind.

You’ve lost that
inner child u once were.
You’ve lost ur identity,
all because of the person who you’ve become.

~Melzzzzz*
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