Friday, August 5, 2005

   oh the strange-ness...

DS Time - 7:21 AM man...i had a dream...that i was being stalked...and apparently so was Jun Tao...i call that a "WTF" moment...off one anime and on to the next i guess...maybe i just have anime on the brain...there's nothing wrong with that right?...it's not like it's disturbing my sleeping habits right?...better dreams about anime than nightmares about anime... NE ways...there's really nothing else to say...cuz i live a boring life...and no one wants to hang out with me... *pouts* ...let's sing shall we?..."lonely, i'm so lonely. i have no body for my own, OHHHH!!!"...hm, nope...that didn't help...still lonely... *sighs* ...what to do what to do...well i haven't been working on my stories as hard as i had hoped...been having writer's block left and right...interruptions as well by sparkes of ideas that i've used to write one shots and other stories...it's a wonder how i've written as much as i have without adding more writing projects to my list...and pplz wonder why i think i have ADD... *shakes head* ... PS. my throat hurts for some reason...off to drink some fluids... *hugs* ... I love Ren & Hao. What about you?

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Thursday, August 4, 2005

   oops...

DS Time - 7:04 AM dude...i was so out of it i didn't even hear an alarm go off to wake me up...i guess i was too into my dream to pay any attention...it was about Tenten & Neji...they had a beautiful baby girl...that's all you need to know...gotta stop reading all those fanfics... course my lack of hearing when it came to the alarm this morning might also be cuz i had a hard time falling asleep last nite...i went to bed at around 10:30 but i didn't actually fall asleep til around midnight...too much things to think about that kept me awake...i worry too much... so...it's update day for all of you lovely pplz who still ready my stories...we're on chapter 20 and it looks like there aren't that many chapters left...if i had to guess i'd say about three or four...but that's just my thinking...NE ways enough with the rambling...for your viewing pleasure clickums here and enjoy!...happy reading my friends... ^-^ ... and if you missed it please check out the poem i posted yesterday...i really like it and how good it turned out...i think everyone can relate to it too...so please to read it...it's called "Behind the Smile"... PS. *shivers* ...the AC demon is back...die you frigid fiend!... *hugs to keep me warm* ... I love Ren & Hao. What about you?

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Wednesday, August 3, 2005

   let's be creative...

DS Time - 6:34 AM surprisingly enough...i'm a bit hyper this morning (even though i just got out of bed not ten minutes ago)...the sad part is there's no one to enjoy it with me... *pouts* ...the downside of waking up so early in the morning... speaking of which...i'm so gonna hate it when school starts...mom won't even take me driving NE more...i haven't practiced in a month...so i'm guessing that i'm taking the bus to school next semester...but i HATE taking the bus...i don't even wanna go back to school...i'd drop out of college if i could...but i did that mom would kill me... *sighs* ... well NE ways...here's a little something...tis called "Behind the Smile"...enjoy!... As I sit here laughing amongst my friends I wonder if they will ever understand Though I seem happy and so carefree Do they know that this isn’t the real me? With my good nature and gleeful style I hide all my pain behind a smile I sit and joke with all the rest Secretly hoping they’ll pass the test That they’ll see all the things I keep inside Things I never show because of my pride To look behind the mask that I always wear And see the empty heart that’s hiding there The loneliness and isolation that I feel The broken soul that I can’t seem to heal The wet tears that I’m always crying My sad spirit that’s always dying A secret life so quiet and meek To find the freedom I always seek All hidden behind a simple grin Fighting a battle that I will never win PS. *sighs* ...i need a hug right now... *big hug* ... I love Ren & Hao. What about you?

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Tuesday, August 2, 2005

   tough it out...

