Saturday, June 19, 2004

   6 months and new update!
Hi everyone.
Long time no type. The last time I posted was a week ago, I think (maybe a little more) but lots of things have gone down. I am ungrounded, except for the fact that I was on the phone for more than five minutes, so I’m ungrounded from that tomorrow. I’ve been online really late this past few weeks, mostly because for grad I finally got a new laptop from my grandmother, which was promptly taken away by my father, which was then stolen back and hidden in my room by myself. Its net configured, but if I get caught with it, God help me. Oh well, I just cant get caught before Monday, or I wont be able to go to Valley Fair, which is my boyfriend’s birthday party deal. I haven’t seen him since school let out, so I’m super excited.
Speaking of my boyfriend, Friday was six months for Lee and I, so if any of you get the chance, flip over to Kasamaru’s site and wish him a happy birthday and congrats… He deserves it for being such an incredible person. And as for birthdays, mine is on August 2cd, so I’m already planning a party worthy of my soon to be eighteen self. Not to mention the free time I’m using to find the perfect tattoo… Oh god it’s going to hurt like hell but I can’t WAIT!!!! It will be a dragon, of that I am certain. I’m also finishing up a bunch of literary work soon to be posted on my Elfwood site, and that link will be up soon under my homepage link. And thanks to all those who have taken the time to read the little amount that is there. Your comments are greatly appreciated.
Anyway, I’ve been dancing around the house like a madwoman, trying to clean and swim and not get sick at the same time. Some of the repercussions of an abusive ex-boyfriend have been catching up with me more often these last few days, and I would absolutely kill to be able to live a normal life right now. ~sigh~ I’ve been trying so hard not to let my past drag me down, but I suppose sometimes I have to stop running and let it catch up with me a little. No more school, so I doubt I’ll ever see that bastard again, but God knows he’s burned into me. But hey, it’s not like he ruined my life- oh wait! Yeah it is!!! ~rolls eyes~ I have sarcasm to keep me going. That and a whole lot of kick ass friends. Dance class hasn’t been the same lately, and if none of you had heard, one of my very close friends in dance was recently hit by a car and killed. So I’m just trying hard to keep above water, although this afternoon was nasty. I was informed that I should work on a routine and assigned a new partner… so we worked and worked and worked. I never stopped (we’re supposed to take breaks) I worked until I just couldn’t, and proceeded to fall and just cry. Cry with the injustice of the whole fucking thing.
I don’t know if this has been a good summer so far or not. No job, no plans…. I’m working towards something. I jus don’t now what it is yet. Wish me luck k? Love you all!

Love,
Heather

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