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• 1989-02-18
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• 2007-04-17
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• trying to kill ones self
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• you can just call me rider

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• killing people
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• samurai champloo and unfourtuanately i was recently turned into a bleach fan but i cant forget blood plus
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• to one day be able to kill myself
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• trying to kill self and killing others
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• killing stuff




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Wednesday, November 7, 2007

   scary new feelings O.O;!!!!
well i thought bout it long and hard and i took a friends advice i talked her into letting me take her to a special place that i like to go when the sun is setting it is very beautiful and calming i took her to a dam where i like to fish and swim we sat in the car and talked about each others past i tried to keep the focus on hers instead of mine but she remained strong and now she knows my past my history and the bad memories that made me well me it was hard i kept getting pissed off at my self for showing weakness lucky we was there and i had given her the car keys because i was forced to hear and listen to the water crash onthe shore and the crickets and frogs sing she understood wat i was going through it was hard for her too i could see for she has never for the 3 years ive known her cried if front of anyone and there she cried on my shoulder in my arms it was weird i felt nothing but love and compassion the very emotions ive tried to kill are the emotions that seem to shine through the darkness within me i guess u could say she melted into my arms but after she got done crying and we got done talking she kissed me with a kiss full of passion like the one my ex gave me when she finally told me face to face we were over but this kiss this kiss was different it was a kiss of life at first i didnt understand wat was going on then i completely understood i made her fall in love with me the very thing i try to prevent happened but it is also the reverse i have fallen in love with her she has made me though promise to stop trying to kill myself and stop cutting and i told her as long as she stopped cutting i would make it a promise and so far things are great i feel weird like im human around her but when im alone and with my brother and his family at home its like the animal takes over and im back in my depression again i dont understand why it wont let me remain the same well i hope yall are doin fine guess ill read yalls comments later bye
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