DS Time - 6:38 AM i think i've found a solution to my sleeping problem...or to be more accurate...my waking up problem...just go to sleep earlier...ain't nothing wrong with getting some more sleep...Kami knows i need it...who ever said school had to be a full eight hours?...well in my case it's only like...three hours a day?...the one good thing about college courses i guess... so me & mom were a little busy yesterday afternoon...laid down some carpeting downstairs...we already did the stairs the other day so all we had to do was roll out the carpet...looks quite nice if i do say so myself...who needs a carpenter when a girl & her mom can do it just fine?...saved us a lot of money too...gave me something to do... got to talk to my best friend too...haven't heard from her in a while...she's not the type to actually call NE one and all that...she's also having suicidal thoughts too... *sighs* ...it's a crappy world when pplz like her are thinking of suicide...she talks about it so freely now...hopefully i can keep her thoughts away from that for a little while...i should ask her to go do something...i don't know what to do... *pouts* ... PS. "save the trees, they're magic! there's an elf and he's gonna help three midgets and a crack-head throw a ring into a volcano!"...hehe...don't ask... *hugs* I love Ren & Hao. What about you?

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Monday, August 1, 2005

   a purpose...

DS Time - 7:37 AM the purpose of setting an alarm is to get up when it goes off...when will i grasp that concept?...took me an hour to get out of bed today...mainly cuz i went back to sleep...this whole "start getting used to it a month in advance" isn't working out so well...time for a new plan of attack... meanwhile...i had another strange dream...thankfully there's no Tenten in this one (at least from what i remember)...i was in this weird caferteria (sp?)...and all the food was looking...weird...but i thought i would be safe with some regular pizza...how wrong i was...all they had was roast chicken pizza...and there it was with a giant roast chicken ontop of the pizza...needless to say i decided to just get a soda...i don't think i had any problems with that... so guess what?...it's update day!... *cheers for those who actually still read "Aftermath"* ...what interesting plot twist are we in for today?...well click here and step thru the portal to Middle-earth to find out!...read and enjoy my friends!... PS. i'm uncharacteristically hyper this morning...i blame the coffee... *hugs* I love Ren & Hao. What about you?

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Sunday, July 31, 2005

   I made it home!!!...

DS Time - 8:00 AM well the wedding was actually fun...when pplz started dancing NE ways...the party was kinda dead in the beginning...i think Oniichan livened things up...never knew how much of a fool my big brother was...got pictures of him & Big Bro dancing with mom...now wasn't that sweet of them?... did a lil dancing myself...i will say this...the Cha Cha Slide is pretty fun...had pplz get all confused and turned around with all the "commands"...but it was fun all the same...though it's hard to "get low" in a dress and slippery shoes...i had a nice time trying to get up from that...note to self: no more dresses to parties... on the plus side...mom didn't seem to object when i had a few glasses of wine...i figured i only have one year left before i'm legal and it may be a while before i go to another party...so i might as well enjoy it when i could...she didn't say NE thing against it even though i had more than she did... all in all the wedding was better than i expected...still reminded me of the fact that i had no significant other to share my life with...but that didn't stop me from standing up there when the bride threw the bouquet...i had no chance of catching it...hehe...oh well...let me get a nice boyfriend who's not pussy-whipped or a coward and then we'll think about catching a bouquet... PS. congratuations to Joe & Danielle Dao on their marriage...may it be a long blissful union... *hugs* ... I love Ren & Hao. What about you?

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Saturday, July 30, 2005

   have fun?...

DS Time - 6:53 AM i find it hilarious that i have 4 xanga pages, a MyOtaku page, and a DA page...why do i need all of these blogs?...i have no clue...not sure that it's cuz i actually need them...why do i have all of these blogs?...different reasons...let me elaborate... i have a main one...one that i made just so i could post "Remembering the Past"...one for me to rant and rave about my family without them reading about it(since they have xanga pages too & subscribed to my main one)...and the last one is a joint page that me & my friend crated...MyOtaku is for all my anime needs i suppose...and DA is my most recent one that my friend got me hooked on...cuz i write way too much for my own good...i guess i'm just insane that way... so i have a wedding to go to today...let me tell you one thing...i hate weddings (receptioins included)...i never have any fun there...all it does is reminds me of what i don't have (ie. a loving life partner of any kind)...but i'll go cuz i've known the groom since i was 5...so i'll support him on his special day...maybe get some free food and booze (not really but it's a nice thought huh?) while i'm at it... but mom is making me take part in this sort of "proprer ettique" or whatever...says i have to sit with her and all the other adults since i'm a "big person" now (that's what it translates out to in Viet)...at least until i finish eatting... *sighs* ..."proper ettique" my azz...whoever came up with that needs to be castrated, fried, and stoned (not necessarily in that order)... on a lighter note...i came across a fanfic that i think you guys would like...it's a sad one and it made me cry...no happy ending here so don't expect one...well i guess you could consider it a happy ending on some aspect...i don't know...NE ways i suggest you check out "Not You" by Gasha-Aisu...you will most likely get a bit teary-eyed so keep a tissue on hand... PS. wish me luck with this wedding business... *big hugs* I love Ren & Hao. What about you?

