Thursday, February 19, 2004

   WHAT THE FUCK?!!?!?

WILL SOMEONE TELL ME WHAT THE FUCK IS GOING ON??????? okay... breathe... *deep breaths* For all of you who are looking at this going "What the hell is wrong with her?" let me update you to my lovely plight. While it has been seemingly forever since I have posted, I will skip the pleasantries until I am done ranting. Skip right up to yesterday after school. I stayed after school, for one reason and one reason only... to spend time with my boyfriend. I made this point to my best friend, Crystal, and I thought all would be well. Everything was kool right up to the point that I had gotten settled into talking with Lee downstairs, and my name was called over the PA. Thinking it was my mom calling to check up on me, I went to go see what was up. Surprise surprise, it was my ex, Dale, who I had seen b4, and even tho he knew I stayed after to spend time w/ my b/f , he thought it would be kool to have me paged so he could follow me around like a lost puppy. Well that wasn't the best thing, but I was nice, then got cornered by Crystal so I could give her back something she had stuck in my bag. So we went down the hall, and I got my bag and gave it to Crystal, and Lee stood back and had a one on one convo with Dale about how him holding my hand and trying to hit on me and be cuddly was starting to freak me out. Dale said Lee was like Ryan, then cornered me and started talking to me about how, even tho it affects me its not my fault, and that he really wants my permission to let the two of them beat the crap out of each other. Right, thats gonna happen. So I talked to him till I got pissed over the serious immaturity, then went and got some water, and Lee came and talked to me. While Dale was on my case, Crystal (who has been a bitch to lee since day one, cuz she doesn't "know" him) and Amy were lecturing Lee. Well, Lee and I talked about the whole thing, and we decided to go back and figure this out. We went back over to where Crystal and Amy were listening to Dale.... Well Dale had finished his sentence, and I didn't hear part of it, so I asked HIM what was going on. Crystal just gave me this nasty look and said, "It's none of your business." ooooooooh angry Heather..... So I looked her straight in the eye, said "Fine then, I guess I don't need to stay." grabbed my bag, and Lee and I left. I was SO pissed. Still am, which led to this afternoons bitching match after choir today. She wants to be nasty, fine with me, but the thing was WAY more my business than hers, and if she really wanted to help, she could have done it in so many better ways than treating me like shit. So yeah, I'm upset-sad, but SO ANGRY... GRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!! *pants* I ran over b4 7th hour and got a hug.. I needed it, or someone was gonna get hurt. Lee was great, he handled the whole thing really maturely, and lemme tell you, he was the only one. Oh, and Dale apologized, so I'm OK with him. But even though I left, and hadn't talked to her most of the afternoon, she was all like, "Are you mad at me?" NOOOO REALLY? again... GRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!! But anywho, on the plus side of things, I had an incredible Vday, roses and a dagger and candy... *blush* Lee is such a sweetheart... One month aniversay last friday, so tommorow is a month and a week. It was a crazy-beautiful-amazing night... one that I wish to repeat as often as possible lol. Also I have been getting along better with Ryan, and I'm done being mad at him for now... I just needed a break from being close to him... if that makes any sense... and this weekend (parents permitting) is the dance and hopefully bowling. I'm kinda praying that I can stay over at Mandy's if my parents are gone, cuz if I get close to Crystal right now I'll freak... hey I hae boundaries, and she crossed them..... but not getting upset again *deep breaths* Anyway, thank you all for your time.... whew I needed that. Talk to you all Later!!! I love you Lee!!!!
Love always
~heather



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