Thursday, September 27, 2007

   that bout covers it




What Death Note Character Are You?


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Tuesday, September 25, 2007

weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!!?????????????
sorry im really happy hyper and confused right now which makes posting a whole lot more fun than usual weeee well incase no one knows gotta a new gf and she is wanting to take things at my pace she is really smart and smexy plus bi and emo damn how in the hell do i wind up with chicks like this im not good looking ill tell you that personality i guess gah dang she is fine i just hope she dosent hurt me in the end bad thing is she is younger then me by one year im 18 shes 17 any ways how is every one today?
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Monday, September 24, 2007

sadness
i dunno wat to say today other than im down and want it all to go away the pain the hurt all of it gone meditation isnt helping and people are afraid of me because they see me fall to my knees and scream in anger and pain the hhospital finally released me and told me to take some advil or motrin or some crap like that just like i thought my boss isnt letting me work so i quit and to top it all off im stuck in a rut im stuck between love and lust the love of my old master and the lust over a goth emo chick that is really good looking and really smart and she is wanting to go out with me i told her that id have to think bout it but i dunno it wont work out so i think ill just tell her that it be best for her to move on and explain why enjoy the new poem and plz comment on both the post and the poem

holding

holding you in my arms i feel great love and joy but when you told me it was over that was when i couldnt remmeber who i was why is it everytime were around each other i wind up holding you in my arms and feel the love and joy but when you tell me to let go it all dies there havent you seen that holding you is the only thing i have that is keeping me sane in this world havent you seen the pain you caused me no i guess not other wise you wouldnt tease me that way i guess ill just have to say goodbye to a 38 but id rather say goodbye and i love you to you aaah the pain it has come again im on the ground on my knees while you walk away from me then i close my eyes and open them to see you standing there trying to help me im confused if you hate me why do still show affection towards me if you love me why dont you just tell me inside im hurting worse than before it seems that my burdens have grown and have become more now for i caint talk to any one or let any one help me with them for i know they have their own burdens just like me and you we both have burdens that we carry but refuse to help each other carry them i guess we feel that they are ours to bear and nobody elses iknow thats how i feel well the time has come for to go as i slowly walk away from you you see me pull something out of my jacket im at least ten feet away now and your still watching when you see me out it to my head you realize wat ive just did as you see the gun fly through the air and my body land on ground that is soft as air and you run screaming towards my ifeless body and you rememeber wat i said goodbye my love i shall be watching after you as i gave you a soft gentle kiss...
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Thursday, September 20, 2007

death of two lovers
broken hearted and shattered im just going to say goodbye to her and love. for love is a putried thing i want nothing to do with it any more im realy depressed i thinking bout ending it all why caint they just leave me alone in the halls? the message is clear as bell it rings in my ear i hear nothing but the message inside why is it that thy had to die? is it because that he didnt and couldnt find true love at all ? yes that is the reason for it all the blood in the halls on floors and on the walls he shot him self in the head to get rid of it all. the pain he had and felt that day in the halls i guess you could say that it wasnt meant to end that a way for it was her that came that day and found him lying in his own waste why is it then that she came was it to say good bye to her king no it was to say hello and hi i want you back and i love you but now it is too late for he is dead and there is nothing in the wake but blood and a body of a black hearted lover why is it that the time had to come for his suicide to bring him his lover now she lies beside him a single shot just like him two lovers destinys entwined to heaven or hell they will dine no one knows wat went on that day all they know is someone had to say im sick of living with out the other i have to go away if i caint find another lover and it was then that they all heard a blast a single gun shot like the one from the past that is wat the neighbor said to the police as they tried to run ahead now there are two bodies instead of just one why did they have to die tonight in the light of a full moon was it a memory that they knew about it had to be it was the only thing that they had to see other than their dead bodies...
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Wednesday, September 19, 2007

DAMN those stupid docs and my boss AAARRRGH!!!!
damn docs like i said they said i was fine and there was nothing to worry bout but wat they dont know is how bad my chest hurts bout everytime i turn around im having to bow on one knee to help kill the pain but it isnt working too good this keeps up and i might wind up having to quit my job my boss said if it keeps up hell have to put me some where where i dont have to do heavy labor but he dosent understand is heavy labor is wat i need to do if im given a job doing something stupid like filing papers ill quit i love working to the point of having every muscle in my body is numb but my chest is preventing that damn them well the only reason i can think of these pains coming and going as they are is hes a callin me the reaper i just wish he would hurry up and quit fuckin with me well i got some bad news i got a new gf i dunno wat it is but it seems like every time i get out of a relationship there is like three dozen chicks waiting to date me why are women attracted to me why i hate it i never have anytime to heal well thats it for me how are yall?
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Tuesday, September 18, 2007