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Friday, July 29, 2005

   what the hell?...

DS Time - 6:16 AM wo that's freaking early...on the plus side it only took me 5 minutes to get out of bed today...but something seriously weird is going on with my computer...all the colors are...different...everything's brighter and lighter...extrememly lighter...and it's freaking me out...i thought it was cuz i was still a little sleepy after getting up so early...but the colors aren't supposed to be this way...it's all throwing me off... so no strange dream to speak of today...and thank goodness for that...i was starting to think Tenten was getting her own TV show in my head...wouldn't that be interesting?...and a bit maddening too i suppose... well it's update day... *sleepy claps* ...let's just say that things get a little more...complicated today...and we love when it gets complicated right?... *yawns & nods in agreement* ...alrighty then...now if you would be so kind as to click that the lovely link provided here...enjoy indulging in the world of Middle-earth...happy reading!... well...i had something else to say...i know i did...i was thinking about it last nite...but i can't for the life of me remember what it was...dern it!... *pouts* ... PS. one of these days my memory won't be so...scattered... *big hugs* ... I love Ren & Hao. What about you?

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Thursday, July 28, 2005

   Tenten on the brain...

DS Time - 6:50 AM note to self: work on staying awake when the alarm goes off...dern me for wanting to finish my dream...i guess i've been reading too many fnnfics...in this one Tenten drowned... *sad face* ...carried in from the ocean by Sasuke...buried and cried over by Neji...i need to stop... well i guess half of the reason i couldn't get up this morning was cuz i didn't go to bed when i intended too...i was gonna go to bed a little early again...but then my friend decided she wanted to IM me when i was about to get off...but at least i had some self control...we only chatted for about an hour...maybe i should get an alarm for my bedtime too... um...so there's some unresolved conflict within my family (relatives and all)...i'm not sure where or when this all started...but my high maintenance aunt from Cali is really getting on my last nerves...just because we're middle classed and don't have as a luxurious house as she does... *sighs* ...what ever happened to family sticking together?...whatever...she can act that way if she wants...i don't give a shiet NE more about her... PS. who needs family?...you guys are my family... *hugs* ... I love Ren & Hao. What about you?

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Wednesday, July 27, 2005

   weird sleeping habits...

DS Time - 6:29 AM for some reason...i woke up at 4:00 this morning...i laid in bed half asleep until my alarm went off...i don't know what woke me up though...i can tell you one thing...that was probably some of the best sleep in my life...if only every nite could be like that...could it be cuz i went to bed a little bit earlier last nite?...hm...maybe... so i watched the series finale of "Empire"...i must say it was a bit of a disappointing ending after watching all the action of the enitre mini-series (or at least what i saw of it)...but i guess you gotta stick to what happened in the history books...or something like that... read some Naruto fanfics yesterday...i've been combing thru the thousands of fanfics for some NejiTen...and i've found that there's only one in every like 20 that i look at...and half of those aren't really all that good...which sucks for Tenten...but oddly enough i did find a Neji, Tenten, Sasuke love triangle one...even one that was ItaTen and KanTen (OMFG!)... O.O! ...see i'm not the only one who's crazy thinking...but i've got just one question...am i completely insane for even thinking of writing a GaaTen?...ima shut up now... so it rained all day yesterday...the Rain Goddess was pleased...very much so, yes...there was not lightning or thunder which was nice...less chances of the power being cut off...sure i can go a few days without the computer and TV...but i need light to read my books and a clock to tell the time...i get crazy when i don't know what time it is...i don't know why... PS. hail to the Mistress of the Rain!...i don't know...ignore that comment... *hugs* ... I love Ren & Hao. What about you?

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