ARRRRGH!!!! damn doctors
damn doctors i dunno if yall rememeber me tellin yall bout my chest hurting well i finally broke down because my bossman came out on the floor and made me quit working because i hit the floor again with my chest hurtin well he forced me in to going to the hospital so now im trapped here cause the damn docs caint figure out wats wrong stupid sons of guns just let me go already gah im bored well how are yall?
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Wednesday, September 12, 2007

the word result is true bout me and the pic is cool that is my opinion but plz tell me wat is yours

What's Your Inner Beast? [pics]

The Werewolf:

The Werewolf is the symbol for Spiritual Paths. You have the soul of a wolf inside you, which makes you warm and caring to those you love.

Strengths: Protection is a number one priority, and therefore you always gaurd the ones you love and keep tight bonds with your pack mates. Loyalty is strong within yourself, and you also expect it from the ones who are close to you.

Flip Side: Even though you care for those you love deeply, if they betray you, anger races through your veins. The Werewolf, despite it's warm fun-loving personality, can also stand up for itself if need be. You would have no problem hiding your anger if something sets you off balance.

Congratulations! You have a Werewolf inside!

pic (c) Christy Grandjean aka GoldenWolfen

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the pain
i must thank two people here on the otaku for helping me remember why i should go on eternal dragon tavi and dragonrider10 thank you for your help tavi for helping me remain strong and rider10 for helping me remember who i can count on and come to if i need help you guys my friends at the o thank all of you but anyways arrgh well i dont know if yall remmember but if you do youll know that my last post said my chest was hurting me real bad well its gotten worse i dunno why all i know is its forcing me to my knees and i have to piss myself off just to get rid of the pain i duno but i do know is im not going to any damn doctor just for them to tell me that its nothing im fine i know something is wrong but fuck it ill just deal with it ..arrgh damn its hurting me right now shit its worse than last time h/o ...k im back sorry i had to take care of it it seems though im starting to be able to harness my full strength for those of you that have no clue wat im talking bout i have and still dont know my full strength but im starting to have to tap into it for i keep it locked up inside of me with all emotions so that i dont hurt myself or anyone else but any ways my job is requiring me to do so when i push or pull 80 to 100 pounds of wet cloth in plastic barrels and most of the time they are half way full of water out of the dye tubs anyways im slowly learning wat i can do with it but it was last night at work when i first hit the floor on my knees and hands because it hurt so bad they tried to take me to the hospital but i refused they even called in security and i kept on working those stupid renta cops tried to put hand cuffs on mebut i wound up hand cuffing them to one of the dye tubs they left alone after that but my boss got pissed at me for it so now he sees if you try to stop me from working ill push you or put you to the side somehow and finish working damn my chest is hurting again id better go fer now ill see yall or post later right now i gotta meditate to get rid of the pain if that dont work guess ill take some advil or motrin later

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Saturday, September 8, 2007

this is true i guess i dunno anymore im too lost to tell

What Type of Person Are You in Your Group of Friends?(Anime Pics)

You are cold and dark. You don't like being surrounded by a bunch of idiots of just people in general. You prefer your personal space, and you want to keep it that way. But for some reason others don't seem to understand that no matter how much of an ass you may act towards them. You are very cocky, stubborn, and easily annoyed. You may not sound like the greatest person to be with, but people love you anyway. You care greatly for the peopel you lvoe even if it doesn't show, you like to keep it that way if I may add. Your special features are making others laugh at your easily pissed off self, being able to be deep at times, being straight forward, and your protective self. Your friends would either come to annoy you, when they are really sad, or just to piss you off 'cause they know you like to be alone(unless you are thta much of a bad ass and they wont wanna come. hahaha). {AN: Sounds a lot like Hiei...lol...}
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question
would yall like to see the girl i keepmentioning the one that has caused my blood to spill and hit the floor?
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